An Xia's paintings

Chapter 80

"A Rui?" Qin Ruihe's question was too direct, making Zhao Yanghao look sideways, and was about to stop him but was stopped by Zhao Yangshu.

Tao Fuxin nodded calmly, "It's me."

"At that time, Xi Ci chose to leave home in order to make a living. When he left, he left all the money to me. The money was enough for Xia Xia and I to live comfortably for a while. I...betrayed he."

"I'm not a good woman. I can't be a good wife for Lin Xici, nor can I be a good mother for Xia Xia. Xici left home and let me live alone with Xia Xia. You know that in those days a woman took Xia Xia with her. Does life mean anything to a child? In the past, I had almost nothing but singing. When I lost even the ability to sing, what was left? I couldn’t stand other people’s gossip, let alone emptiness Xici's house, and Xici's gone, made me see no hope, and I was defeated by the difficulties brought by life."

Tao Fuxin's eyes were red and bleeding, and his eyes were full of regret: "During that time, I hated myself and Xici..."

"At the same time, do you also hate An Xia?" Lin Xici asked coldly.

"Of course not!" Tao Fuxin stood up excitedly, "Xia Xia is my child, how could I resent him, I will never resent him no matter what! I just... don't know how to face it to him."

"During that time, my heart seemed to be blinded by something. Everything I saw was gray. I lived a very indulgent life, because I don't know what else can warm me except human body temperature. My own heart was frozen by fear. Not only that, but I couldn't help but want to pour all the pain and fear in my heart on Xia Xia. He was originally a sensitive and suspicious child. Because of my relationship, he His mood became more and more unstable, and I was so worried that he would hurt me in a trance, so I, a mother, sent my 6-year-old son to a mental hospital..."

Speaking of this, Tao Fuxin's voice was dry and hoarse like sand and stones that had been honed by a sudden storm...

At this time, the Zhao family brothers looked at each other, and they both saw surprise in each other's eyes. Although the coincidence factor cannot be ruled out, the two of them did think of the past that Li Cheng said before...

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Lin Anxia stood in a daze among the white mist, feeling very tired.He squatted down slowly, sat on the ground, hugged his knees, his eyes were empty.

At this moment, Lin Anxia's mind was blank. At this moment, Lin Anxia suddenly felt a slight weight on his head. He turned his head and saw Lin Xici, who was smiling at him as gently as before, and squatting beside him. , Cedar smirking with his head tilted.

"Father..." Lin Anxia showed a mournful expression on his face, and called out "Cedar..."

Lin Anxia felt that everything in front of him made him unable to tell whether it was reality or an illusion. His mind began to clear up. He remembered that his father and his cedar had left him, and he also remembered... that he committed suicide .

After all, he chose the most stupid way to resist his demons.

But at this moment, his father was sitting beside him, gently pulling him into his arms, just like when he was seven or eight years old, the cedar was leaning on his lap peacefully, and his tail swept him every now and then cheeks.

Papa and Cedar...back to him...

Like a child looking for comfort, Lin Anxia hugged the cedar tree with one arm, then buried her head in his father's arms, crying loudly: "I'm sorry, Dad, I'm sorry, I still did terrible things to myself... ...can you not be mad at me..."

Lin Anxia knew that his father had always instilled in him a concept that life is precious, and that life is the most precious gift a parent can give to a child. No matter how many unsatisfactory things happen in life, the child has no right Spoiling gifts from parents.

And he...

Lin Anxia is like a child who realizes that he has done something wrong, a little overwhelmed, but even more ashamed...

"It doesn't matter."

Lin Anxia heard Lin Xici say to him, "As long as Xia Xia can really let go of the grudge in his heart, then no matter what you do, Dad will not blame you. But Xia Xia took his own life rashly, Did it really let you break free from the quagmire in your heart?"

Lin Anxia raised her head, looked at Lin Xici with tears in her eyes, and heard him say: "After knowing Xia Xia's reckless behavior, both Dad and Xue Song feel very worried. We love Xia Xia so much, and we hope so much to live happily Xia Xia, how could she hurt herself so impulsively?"

Xue Song stretched out his head, and gently licked away the tears on Lin Anxia's cheeks. Lin Xici said, "Xiaxia, death will never solve any problems. Not only the dead cannot get real relief from it, but the living have to suffer because of it." And pain. If Dad and Xuesong had a choice, we would never leave you, because we all know that you will be extremely painful because of our departure. Similarly, people who are still alive in this world will also suffer from your suicide. feel sad......"

"Will someone... feel sorry for me?" Lin Anxia muttered to himself: "I have become so bad, will there be someone... feel sorry for me?"

"Of course." Lin Xici looked at the child in his arms tenderly: "Your mother, the person you like, and your friends in the world...in that world, there are Many people who love you, you hurt yourself, they will be more sad than you."

Lin Anxia tightly grabbed Lin Xici's collar, and whispered: "They won't, they have someone more worthy of liking, so why would they bother me?"

Even if he said that, Lin Anxia already regretted his reckless actions in his heart. He was anxiously thinking about Qin Ruihe's appearance when he saw himself covered in blood, and the voice he heard before he passed out... ...

"That's your mother." Lin Xici said, "You frightened her."

Lin Anxia seemed to see Tao Fuxin panicked to the point of collapse, and his eyes were a little sad.Lin Xici gently stroked Lin Anxia's soft hair and said, "Even if you don't want to admit it, you still miss her in your heart, don't you? An Xia, don't hurt the person you love because you are angry. People must also love you."

