After the apprenticeship, I became a hater

Chapter 100 give it to me

Luo Wuchen, he...

How come you are so skinny?

So thin...almost only a handful of bones left.

I silently curled up deeper into the warm bedding.

It was as if he was deeply trapped by something...

Originally, seeing him so tired and vulnerable, I should have felt very happy.

But now, there is only a strange feeling in my heart.

It made me feel a kind of strangeness like a world away, as if a stone fell into a pool of water, causing several layers of ripples, which were not big or small, and quickly dissipated.

Thinking about it carefully, whether Luo Wuchen's life is good or not has nothing to do with me.

After all that I've been through, I don't have the strength to hate anyone anymore.

Just like Sang Luo, he used me and used me as a bait to start a war. If he passes by, I will definitely hold a grudge and try to get revenge.

But now, I only want to give birth to my child safely and take my child to live a peaceful and stable life.

And Luo Wuchen...

The grievances between me and him have been exhausted in those days in the Demon Realm, and now he has nothing to owe me, and I also...

There's no need to keep reminding yourself to keep hating him.

Hate someone, let yourself live in hatred, and think about it quietly, in fact, the person who has not been let go is yourself.

I won't hate him anymore, I think, it's time to let go of grudges, let go of entanglements, let Luo Wuchen go, and myself too.

Give yourself...a fresh start.

I put the hand on my stomach, unconsciously caressing it gently.

In another month, my baby will be born, and I want him to live in love instead of being burdened by my old debts.

The thick bedding forms a warm and quiet haven, and I only hear the sound of my heartbeat and breathing.

The drowsy drowsiness is so close, I can't fall asleep for a while, and my mind is uncontrollably thinking about it.

Fangcai...

I watched Luo Wuchen for quite a while, right?

Then...Luo Wuchen should be aware of it, right?

I feel that he should be awake now. Luo Wuchen's five senses are so keen that I couldn't hide from his perception with my covert eyes in the past. How could he not notice my direct gaze just now? .

Then he...

If he wakes up, he will...

There was a scratching itch in my heart, I bit my knuckles tightly, and resisted the urge to poke my head out to verify with my own eyes whether Luo Wuchen really woke up.

But still couldn't hold back.

Covered by the quilt, I bit my lip and looked at Luo Wuchen again hesitantly.

Luo Wuchen frowned, his eyelashes trembled, and then he opened them.

How much time can be consumed by opening one eye, at most it is only a snap of a finger.

But for me, that moment seemed extraordinarily long.

My fingertips curled up silently, and I didn't think about anything. When I came back to my senses, I had already buried my head in the quilt with a whoosh.

There was some heat on my face, and the warm blanket turned into a steamer in an instant, so hot that I couldn't breathe.

I had to poke my head out from under the quilt to breathe the fresh air outside the quilt.

My scattered gaze brushed against Luo Wuchen's gaze, and I was stunned for a moment.

Luo Wuchen looked straight in my direction, without blinking, as if he had lost his mind.

"you……"

He stared at me for a moment, lowered his eyelashes suddenly, looked away, and said as if looking for something to say: "What do you want to eat?"

I was startled again.

Just now I guessed all kinds of possibilities, guessing that Luo Wuchen might leave, or stay shamelessly, but I didn't expect such a sentence to come out of his mouth.

"No," I lowered my eyes in a state of confusion, pretending to be indifferent, "I'm not hungry."

Luo Wuchen's eyelashes trembled, his lips twitched, as if he was at a loss, he finally brought up a topic, but I stopped him without cooperating...

"You..." I let out a breath slowly, with no emotion in my voice, "Thank you, thank you for saving me, and thank you for taking my father and son in."

Luo Wuchen's lips were tightly pursed, and a layer of water seemed to float in his eyes. He looked at me for a long time, and whispered softly: "I did this voluntarily, not because I was greedy for your gratitude." choked up.

My fingers tightened for a moment, and a bitter feeling faintly leaked out of my heart.

There was a muffled thunder outside the window, followed by a burst of rapid rain.

The weather in the barren land is very different from that of the secular world. Rain in winter is rare in the secular world, but here, in just ten days, it can rain three or four times.

I am already suffering from the coldness of winter, and every time it rains, it makes the sky even more damp and cold. If it weren't for Luo Wuchen who sent me spiritual power to drive me away from the cold at night, I am afraid that my face will turn blue from the cold now. trembling.

"Sorry," Luo Wuchen's expression gradually faded, "I was the one who was reckless just now."

As if something was driving him away, he couldn't stay any longer, and just said "Farewell."

But besides him, I am the only demon in this room.

But I didn't open my mouth to chase people away.

What did he do to look like I wouldn't want to keep someone.

Really...

"Wait a minute—" As soon as I opened my mouth, I was so annoyed that I wanted to bite my tongue off, what did I do.

Is it possible that I still want to keep him?

Another voice from the bottom of my heart retorted softly.

But, it's raining outside.

It's raining... I angrily used words to suppress that soft-hearted Xie Wanwan, if it rains, it will rain, what's the big deal.

He is a cultivator in the tribulation period, can he still get sick after being exposed to the rain?

I raised my voice and kicked the dim sum far away in a fit of anger. In the middle of the night, you are lonely and widowed. You still have a child in your stomach. Don't you know how to set a good example for your child?

The voice in my heart was very unconvinced, muttering aggrievedly, and I didn't want to keep him.

