After the apprenticeship, I became a hater

Chapter 37

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in this way.

My heart sank.

Seeing that my face was really ugly, Xu Shi changed the voice of the old doctor, "However, you don't have to be discouraged, young master. Although we can't help you, we know who can save you."

I felt chills all over my body, and even the roots of my teeth were trembling. When I heard the voice of the old doctor, my eyes turned to him dully: "...Who?"

"Elder Qin Qing, the master of Danfeng of Zetianzong." Obviously, the old doctor admired Qin Qing very much. He encouraged me and said, "Elder Qin has excellent medical skills, and the young master has already come here. You can try it." Go ask Master Danfeng to remove the insect poison for you, maybe there is still a glimmer of life."

I feel even colder, and I can almost hear my teeth chattering.

"You mean, with the ability of the master of the Zetianzong Pill Peak, you can actually remove the insect poison in my body?"

"Of course! Who doesn't know that the chief doctor of Zetianzong Danfeng is the best in Zhongzhou. Asking him to treat the insect poison in your body is just a little more trouble."

"Oh, oh." I nodded blankly, my voice was dry, as unpleasant as the noise made by splitting a dead tree: "That's right."

It turns out that Qin Qing can remove the insect poison for me.

Yes, I numbly thought, even the most mediocre physician can tell that I am terminally ill and dying.

As the master of Danfeng, Qin Qing couldn't see it.

Then Master... Master, does he know?

Luo Wuchen, the majestic sword master, really...

I don't know if my life is coming to an end?

My fingers unconsciously clenched into fists, because of too much force, the knuckles were covered with white phalanges.

Master, do you know that I only have three years to live?

You know, I actually have a chance to live.

Do you know... the elixir he made me take every day is actually the Tianhui elixir that will make me die faster?

He obviously knew the truth, but he was still obsessed with it and refused to give up...

Even I myself feel that I am so stupid.

In a trance, there was a voice ruthlessly ridiculing in my ear, telling me not to be stupid anymore.

It is true that the elixir given to me was refined by Qin Qing, but the elixir for alchemy was found by Luo Wuchen himself.

That being the case, how could he know nothing?

The more I know, the colder my heart becomes.Little by little, it was finally completely cold, and I no longer had any expectations.

I just find it funny.

what.

How ridiculous.

I want to laugh, but I just can't.

Everyone is lying to me.

Master, you are lying to me too.

In the end, it was Su Lianyi who was telling the truth.

Unfortunately, I still refuse to write.

You have to hit the south wall until your head is bleeding, and you don't know the pain.

How ridiculous.

I struggled to survive in the swamp.

Everyone stood in the stands, condescending, watching with cold eyes.

Too much sadness welled up in my heart, and the pain made my brain go blank for a moment.

"...Young master," the old doctor asked me, "Do you have any questions?"

"No more." I shook my head blankly, looked up at the empty sky, and my heart was also empty.

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After all, no one rescued me.

I just feel that the blood in my whole body is completely cold.

"I'm leaving, I should go back."

I murmured in a low voice, and walked out of the hospital in a daze.

At this time, the sun was setting, and in the afterglow of the setting sun, I walked back to the Zetian Sect step by step like a wandering soul.

【Why do you think Lord Sword Master treats you differently? 】

[Why do you think that the Zetianzong would tolerate you, a useless person, using the prestige of the sword master to pretend to be a tiger? 】

[Because you are the sword master's love robbery. 】

【Guess, how many people expect you to die? 】

The words that Su Lianyi said in Zangshu Pavilion turned into a nightmare that could not be dissipated, drilled into my brain, and beat me to death over and over again.

In the end... Only what Su Lianyi said was true.

【You are just his love affair. 】

【From beginning to end, he didn't want you to live. 】

I should have known.

I thought blankly.

How can a person like me deserve to be treated sincerely.

I should have... thought of it.

A heart-pounding pain came from my chest, and my body was surging with energy and blood. I didn't check for a while, and I tripped over a dead branch on the mountain road.

The sharp gravel was embedded in the palm of my hand, and I stared blankly at the bloody palm that could not be cut by the sharp gravel, and slowly blinked my eyes.

it hurts...

I'm sore.

My vision was blurred by water mist, tears covered my vision, I opened my mouth, but found that I couldn't make any sound.

It turned out that when the pain was extreme, I couldn't even cry.

Don't cry.

No, it's just... being cheated again.

It's not the first time you've been scammed.

There's nothing to cry about.

Don't cry, Xie Wan, don't cry.

I wiped away the tears on my face over and over again, but I couldn't wipe them away, as if I wanted to turn all the grievances I had suppressed until now into tears and cry dry.

"why……"

...why did you lie to me?

Luo Wuchen, why are you lying to me?

I fell and sat in the dead branches and mud, and a heavy rain fell silently in my eyes.

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I don't like the Chosen Sect.

