Aftermath of breakup

Chapter 58

When Pei Yi rushed to the city's first hospital, Pei Xueyuan had already been transferred to the ward.

Standing by the hospital bed, Pei Yi looked at Pei Xueyuan's thin cheeks, pale expression, and new fine lines at the corners of her eyes.

Ms. Pei loves beauty. In the past, she always cared about her own image, and her home was often filled with her exclaiming that she had lost weight, lost weight and had spots.

But at this moment, Pei Yi realized that Ms. Pei hadn't mentioned this for a long time, and she seemed to be tired of paying attention.

In fact, Ms. Pei has had some symptoms for a long time, such as irregular fever, loss of appetite, poor spirits caused by hypoglycemia symptoms, etc.

Even if he asks a few more words when any situation arises, or the medical examination mentioned to him is not only on the surface of words, but he just faced the nurse's continuous questioning, he will not hesitate to say a word. Can't answer.

The phrase "forget it" when the nurse hung up the phone was like someone slapped him hard in the void, breaking through his self-indulgent past, and his heart and face were hot.

He also remembered what Yin Shuang said, "No sense of relatives and friends, poor empathy, hard to love" and so on. At this point, Pei Yi finally thought, what is the use of such a person besides causing trouble to others?

Ms. Pei gave birth to him, worked hard to give him a rich life, and her emotions of worrying about him never crossed the boundaries drawn by him.

And him?What else can I give her?

Pei Yi suddenly felt a little ridiculous, he was like a debt collector who could only ask for money.

In the end, he is as useless as he is, unable to provide even the most basic emotional value to the other party, let alone others.

Pei Yi was thinking aimlessly, and at one point even felt that his own existence was meaningless at all, and it was not worth others' extra effort for him.

At this moment, there was a sudden movement at the door. Pei Yi looked back and found that it was Dr. Meng Xinmeng.

Pei Yi blinked, regained consciousness a little, and left the ward with Dr. Meng.

"Uncle Meng." Outside the ward, Pei Yi called out politely with downcast eyes.

Ever since Meng Xin was pestered and slandered by Bian Guangyang in the hospital last time, Pei Xueyuan has reduced her contact with him, and she doesn't want to harm others.

But this time, Meng Xin was obviously used for help. Pei Xueyuan didn't wake up, so Pei Yi had to accept it: "Thank you, Uncle Meng, for your help."

Meng Xin glanced in the direction of the ward, and there was obvious worry in his eyes. It could be seen that he really cared about Pei Xueyuan.

At the same time, in his eyes, Pei Yi is also a stable and mature person. So far, he also felt that there was no need to hide anything, so he told Pei Yi what he had just heard.

"I heard from the colleague who sent your mother here that it was you—"

He paused here, not knowing what to call this person.

Seeing his unspoken mouth shape, Pei Yi immediately understood, frowned, and continued, "Bian Guangyang."

Meng Xin received the signal and continued: "It was Bian Guangyang who was being chased for debts. He was so shameless that he even brought the debt collectors to your mother's work unit, telling the other party that your mother has money, and asked them to take care of your mother. Shamelessly say that you have to support him in the future anyway, just let Xue Yuan pay the money in advance, if not, he will make trouble at your school, anyway, he has nothing now, at worst, everyone will have a hard time."

"Probably because you were mentioned, your mother was very angry, and she was not in a good mood recently, so she passed out." Meng Xin said here, his elegant and kind face was stained with anger. Lai Shang, who didn't say much, finally couldn't help but judge at this moment, "I have never seen such a rascal."

After Pei Yi heard this, he unconsciously imagined the scene at that time in his mind, and when he thought of Bian Guangyang's dark eyes and ugly face, he felt sick in his heart.

But people like Bian Guangyang are like a lingering poisonous snake, or a mouse hiding in the dark, suddenly jumping out from somewhere to bite you at some time, you feel deeply unlucky and trapped Injury, and the fear of being peeped at any time in my heart, but it cannot be completely resolved.

Pei Yi's heart fluctuated, but he also knew that it was useless to say more about it.

He took a few breaths to suppress his emotions, and when he spoke again, he changed the topic that he felt was more important: "Uncle Meng, how is my mother's condition? Can... can it be cured?"

Meng Xin was taken aback when he heard the words, and then he saw the helplessness of some teenagers from the calm person in front of him.

"It's not that serious, Xiao Yi, don't talk about cancer." Meng Xin immediately comforted, but also stated the facts, "Your mother's disease was discovered early, and it hasn't spread yet. It can be cured clinically."

