After the apprenticeship, I became a hater

Chapter 139

There were too many misunderstandings between them, too many mistakes, sometimes Luo Wuchen couldn't help thinking that maybe they were actually in love with each other, but he thought that Xie Wan was not sincere, and Xie Wan also thought that He didn't care?

If it's true, did he treat Xie Wan too much?

He has lived for nearly 300 years, and he has never moved forward. This is the first time he is so hesitant as a mother-in-law.

My mind was in a mess, and I lost my usual calmness.

He had never felt so timid that he didn't even dare to believe that Xie Wan liked him.

How could Xie Wan like him?

He was not nice to Xie Wan at all.

Yes, he is not good to Xie Wan at all, Xie Wan will definitely not love him.

Luo Wuchen felt a deeper remorse.

He wants to treat Xie Wan well, he wants to make up for Xie Wan.

But he didn't know how to do it.

No one has ever taught him how to love someone.

The old suzerain only taught him to cut off love and desire, and everyone wants him to be cold-hearted. He is a sharp sword without a scabbard, which can only hurt people, but not love.

Fortunately, Xie Wan is still by his side, and they still have time to wait for him to wear off the edge, until he learns how to love...

Because Xie Wan's soul is incomplete, even though his body looks no different from ordinary people, it is still not as good as ordinary people.

A miscarriage almost caused Xie Wan to lose his body. Luo Wuchen tried every means to take care of Xie Wan's body. The pain in the body can be healed by medicine, but how can the scars in his heart be healed?

Although Xie Wan didn't blame Luo Wuchen, he was depressed all day long.

Luo Wuchen noticed that Xie Wan had a grudge against his own weakness, but he couldn't understand why Xie Wan cared so much about whether he had cultivation or not.

Whatever Xie Wan wanted, he could fetch it for Xie Wan. Xie Wan didn't need to work himself out, and he didn't need to face the wind and rain by himself.

What difference does it make if there is no cultivation base?

Although puzzled, Luo Wuchen still made a spirit sword for Xie Wan and gave it to Xie Wan.

Luo Wuchen didn't know how to ask for credit, and he didn't know how to talk sweetly. He didn't tell Xie Wan how many precious refining materials were consumed by that spirit sword, nor did he say how much energy and time he spent refining this spirit sword. .

He just sent the spirit sword to Xie Wan's hands in silence.

"Give it to me?"

It's for you.

Luo Wuchen felt uneasy for the first time, he didn't know if Xie Wan would like the spirit sword he practiced for Xie Wan.

From seeing Luo Wuchen to seeing this spirit sword, from the beginning to the end, Xie Wan's expression was indifferent, unable to tell whether he liked it or not.

Luo Wuchen straightened his back slowly, "Do you like it?"

As long as Xie Wan likes it, he can get anything for Xie Wan.

But Xie Wan only said, so what if you like it, for a useless person like him, no matter how good the spirit sword is given to him, it is just a pearl dusted in dust.

This is not the first time Luo Wuchen has heard Xie Wan call himself a useless person contemptuously and self-deprecatingly.

Seeing Xie Wan like this, Luo Wuchen felt uncomfortable.

It was he who sealed Xie Wan's cultivation and broke Xie Wan's wings.

He has regrets.

But Luo Wuchen still didn't undo the seal on Xie Wan's dantian after all, wait a little longer, and when he confirmed that Xie Wan would not leave, he would undo the seal.

Luo Wuchen never knew anything that could make him so afraid.

But he really couldn't stand Xie Wan leaving his side.

Xie Wan wanted to leave him.

Just as love cannot be hidden, not loving someone cannot be faked.

Luo Wuchen felt unprecedented panic, he felt that Xie Wan seemed to have turned into quicksand in the palm of his hand, no matter how he squeezed his palm, he would eventually escape from his grasp.

But at this time, the barrier used to separate the Demon Realm and the Realm of Comprehension broke.

He is the sword master, he has to take care of this kind of thing.

After so many things, Luo Wuchen has realized that Zetianzong is not a suitable place to place Xie Wan.

Luo Wuchen took Xie Wan to Xuewu City together, and it was this move that gave Xie Wan a chance to leave him.

When the cultivation base reaches the level of Luo Wuchen, intuition is sometimes more effective than divination.

The closer to Xuewu City, the further Xie Wan and Luo Wuchen separated him. Even though they were so close, why did they still feel uneasy?

Luo Wuchen didn't understand.

He couldn't tell why he was so uneasy, and he didn't know how to alleviate the uneasiness in his heart, so he followed his own heart and prayed to Xie Wan, who controlled his mind, for a promise not to leave.

But Xie Wan lied to him.

Those demons said that Xie Wan hated him and wanted him to die. It was Xie Wan who cooperated with them that allowed them to set a trap against Luo Wuchen.

"Nonsense." Luo Wuchen refused to listen to the instigation of this group of demons.

Yes, provocation, Xie Wan would not treat him like this.

Xie Wan must have been used, the demons have always been insidious, he must not let Xie Wan fall into the hands of the demons.

