after double rebirth

Chapter 26 Have you been wronged outside?

Ji Huai went home first to put away his things, then bought some snacks and toys, put them in a backpack, and got on the bus back to town early the next morning.

It is more than two hours' journey from the station on the outskirts of the city to the town. Ji Huai leaned his head on the window of the car and looked at the scenery outside which was completely different from the city center, from old low-rise bungalows and shops to large tracts of land and The woods, his eyes were set far away, and his heart was very peaceful.

When he was in the hospital before, Ji Nuannuan and Bai Mei had to take a car for more than two hours and then transfer to the city bus to see him in the hospital. It wasn't until he was critically ill that they rented a house near the hospital.

That thick and simple feeling is the most important pillar for him to struggle to survive.

The bus was bumping, and Ji Huai was a little drowsy. He leaned against the window, closed his eyes, and took a short nap.He didn't realize at all that the man sitting diagonally behind secretly took out his mobile phone and took a picture of him.

It was past ten o'clock when we arrived at the orphanage. The older children were in class and the younger ones were playing in the yard. Ji Huai stood at the entrance of the orphanage, looking at the clean and simple yard in front of him, feeling dazed for a while.

"Xiao Qi?" Bai Mei's voice suddenly came from behind him.Ji Huai turned his head and saw Bai Mei carrying a basket, which contained a large bundle of spinach with soil.

"It's really you, Xiao Qi!" Bai Mei was overjoyed and chattered, "Aren't you going to work today? Why did you remember that you came back? You haven't come back to see the teacher for many years. Have you had breakfast? I just went to the vegetable field to pluck I bought spinach and made spinach soup at noon, but you don’t like spinach, right? It’s okay, we have other dishes, don’t you know, the food in the courtyard is much better now than when you were young, there is meat in every meal ...Xiaoqi?"

She watched in astonishment as the big boy who was a head taller than her suddenly had red eyes, fluttering nose, and trembling lips, as if he was about to collapse and cry in the next second.

Ji Huai looked at Bai Mei. The last time he saw her was before his dying bed. At that time, Bai Mei and Ji Nuannuan were devastated by the bad news. There was only a four-year gap compared to now, but Bai Mei seemed to be ten years older, with gray hair and a sad expression. She held Ji Huai's weak hand in her generous and warm hand, and sent him off for the last time.

For Ji Huai, that was only a few days ago.

The people in front of him became more and more blurred, finally, tears condensed into drops and rolled down from the sockets of his eyes, Ji Huai rushed forward and hugged Bai Mei's warm body tightly, big tears fell down: "...Teacher... ..."

"Are you wronged outside?" Bai Mei patted him on the back distressedly.She has no children, but there are many children. Ji Huai is the one she is most worried about. He didn't fit in when he was a child, and he didn't know how to cater to the parents who came to adopt him. Such a good-looking child is an omega, but no one wants it in the end. I grew up alone and stubbornly.

The children playing in the yard ran over curiously and asked Baimei who Ji Huai was and why she was crying.Ji Huai wiped his face embarrassingly and stood up straight. After living for more than 20 years, it was embarrassing to cry in front of a group of children.

He distributed the things he brought to the children, and the children were very happy, and they circled around him. Ji Huai was surprised to find that he no longer had any resistance from his previous life to this orphanage that brought him many dark memories, maybe it was Because there are Bai Mei and Ji Nuannuan here, or maybe because he has experienced a darker experience.

He played with the children for a while. Several very young babies were placed in the stroller to bask in the sun, babbling and talking to the people who took care of them. The baby's swollen cheeks and chubby little hands caused another pain in his heart.

Some people want children but are forced to lose them, and some people have children but don't bring them up.

Ji Huai thought bitterly that he might really be a poor relative, without father and mother, thinking that the lover he met killed him with his own hands, and he himself killed his child with his own hands.

Even if he comes back to life again, he doesn't have the strength to love someone anymore.He was a lonely person, and he was willing to open his heart to Tan Yi, and he had spent all his courage. He didn't want to have that kind of pain again, he would definitely go crazy and die.

Ji Huai's long stare caught the attention of the teacher who took care of the baby. He took a little girl out of the car and walked to Ji Huai: "Are you cute? Do you want to hug her?"

Looking at her curious and ignorant eyes and her soft little body, Ji Huai wanted to hug her, but he didn't know how to do it: "I, I have never hugged a child before."

"It's very simple. She is almost one year old and can be hugged vertically. You support her like this... Yes, she likes to be hugged by others. She doesn't recognize her birth at all. She is so cute."

Ji Huai frightened and hugged the soft little girl with the fragrance of milk into his arms, she was not afraid at all, she reached out and grabbed the clothes on Ji Huai's chest, then pressed her little head against Ji Huai's chest, and after a while After a while, he suddenly raised his head and grinned at Ji Huai with a small, toothless mouth, showing a silly smile.