After Pei Xueyuan and Meng Xin got acquainted, influenced by each other, she gained some medical knowledge, and when she felt a signal from her body, she went to the doctor in time.

But at this moment Pei Yi raised his eyes, but a trace of doubt flashed in his eyes.

Meng Xin smiled helplessly, and said again: "I am a doctor, and you are the patient's family member. I will not hide my illness from you or speak blindly and optimistically."

Hearing this, Pei Yi's nerves, which had become more tense since seeing those medicine bottles, finally relaxed a little. As soon as this happened, his arms felt a little weak.

Pei Yi pinched himself secretly, and calmed himself down a little while being relieved.

"However, it is true that the surgery must be arranged as soon as possible. I hope you and your mother can discuss it." Meng Xin hesitated, and finally said, "And this is a serious illness after all. The patient needs to recuperate after the operation, and he can't be too tired."

Pei Yi was startled when he heard the words, but this was certainly for sure, but he understood what Meng Xin meant.

First of all, Pei Xueyuan's job, although she is an executive of a foreign company, has a high salary and a high workload. It is hard to say that her illness today has nothing to do with the hard work she has been doing all along, and she will definitely not be able to do this again in the future.

As for the second reason - they are in Yancheng now, but there is a timed bomb like Bian Guangyang around them, as long as he is there, there is a possibility of unrest every day, and Pei Xueyuan can't recover at ease.

Thinking of this, Pei Yi suddenly had an idea in his mind. At the same time, Meng Xin tentatively opened his mouth: "Before, your mother meant that she didn't really want to have an operation in Yancheng, but I think Yancheng has our country. The best medical resources, as for the other um...those, I can also think of a way, so you can think about it, can you... trust uncle?"

Meng Xin is a reserved and elegant person, it is impossible for Pei Yi not to understand the profound meaning behind what he said at this moment.

But Pei Yi couldn't make a decision for Pei Xueyuan. When he heard this, his eyes were a little out of focus, and his thoughts couldn't help wandering. In this sudden thought gap, he thought of Duan Xinglian inappropriately.

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In the next week, Pei Yi took care of Pei Xueyuan in the hospital.

After Pei Xueyuan woke up that day, she explained to Pei Yi that she didn't hide it on purpose, but it was a bit sudden, and it took her a while to accept it.

Then he told Pei Yi not to worry, just focus on doing his own thing.

But Pei Yi still guarded her every day. When Pei Xueyuan felt that she could be discharged from the hospital temporarily, Pei Yi just shook her head silently and said to observe for a while.

Then one day, Meng Xin couldn't hold it back, and took the lead in proposing to Pei Xueyuan the idea of ​​an early operation. It's best not to delay this kind of thing, as there is a risk of a day if it is delayed.

Pei Yi didn't speak at that time, but Pei Xueyuan looked at him and agreed, and very cooperatively invited experts to consult and formulate a surgical plan.

But besides that, she didn't mention any other ideas.

After setting the general direction, Pei Xueyuan was finally discharged from the hospital at the end of May, and she needed to go back to the company to make arrangements for future work.

When Pei Yi returned home, he finally turned on the cell phone that had been idle for a long time. Before that in the hospital, he mostly used Pei Xueyuan's directly.

Recently, for some reason, he has been fascinated more and more. He probably knows that the person he wants to contact cannot contact him, so he has no desire to look at his phone.

As soon as he opened it, it was no different from before, except that there were a few spam advertisements in the text message, but the phone interface was strange, and an unfamiliar number called him three times in succession.

The last time he broke up with Duan Xinglian, after explaining clearly, Duan Xinglian forced him to turn on the call reminder, probably because of some reaction.

At this moment, Pei Yi looked at the time of the call, and found that it was the day Pei Xueyuan was admitted to the hospital. He was probably in a hurry at the time, so he didn't pay attention.

Pei Yi wanted to replay the past, but put it back when his fingertips hovered over the interface.

He was a little worried that as soon as he called, he would hear Bian Guangyang's horrified voice.

Thinking of this, Pei Yi immediately gave up and opened the WeChat interface instead.

The boyfriend's message is empty, only the last time he sent it but has not received a reply "Are you okay?"

However, there was some movement in the group. Pei Yi saw that someone in the group was chatting with him. He usually dives all the time, and the people in the group don’t know how to find him on WeChat. At this moment, Pei Yi thought that there might be something wrong, so he clicked in. At first, Aite started to read his article.