Lin Anxia raised her head and asked, "Really?"

Lin Xici smiled: "Let go of the paranoia in your heart, observe with your eyes, and your heart will tell you the answer. Face the past bravely, let go of them calmly, and you will find that many things that bother you are not true. Exist again. Xia Xia, in this world, the only person who can save you is yourself!"

"dad......"

"Go back." Lin Xi resigned, "Don't make them wait too long."

Lin Anxia was a little bit reluctant: "What about you? What about you and Xuesong?"

Lin Xici supported Lin Anxia to stand up, and patted him on the shoulder, "Anxia has grown up and become braver. As long as you live seriously, we will meet one day."

"Woof!" At this time, Xue Song, who had been silent all this time, also called out to Lin Anxia, ​​as if echoing Lin Xici's words.

Lin Anxia wanted to say something more, but saw Lin Xici waved at him, and left with Xuesong.Lin Anxia anxiously wanted to yell for them to come back, but she seemed to have lost her voice, unable to utter a single syllable.

Afterwards, Lin Anxia's consciousness fell into a daze again. In a daze, she seemed to hear a woman speaking something in a sad voice. There was helplessness, remorse, and a hint of sympathy.

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Tao Fuxin told her story bit by bit, recalling the fact that she had cruelly treated her son in the past like self-torture.

"I did such a terrible thing to Xia Xia. I even suspected that during that period of time, I had lost the conscience that a mother should have. I could no longer face my child. I cowardly chose to escape."

Tao Fuxin showed a wry smile: "Maybe you don't believe it, but these years, I miss Xia Xia every day, but I never have the face to see him again, and he must hate me in his heart... ..”

Qin Ruihe sat in front of Lin Anxia's window expressionlessly, as if he didn't care what Tao Fuxin said.At this moment, he suddenly said, "Auntie, do you love your son?"

Tao Fuxin was taken aback, "I, what face do I have to say I love him..."

Qin Ruihe picked up Lin Anxia's uninjured hand, put it on his lips and kissed it, but said coldly, "I don't care whether you have face or not. Where is it? Have you ever truly loved your child?"

Tao Fuxin's teary eyes were dim, and the regret on her face became more and more obvious: "Of course! Xia Xia is my only child and my heart! How can I...don't love him... ..”

Qin Ruihe looked at the woman in front of him who was a little embarrassed but still charming, and suddenly said: "Don't you understand? An Xia never wanted you to do anything for him. What he values ​​most is It's your love for him. What An Xia complains about is nothing else, but that you are so hard-hearted, abandoned him, and just ignored him..."

Tao Fuxin's heart trembled violently, showing an expression of disbelief.

At this time, Lin Anxia, ​​who was lying quietly on the hospital bed, trembled undetectably, and a layer of moist water vapor gradually fainted from the eyelashes. Tao Fuxin lowered her head and didn't pay attention, and everyone else was immersed in shock. Unable to recover from his emotions, only Qin Ruihe, who had been watching Lin Anxia all the time, noticed his slight changes in the first place.

Qin Ruihe turned his head and said to the crowd: "Everyone go out first, it's good to leave me here alone. Surrounding so many people is not good for An Xia."

Everyone was puzzled by Qin Ruihe's words, and Qin Ruihe said to Tao Fuxin: "Auntie and Zhou Lin should go back first. I will inform you about An Xia's situation at any time."

Tao Fuxin said: "Xia Xia looks like this, how can I go back with peace of mind?"

Qin Ruihe glanced at Lin Anxia lightly, and said softly: "Go back. Otherwise, he won't dare to wake up."

Hearing this, Tao Fuxin looked at Lin Anxia fiercely, and everyone else looked at each other.After a while, Tao Fuxin slowly picked up the bag in hand, and said sadly, "Then, I'll go back first. I'll trouble you to take care of Xia Xia."

The brothers of the Zhao family flirted with each other and said goodbye to Qin Rui.

Zhou Lin hesitated to speak, looked at Qin Ruihe, then at Lin Anxia, ​​and finally helped Tao Fuxin to get out of the room.

Now, only Qin Ruihe and Lin Anxia lying on the hospital bed were left in the ward.

Qin Ruihe leaned close to Lin Anxia's ear and whispered, "They're all gone, isn't Anxia willing to wake up?"

"...I'm sorry..." Lin Anxia struggled to utter three words with a dry voice.

Qin Ruihe got up expressionlessly, poured Lin Anxia a cup of warm water, and wanted to feed it to him.

Lin Anxia turned her head away, looked straight at Qin Ruihe with her big wet eyes and said, "...I'm sorry, I don't want to...get angry."

Lin Anxia's begging eyes completely broke Qin Ruihe's pretendingly calm face. With red eyes, he squeezed Lin Anxia's face fiercely, and said ruthlessly, "There won't be another time!"

Qin Ruihe knew that Lin Anxia was apologizing for his willfulness, and he was apologizing for the turmoil caused by him.

Qin Ruihe didn't hate Lin Anxia's reckless behavior, but he couldn't bear to say anything harsh to Anxia who finally woke up.

"You are determined that I will never argue with you, right?" Qin Ruihe couldn't help but pinch Lin Anxia again: "Anxia, ​​let me warn you, if there is a next time, I will definitely make you regret it!"