Luo Wuchen still heard my voice even though he swallowed it quickly.

He paused slightly, and turned to look at me.There seemed to be a hint of expectation in his eyes.

It was hard for me to straighten out my heartstrings, but Luo Wuchen messed up my heartstrings again just looking at it.

"... Hibiscus Cake."

I clenched my fingers tightly under the quilt, and I bit the tip of my tongue, feeling annoyed again.

Luo Wuchen looked at me quietly, with a faint questioning look in his eyes.

I said softly, with a calm tone, in fact, even I didn't know what nonsense I was talking about.

"Just now, you asked me what I want to eat. I want to eat hibiscus cake tomorrow."

Luo Wuchen's brows stretched slightly, and there was tenderness and warmth in his eyes.

"Okay." He replied softly.

After a simple exchange, I felt tiredness surging up like a tidal wave.

Luo Wuchen nodded and lowered his eyebrows, "Farewell."

I looked at his back, and the strings in my heart were tangled into a ball of twists and turns.

The sound of the rain outside the window seemed to be chilling through the gap in the door and invaded the house. I buried my face in the bedding, don't think about it, and go to sleep...

The room fell silent again.

The faint light of the morning sun shone on my face, I opened my eyes in a daze, and after a while, I realized that I really fell asleep like this last night.

I looked around cautiously, the room was empty except for a stack of hibiscus cakes I mentioned yesterday on the bedside.

My eyes fell on the plate of hibiscus cake with lingering warmth, and I was slightly absent-minded for a moment.

I don't hate him anymore.

But I don't love him anymore.

The cold and clammy wind brushed against my cheeks, and my chest felt unexplainably uncomfortable.

The hibiscus cake shattered between my teeth, and the aroma of flowers filled my mouth, but I could taste a bit of saltiness from the sweetness.

I wiped my face, and as expected, I wiped the transparent water stains on my hands.

Ever since I accidentally woke up in the middle of the night and ran into Luo Wuchen who was too late to leave, I haven't seen him again for several days, even if I deliberately waited at Maoshi and deliberately pretended to be asleep to block people, it was of no avail.

I was shivering in the cold autumn, but I tried to hold on and refused to close my eyes, and I insisted on waiting for Luo Wuchen to appear.

But every time, without success, I always fell asleep inexplicably.

When I woke up the next day, the bedding was warm.

Luo Wuchen came back every night.

He just avoided me on purpose.

Because, as I said, I don't want to see him.

Because, as I said, I think it's disgusting for him to appear in front of me...

I felt my chest tightened violently, and I suddenly felt a burst of irritability in my heart.

"It's not that I really don't want to see you."

As soon as the voice came out, I bit my lower lip tightly.

I was the one who said never to see him again.

Now what are you willing to say... Xie Wan, Xie Wan, what are you thinking.

I secretly scolded myself for being capricious and saying nothing.

You can't really be moved, can you?

I deliberately used a sharp tone to ridicule myself, it is best to wake myself up.

It doesn't matter if Luo Wuchen sees me or not.

It's best if he doesn't appear in front of me.

I don't want to see him.

That night, I couldn't sleep because of the cold weather. I thought I would not be able to wait for Luo Wuchen, but I heard a soft sigh.

When Luo Wuchen's spiritual breath came, my curled up body stretched slightly because the warmth dispelled the cold.

My eyes were open, my mind was in a mess, and I couldn't fall asleep peacefully.

"Luo Wuchen..."

He said "hmm".

I called him rashly, and fell silent again.

Because after I spoke, I realized that I didn't know what I wanted to say.

I just suddenly wanted to call him and ask...

What to ask, I never thought about it.

It seems like it's not appropriate to ask anything.

I was silent for a long time, Luo Wuchen didn't urge me, just mobilized his spiritual breath to slowly cross me.

"Can you bring me some needle and thread?"

Luo Wuchen didn't ask me what I wanted to do with sewing.

If I want it, he will give it.

"Okay." With my back turned to Luo Wuchen, I couldn't see his expression, and his voice was very steady, and I couldn't hear any special emotions, but I always felt that he was happy.

"In addition to needlework," my voice paused slightly, and I clasped the quilt with my fingertips, and added in a muffled voice: "I also need some fabrics, which are softer."

He should still only have a "yes."

The next day, I really saw what I wanted again on the bedside.

Luo Wuchen and I asked for needlework and clothing materials because we had serious business to do.

Although I have never learned needlework, I still want to make a suit of clothes for my child.

When I am not so uncomfortable, I will fumble by myself to make small clothes, small hats, and small shoes for the baby in my belly...

Of course, due to lack of experience, many failed and few succeeded.

I was not discouraged either, I just felt sitting in the sun, sewing clothes for my soon-to-be-born baby, and my heart was filled with some kind of soft emotion.

And in the following days, Luo Wuchen and I seemed to have made some kind of unspoken agreement.

Every night, when Luo Wuchen drained my spiritual power, I no longer pretended to be asleep.

It's just that I really don't know what else to say between Luo Wuchen and me now, and I always feel awkward to say anything.

I didn't know what to say, and I felt that the situation of not saying a word and the silence between the two sides was annoying, so I simply continued the topic of the previous "conversations" and asked him for something.

Sometimes it is eaten, sometimes it is used, it depends on what I think when I say it.

But no matter what I want, Luo Wuchen will never refuse.

A few more days went by like this.