I never wanted to pursue longevity.

There is only one reason for staying in Zetianzong, Luo Wuchen.

Luo Wuchen gave me a fantasy dream.

Waking up now.

I should go too.

Zetianzong was never worthy of my nostalgia, and the only reason I thought it was a bondage was just illusory, I wiped my face, wiped away the tears on my face, and took one last look in the direction of Killing Peak. Nostalgia turned around and walked down the mountain.

I have no friends, and no one to say goodbye to. I wanted to leave quietly, but it still backfired.

When I went down the mountain and passed Zhuxian Terrace, I met Luo Wuchen who returned to the sect.

He is still dressed in pure white snow, not stained with dust.

Xu Shi never expected to see me at Zhuxian Terrace, Luo Wuchen looked slightly surprised.

"Where have you been?"

Luo Wuchen looked at me, frowned slightly, and asked, "Why are you in such a mess."

The moonlight is very bright tonight, illuminating Luo Wuchen's pale pupils like a bright mirror, I saw my own appearance in Luo Wuchen's eyes,

His face was pale, his hair was disheveled, and he even lost one of his shoes. He was really in a mess.

My eyes looked at him for a moment, and my voice was so hoarse that it was hard to hear what I said: "I lost the medicine you gave me."

"It's okay," Luo Wuchen didn't care whether the pill was dropped for real or fake, he said lightly, "I'll get it for you again."

Give me another bottle of no return pill?

I was full of ridicule, but there was only a blank look on my face.

Forget it.

At this point, do we still need to worry about the pill?

"No more." I shook my head, looking blank.

Actually, I know it.

I have always understood.

I am nothing.

What is Luo Wuchen's identity, and why would he like me.

Therefore, I hid my liking and didn't expect to get a response from Luo Wuchen. I followed the rules and only wished to be a pair of ordinary mentors and apprentices with Luo Wuchen.

But in the end, even this small wish came to nothing.

Luo Wuchen never regarded me as his disciple.

I'm just a love catastrophe on the avenue of longevity for him to prove.

"Wanwan?" Luo Wuchen looked at my eyes with a hint of doubt, he walked towards me and reached out to grab my hand, but I avoided it.

Luo Wuchen froze, looking at me with more and more puzzled eyes: "What happened?"

My hands were as cold as if they had been dipped in snow water. The coldness permeated my body, and I was almost frozen into a rigid ice sculpture. Shattered into thousands of pieces on the ground.

I slowly put my hands into my sleeves, and finally called out to him, "Master."

I looked at Luo Wuchen calmly, and my tone was also very calm: "Am I your lover?"

There was a crack in Luo Wuchen's usual indifferent and distant expression, and a few traces of imperceptible panic leaked from his eyes, which had never been filled with anything.

"Who told you that?" His tone was angry, but he didn't deny it.

Although I already knew about this matter, but I really got confirmation from Luo Wuchen, but I still couldn't help feeling a little sad.

Fortunately, the wailing just now had exhausted my tears, so I didn't let myself cry out in front of Luo Wuchen.

I took a deep breath and suppressed the trill in my throat, but I couldn't suppress the sourness rising from my eyes, "You never wanted me to live, did you?"

"Wanwan!" Luo Wuchen interrupted me with a low drink, his face turned ugly.

I laughed silently, laughed, laughed, but the tears could not stop sliding down the corners of my eyes.

Luo Wuchen's expression panicked for a moment.

"Whatever you want, I can give you."

Give me everything, it sounds really exciting.

But I just find it ironic.

To this day, he is still so self-righteous.

I'm just an ordinary disciple, so my wishes don't matter.

My life doesn't matter either.

Yes, Luo Wuchen has been good enough to me.

It's not that I don't know how other powerful monks who practice the ruthless way survive the tribulation of love.

Which one didn't kill his "wife" to prove the way, and which "love robbery" wasn't killed by his loved one in despair.

Luo Wuchen wished me to live for three more years, which is already kind enough.

I have nothing to be satisfied with.

but……

I do not want to.

A sea of ​​sadness and disappointment almost submerged me, my body trembled uncontrollably, and my nails were deeply embedded in my palms.

I can not be reconciled.

Not being reconciled to the meaning of his existence is just a love calamity on Luo Wuchen's road to longevity.

I looked at Luo Wuchen with broken eyes, and said with a miserable smile: "... To you, I am just your love..."

"Wanwan," Luo Wuchen's complexion changed, and his tone was a little unspeakably irritated: "Don't think too much, I will protect you for the rest of your life."

Protect me forever?

But I only have three years.

I looked at Luo Wuchen without sadness or joy, and there was no disturbance in my heart.

It was he who gave me hope and made me want to be loved extravagantly.

But it was him who made me so sad.

"Late night."

Luo Wuchen has probably never been disobeyed by anyone, and until now he only knows how to order me.

"Go back with me."