Luo Wuchen has never been so eager to see Xie Wan, almost trading injuries for injuries, Luo Wuchen got rid of the group of demons and found Xie Wan——

Protected by demons and demons in the center, Xie Wan seems to have always belonged to the forces of the demon realm.

At that moment, Luo Wuchen felt as if a bucket of ice water had been poured over his head, and his self-deceiving brain instantly woke up.

"Come back with me." Even if he saw it with his own eyes, Luo Wuchen still didn't want to believe that Xie Wan really colluded with the demons, and didn't want to believe that Xie Wan left him voluntarily.

But Xie Wan looked at him without a trace of love or nostalgia.

"I won't go back with you."

Luo Wuchen clenched the sword in his hand.

He could forcibly bring Xie Wan back as in the past, but this time, he couldn't do it.

He swore that he would never hurt Xie Wan again, not even a sliver.

His sword would never point at Xie Wan.

Thinking that he might hurt Xie Wan when he draws his sword against these monsters, Luo Wuchen felt that the sword in his hand seemed to be extremely heavy.

He couldn't stop him, he could only pray for Xie Wan.

"Don't go..."

Obviously, Xie Wan promised to always love him and stay by his side.

But now, those good memories seem to be just his imagination.

All he was given was the cruel reality.

Xie Wan's voice didn't have any emotional ups and downs, and broke Luo Wuchen's hope mercilessly: "It's all a lie to you."

Words can hurt more than swords.

Luo Wuchen's face instantly turned pale, and he felt that the blood in his whole body was frozen.

It was as if falling from a cliff, falling defenselessly to pieces.

There is only a boundless blank in the sea of ​​consciousness.

Luo Wuchen couldn't react to what Xie Wan was talking about.

Is it because of what he did wrong in the past that Xie Wan didn't love him and didn't want him?

"Don't want me." Luo Wuchen let out a painful gasp from his throat.

He felt some warm liquid flowing out of his eye sockets, was it the blood from the previous injury?

Luo Wuchen didn't know, he only knew that Xie Wan didn't want him anymore.

"I know I was wrong, don't go..."

Luo Wuchen's face became paler, his eyes were blurred, and his voice trembled out of shape.

Obviously his heart was not injured, but he felt what it was like to have his heart hollowed out.

Every time I utter a word, I can feel that place bleeding.

How can it be so painful?

Why is it so painful?

"... Xie Wan! Wanwan, don't go—"

My heart was so broken that I couldn't even make a sound.

please don't want me...

But Xie Wan still followed the group of demons and left him, without hesitation, without looking back, and walked away from him step by step.

Luo Wuchen stared at Xie Wan's back until Xie Wan's figure completely disappeared before his eyes.

The heart hurts as if it was dug out on the spot. The scar that Xie Wan stabbed on his heart last time has healed up long ago, so why does it still hurt so much?

Luo Wuchen clenched his empty palm, the tendons on the back of his hand protruding.

The tighter he gripped, the more his heart ached.

He didn't know how to relieve the pain in his heart, like a trapped animal, Luo Wuchen raised his fist and slammed it hard on the ground.

Pain and shock spread upward from the finger bones, but they failed to relieve the pain in the heart, not even the slightest bit.

There was no longer a demon in the gap in the barrier, Luo Wuchen finally realized that Xie Wan would not change his mind.

After an unknown amount of time, the blood flowing out of the body dried up, and the collapsed building was covered with wind and sand. Luo Wuchen propped himself up with his sword, and slowly walked in the opposite direction.

He didn't know where he should go, so he kept walking like this, and as he walked, a voice stopped him.

"This fellow Taoist, do you want to drink together?"

Luo Wuchen stopped in his tracks numbly, "What is wine?"

Maybe it's because the despondency in him is so obvious that even a drunk can see that he has been emotionally hurt.

"Alcohol is a good thing." The drunk face turned red, and he pulled Luo Wuchen to sit down, "When you are sad, drink, and when you are drunk... you won't be sad."

"Won't you be sad when you're drunk?" Luo Wuchen repeated softly.

The drunkard's eyes were blurred, "When you're drunk, you can forget everything, if you don't remember anything, of course you won't be sad hahahaha..."

Luo Wuchen took the wine cup, the spicy liquid entered his throat, and his consciousness seemed to be confused for a moment.

"There is wine today, drunk today, not drunk - no return!"

The other drunk hugged the wine jar and laughed loudly. He was so drunk that he couldn't wake up. Luo Wuchen seemed to see the melancholy on his body go away.

If you're drunk, you won't be sad.

Luo Wuchen drank one sip after another, but only felt that the more he drank, the more sober he became.

They said that when you get drunk, you can forget everything you want to forget. Luo Wuchen's eyes were full of sadness, "Why do I still remember?"

Countless pasts flashed before his eyes like a revolving lantern, and finally froze on the back of Xie Wan who left without hesitation.

Just thinking back, there will be a pain in my heart that is not weaker than the original one.

"Why..." Luo Wuchen's eyelashes trembled, he took a breath with difficulty, and caressed his heart that was still in pain, "My place still... hurts?"

Fear arises out of love, sorrow arises out of love.

Luo Wuchen finally learned what love is, but Xie Wan had already abandoned him.