[Zhi Gao Cunyuan: Why didn't you come to the exam?Didn't you say you would come? @贝翰]

[Meng Jiangnv cries for physics: No, I can't take it anymore, I didn't come if I didn't come, the little fairy just said roughly!I mean don't you understand?No wonder I can't pass 130 in Chinese. 】

【Zhi Gao Cunyuan: I didn't ask you, are you his spokesperson? 】

[Meng Jiangnv cries for physics: Why, can't it?do you have any opinion? 】

【Zhi Gao Cunyuan: You are neither him nor Duan Xinglian, so why should you speak for him? 】

[Meng Jiangnv cries for physics: Shit, I knocked suddenly, I thank you, forget it, I'm too lazy to tell you. 】

[Zhigao Cunyuan: @贝翰, why didn't you come?Is the next monthly exam coming? 】

[One from class one: Oh, what's the point of asking? Let's just say that the ranking has risen steadily by at least two places, and one more exam will be earned. It's good to have fun secretly. 】

[Jiejiegao: Raise your hand, it's been almost two years in high school, and this time I suddenly got the first place in the exam. 】

[One of Class One: Hahaha Zhuzhu, I didn't expect that! 】

[Lifelike: +1, I didn't expect to be third, and the difference between the second and second is only [-]. It's really been a long time, and I feel complicated. 】

[One of the first class:?So I'm the only one whose ranking has dropped? 】

[Meng Jiangnv cries for physics: So you said you were a cheater before and you still didn’t admit it, but this time you can’t catch up with the two super cheats, you’re stupid! 】

[One of the first class: Fuck, the reborn parents are by my side? 】

……

Afterwards, they joked about other things, and after Pei Yi watched it for a while, the latest news had already reached 99+, Pei Yi didn't want to bring the topic back, and once he spoke, the group would definitely be silent.

So in the end, Pei Yi still didn't answer, and returned to the main interface. At the same time, he found that Wei Yun had been sending him courseware and the questions for this monthly exam.

Pei Yi has obviously spent less energy on studying recently, and his thoughts are always filled with such and such things.

Pei Yi knew that this was wrong, so he told himself to cheer up, first thanked Wei Yun, and then briefly chatted about the current situation.

Fortunately, Wei Yun didn't ask any more questions, but just asked him to keep studying.

After finishing the chat, Pei Yi printed out the questions of the monthly exam, and chose mathematics first, followed by general science.

He set a time, although it was half an hour less than the normal exam time, but this was his previous speed, and it would be even faster when he was in good condition.

But this time Pei Yi didn't finish writing.

Pei Yi listened to the ringing of the alarm clock, and then looked at the test paper with two empty questions, his eyes were blank.

After an unknown amount of time, he lowered his eyes and took out the answers to compare. The test questions this time are not difficult, and full marks should be easy, and he always gets full marks.

But when he opened the book and chose the first question, he was wrong.

At the end of the change, his paper was only around 110.

The red pen fell onto the test paper in black and white, bleeding out a glaring red.

Pei Yi suddenly felt very stuffy, but the windows of the room were clearly wide open, and the tulle curtains were still blown by the breeze. It was a fine weather in late spring.

But it was still boring.

Like I can't breathe.

In the end, Pei Yi didn't do the rest of the subjects, wandered around the living room, and took another bag of garbage downstairs to throw it away.

There were children making noises in the neighborhood, but the excitement had nothing to do with him. Pei Yi walked in the spring breeze, but the feeling of stagnation all over his body did not dissipate.

He found a secluded corner to sit, thinking about the test paper just now, he thought, if he passed the test, he might not even be able to enter the top [-].

Now that he is like this, he still saves face for him by mistake.

Pei Yi leaned on the bench, raised his head slightly, squinted his eyes slightly, and looked at the blue sky above his head.

It's like I haven't seen the blue sky for a long time.

Until I saw the eye sockets were sore.

"Xiao Pei?"

Pei Yi suddenly heard a voice, looked over, and found that it was the security uncle at the gate of their community, who was probably on a daily patrol at the moment and came here.

The uncle is enthusiastic and recognizes him. He usually greets him when he comes in and out. Pei Yi raised his spirits and smiled at the uncle: "Uncle Zhou."

Uncle Zhou walked over with a smile and chatted with him a few words, probably asking him why he didn't go to school recently, Pei Yi said to adjust his mood.