Ji Huai's heart softened, and he cherishedly kissed the top of the little girl's head.

Soon it was lunch time, and Ji Huai ate in the cafeteria.Bai Mei was right, with the help from the Sky Foundation, the standard of living in the orphanage was no longer comparable to that of Ji Huai's time, with balanced meat and vegetables and comprehensive nutrition.After dinner, the children took a nap, Ji Huai helped clean up the restaurant, and chatted with Bai Mei for a while.

At six o'clock in the afternoon, Ji Nuannuan got the news from Baimei and came back with the children from school today.She usually lives in the faculty dormitory in the town, and today she came back specially to see Ji Huai.The two hadn't seen each other for a long time, and there were many topics to talk about, and they didn't rest until late at night.

In the city center more than 100 kilometers away, Tan Yi finished his work for the day, integrated all the information he had received, and looked through it carefully.

This is Ji Huai's personal file, from the time he was taken in by the orphanage, he graduated from elementary school, middle school, and university.Because the town Ji Huai lives in is relatively backward, and the information is very brief, it is only after going to university that he has relatively detailed information.But it was limited to his grade points, honors and other school content, because Ji Huai had always been a loner in the university, and besides attending classes, he also had a lot of part-time jobs every day, and it was impossible to find out about his friends.

Ji Huai's life of more than 20 years has been written on a few thin sheets of paper.

But he still doesn't know what Ji Huai likes, what he doesn't like, whether he has a relationship partner, and whether there are any pathogenic factors that may cause blood cancer.

Tan Yi breathed out irritably. He wanted to see Ji Huai very much. After thinking about it for three years, he finally had a living Ji Huai that he could see, but he couldn't get close. This made him feel anxious and frustrated.

Fortunately, there are still photos.

Tan Yi clicked on the dialog box, and today the person in charge of tracking has sent more than a dozen photos, which he has seen during the day, but still can't help but click on it again.

Ji Huai standing in the carriage holding the handrail, Ji Huai waiting for the train, closing his eyes for a nap, and playing football with his children.Each picture is a very ordinary life scene, but it makes people linger for a long time. Tan Yi can hardly move his eyes when he looks at the people in the pictures.

As for the last one, he was a little afraid to click on it.

At that time, the silhouette of Ji Huai was holding a child. The white and tender baby was crouching in the arms of the tall and handsome young man. It was originally a very beautiful picture. Ji Huai's profile was very beautiful, with a straight nose and long eyelashes. , full lips, clear and smooth jaw line.His gaze was gentle, yet concealed a hint of melancholy that seemed to exist.

Tan Yi's heart trembled violently.

It was his perfect family life that he had imagined so many times.

Tan Yi has no obsession with his child. After Zhuang Yelin's gland was injured, he quickly made preparations to never have a child of his own in his life.But when he heard from Cheng Yousheng that Ji Huai was pregnant with his child, he still received a huge shock.

The feeling of being shocked and sad before the joy can be fully formed is unique in Tan Yi's life and is unforgettable.

Tan Yi sighed lightly, told the other party to continue to follow up on Ji Huai's movements, then closed the computer and prepared to rest.But as usual, he lay for a long time without being able to fall asleep.

Ever since learning of Ji Huai's death and Zhuang Yelin's actions, sleep, the most common life activity of ordinary people, has become a daily torture.He has severe sleep disturbances and can't fall asleep, or wakes up early and is so full of thoughts that he can't stay asleep.

There were many nights when Tan Yi couldn't fall asleep all night, and there were also some nights when he seemed to fall asleep in a trance, but soon woke up at two or three o'clock in the morning. He consulted a psychiatrist for intervention, and chose medicine after it had no effect. Stop and increase the dose so that you can fall asleep smoothly.

Tan Yi thought, even if it wasn't for the car accident, he might not have many years to live, and one day he would die of a drug overdose.

But in this life, he doesn't want to do that, he wants to live for a long time, with Ji Huai.

He adjusted his breathing, tried his best to relax his body and mind, and tried to recover the ability to sleep through the techniques provided by the psychiatrist, but the effect was mediocre, and Ji Huai's face always appeared in his mind inadvertently.Tan Yi sighed, sat up from the bed, turned on the phone and checked the time.

Three in the morning.

Unable to fall asleep anyway, Tan Yi opened his notebook and searched for the cause of leukemia.The knowledge on the Internet is mixed, and there are various opinions. He simply logged into the paper database, hoping to get some relatively professional insights from it.

It wasn't until there was light in the sky that Tan Yi closed the interface, and rubbed the bridge of his nose tiredly to relieve the soreness in his eyes.Like other cancers, the causes of leukemia are very complicated, and both genes and the environment are affected. Such a conclusion can't alleviate Tan Yi's worries at all. He still needs to contact experts in this field. Even if Ji Huai is tied up, he must be treated. A comprehensive physical examination.