Uncle Zhou knew that his grades were very good, so he didn't pay much attention to it, but at this moment he slapped his head and remembered something, and said to Pei Yi: "One day before, a classmate of yours came to you, and he lent me his mobile phone. You made a few calls, but you didn't answer, I think he seemed to be in a hurry, but after a while, a car came to pick him up from his home, did you get in touch later?"

Pei Yi paused, remembering the strange number displayed on the phone before.

He reported the number, and Uncle Zhou repeatedly promised that it was his mobile phone number, and then immediately said: "It's the classmate who came to your house before. I think you two seem to be very good friends."

Pei Yi was taken aback when he heard this, and then stood up abruptly.

He only brought Duan Xinglian home, and Duan Xinglian, who should have had his phone confiscated that day, managed to escape.

But why didn't he send a text message if he didn't get in touch with him?Was it because he was afraid that he would be worried because he would not be able to reply after not seeing it?

Pei Yi thought it must be like this, Duan Xinglian has such a personality, he will not go to him by himself, he will only find a way to meet him next time.

At this point, Pei Yi's heart, which had been at a standstill for almost half a month, jumped uncontrollably.

"Thank you Uncle Zhou."

After Pei Yi finished speaking, he immediately ran out.

After he left the community, he hurriedly hailed a taxi at the gate.

When the car drove to Heron Lake, his heart still kept beating at a high speed. He kept staring ahead all the way until Heron Lake was within easy reach.

As soon as the car stopped, Pei Yi immediately got out of the car.

He ran to the gate of Luhu Lake in three or two steps, and although he had only followed Duan Xinglian once before, but that time, Duan Xinglian had already entered his face ID, which was equivalent to a resident of their house.

Pei Yi entered Luhu Lake unimpeded all the way.

At this point, Pei Yi couldn't help thinking that it was actually so easy for him to come here.

But when he walked not far from Duan Xinglian's villa, his originally easy steps finally stopped.

Pei Yi stood under the shadow of the tree where the sun couldn't reach, looking in the direction of Duan Xinglian's room from a distance.

He was thinking, what would he say after seeing Duan Xinglian?

Ask him if he did the monthly exam paper?Ask him if he has had a fight with his parents recently?Or ask him if he misses himself?

Or... just continue with the question he originally wanted to tell Duan Xinglian before their relationship was exposed, about his mental illness, and then ask him, would he be willing to accompany him to cure it?

There are a lot of things I want to say, but in fact these have to be ranked behind another question-can they continue?

Pei Yi was silent for a long time.

But when he didn't want to raise his eyes again, he saw Lin Siwei walking towards him not far away.

Lin Siwei was obviously a little surprised to see him, but soon laughed again, as if he was very happy to see him here.

Lin Siwei walked over, holding a lunch box in his hand, he was relieved for some reason while smiling, and asked, "Did you come to find Xing Lian?"

Pei Yi lowered his eyes and nodded, looking at the lunch box in his hand: "Yes."

Lin Siwei noticed his gaze, and explained: "Aunt Feng doesn't let him contact us, because she's afraid we'll tell you about the song, so I'll sell something."

As early as the moment he knew they were together, Lin Siwei knew that such a day would come, but he didn't expect it to come so soon, at least he thought it would be after Duan Xinglian went to college.

And at that time, Xing Lian's wings were getting fuller, so he probably didn't have to suffer from these many constraints anymore.

But things have already happened, and we can only take one step at a time.

But recently, Lin Siwei's heart could not settle down.

Because Pei Yi never came to see Duan Xinglian, and rarely asked them about Duan Xinglian's situation.

To be honest, Lin Siwei was worried that Pei Yi would back down.

Even he couldn't help thinking this way, let alone Duan Xinglian who was actually sensitive and cared very much about Pei Yi.

But whether to retreat or not to retreat is a reasonable choice, Lin Siwei can't criticize, so even if Lin Siwei is Duan Xinglian's best friend, he can't question Pei Yi.

Seeing him at this time, Lin Siwei had to admit that he was a little relieved.

At this point, Lin Siwei, who has always been calm, finally couldn't hold back, because he was worried that Pei Yi would not understand some things.

At this moment, he and Pei Yi can be regarded as exchanging shallow words.

"Pei Yi, there is something I want to tell you about Xing Lian, do you want to hear it?"

Pei Yi blinked slightly, raised her eyes to look at him, and agreed: "Yes."

The two walked to the side stone bench and sat down.

Lin Siwei thought about what he had learned recently and his childhood experiences, so he picked a beginning, and tried to be as calm as possible when he spoke: "When I was young, I met Xiao Yu and Xiao Ai first, and I met Xing Lian two years later, but Xiao Yu Both Yu and Xiaoai liked him very much, when they were young, they were very warm like they are now, and Xing Lian got to know us not long after, and the adults in the courtyard laughed and called us that, which shows how good our relationship is."

Pei Yi nodded when he heard this. He has no friends, but he is very happy that Duan Xinglian has such friends.

But then Lin Siwei changed the subject: "But I know that in Xing Lian's heart, he has always joined later. He actually always thinks that the three of us are better off. Although he never said it, his behavior shows that For example, when Xiaoyu got a limited edition jersey before, he actually wanted it, but when he saw that I said yes first, he never mentioned it again, Xiaoyu asked him if he wanted it, and he just said he didn’t want it.”

Afterwards, Lin Siwei gave several such examples, implying that Duan Xinglian would be worried about not being selected, so he voluntarily gave up.

After finishing speaking, he concluded: "Sometimes Xing Lian looks cool and flirtatious, like a rough nerve, but in fact he has a lot of emotional needs and a very sensitive mind, but maybe he doesn't even realize that he is like this. "

Hearing this, Pei Yi faintly understood Lin Siwei's intention to tell him this passage, but thinking of this, Pei Yi's heart sank even more.

However, when he came to Luhu before, Lin Siwei also said similar things, he said "some people need to be firmly selected", and Duan Xinglian is obviously such a person.

After getting in touch with Duan Xinglian's behavior towards him before, Pei Yi looked forward, nodded and said, "Well, that's right."

Seeing that he agreed, Lin Si stopped talking about them, and continued to talk about other things: "Recently, you must know about their family. I have thought about it for a long time, and I seem to understand the crux of the problem."

Lin Siwei shook his head and smiled lightly when he said this, as if he was a little embarrassed, but also seemed not to understand, and said with emotion: "Uncle Duan loves Auntie Feng very much, and Auntie Feng cares about grandma and grandpa the most, but grandpa and grandpa care more I miss his uncle, but his uncle..."

Lin Siwei paused at this point.

But Pei Yi understood, his eyes were a little straightened, and he continued: "This is a single-arrow cycle, but Duan Xinglian is not in this cycle."

Seeing him, Lin Si answered the conversation, knowing that he understood, so she didn't repeat it.

But I don't know, Pei Yi did understand clearly, but it was like a blow to the head, as if he was suddenly pushed into the endless sea, the salty sea water was robbing him of oxygen, and it also swung away the blinding leaves in front of his eyes.

He finally understood why Duan Xinglian was so possessive of him and why he was so obsessed with him.

Because for Duan Xinglian, it is difficult to have expectations in family relationships, and he feels that there are always more important and more caring people in his friends. He puts his position very low, and never expects that he will be their first choice.

So in the end, he put a lot of desire on love, and almost all his feelings, like hugging a driftwood in the sea, and like a desperate gambler.

Coincidentally at this time, Lin Siwei followed Pei Yi's eyes and looked at Duan Xinglian's closed window. Thinking of Duan Xinglian's struggles recently, he was also a little sad, and inadvertently said something biased towards Duan Xinglian: "Pei Yi, you are Xing Lian's backbone, as long as you give him a little strength, you can support him to cross the thorny hill."

Pei Yi listened silently, but his heart was empty. He knew that Lin Siwei had no other intentions, but wished them well, and hoped that he could give Duan Xing enough love.

Furthermore, although Duan Xinglian didn't say anything, he showed that he loved him more before, and he only needs to give back a little, but in fact Duan Xinglian actually needs a lot of love.

If it were someone else, after hearing such heartfelt words at this moment, they should only be encouraged, and they will definitely overcome the difficulties hand in hand with Duan Xinglian, and then go to find the future they want.

But what about him?

Pei Yi was struggling in the sea, his last bit of oxygen was about to run out, and the gushing sea water poured into his limbs, and he was squeezed as if he would suffocate in the next second.

A person who doesn't know how to love, and who still counts on Duan Xinglian to teach him how to love, can he give Duan Xinglian the longing in his heart?

He can't afford it.

At this point, the God of Destiny's sickle and the sharp sword hanging above his head finally fell mercilessly.

Hitting his heart, the seawater completely submerged him, and there was no room for respite or avoidance.

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