Give it a go, a man becomes a wife

Chapter 117

"Really?" Pei Le asked softly.

"Really," Cheng Yi replied immediately, "Why am I lying to you? Based on how well you know me, if I really had any suicidal thoughts during the many years you lived with me, wouldn't you be able to find out?"

"Yes," Pei Le said, "That's why I'm even more afraid. I'm afraid you still have these thoughts, but I can't find out. When all your thoughts become reality, I will have no chance to stop them."

Some things are difficult to understand, and it is even more difficult to empathize with them. No one in society often thinks about why fish live in water and why birds live in the sky. Half a life in a hurry, basic necessities of life, can completely keep a person busy to numb.

"I'm sorry..." Cheng Yi put his arms around Pei Le's waist, his voice full of guilt.

At this point today, Cheng Yi can't imagine what kind of situation he would be in if Pei Le hadn't appeared at that time, and what kind of life Pei Le would have had if he hadn't met him.

Sometimes life is just a delicate flower, in the twilight of the morning dew, under the scorching sun, there are always some things that life does not need but has to bear.

Everyone wants to spend their lives safely, but no one can stop the unexpected favor.

"Cheng Yi..." Pei Le stretched out his hand and tightly grasped Cheng Yi's hand on his abdomen, pinching it hard, he frowned, his voice was full of sadness, "Can you, let me feel a little bit more secure?"

In the past few days, Cheng Yi has always seemed to be a little preoccupied. As we all know, before Pei Le, he had never liked anyone, nor had he ever been in a relationship, let alone that there are so many twists and turns in love.

After that night, Cheng Yi thought that he and Pei Le had opened up the matter and he made a promise, so the relationship between them should have returned to the original state, but he never expected that Pei Le was really serious this time. Stiff, not only did not return to the original attitude towards Cheng Yi, but it was even more extreme than a few days ago. Now their relationship has developed to the point that Pei Le treats Cheng Yi as a piece of air. How can I say that Cheng Yi stripped himself naked Walking past Pei Le, even a stubborn man like Pei Le could not look sideways.

Cheng Yi was stumped by this matter.

So, after thinking hard and contemplating to no avail, Uncle Cheng turned his attention to the browser on his mobile phone.

——My boyfriend is angry, how should I comfort him?

No, delete it.

——My boyfriend says he has no sense of security, how should I give him a sense of security?

——How to give a person a sense of security?

——What should you pay attention to when you are in love?

——How can I give a boy who is ten years younger than me a sense of security?

Cheng Yi nodded with his mobile phone, this time he was right.

He clicked on search, and immediately dense text filled the entire phone screen.

Cheng Yi clicked on the first answer, and thought it was good. On this question, he actually listed seven suggestions.

First, confirm the relationship between boyfriend and girlfriend... Oh, they are not boyfriend and girlfriend, they are boyfriend and boyfriend, Cheng Yi automatically replaced the female character with male and then read on. After confirming the relationship, the partner should be treated aboveboard Introduce yourself to your family and friends.

family?friend?

Cheng Yi twitched his face, his family was Pei Le, his friends, Dongzi, Xiao Zhao, they all knew about the affairs between him and Pei Le, so this first suggestion didn't give him any advice at all.

Cheng Yi shook his head and looked at the second item.

Second, you need to post photos of your partner on social software, so that others can know that you have a partner.

The second Cheng Yi thinks it makes sense, neither he nor Pei Le like to post on social software, and their circle of friends is a horizontal line.

Cheng Yi nodded and wrote it down.

Third, both parties have to communicate every day, and remember to send messages in different places. This is called managing love. Remember, you can’t think that there is no need to communicate just because two people are together. This will make your significant other feel that you don’t care about him. .

Cheng Yi also wanted to communicate, but his partner ignored him at all now, worrying about others.

Fourth, prepare gifts or surprises for birthdays.

Yi was stunned when he saw this schedule, birthday... gift... shit!Cheng Yi suddenly realized that Pei Le's 26th birthday had passed, and as Pei Le's parent and lover, he couldn't be said to be clean about this matter, it could only be very clean.

He was at the police station when Pei Le's birthday arrived.

He remembered that he remembered it at that time, but when he came out, he might have been attracted by Pei Le's arm, but he forgot it all at once. In the next few days, Pei Le was fighting with him again, so he forgot it even more thoroughly.

"My God!"

Cheng Yi let go of his anger, threw the phone aside and leaned back on the sofa, completely paralyzed.

He thought that in a relationship, as long as the two parties like each other, no matter how bad it is, let alone liking, both parties can talk about it if they like each other. As for gifts and posting on social software, Cheng Yi never thought about it. He only knew that Pei Le was very special to him. Well, this is liking. He is willing to accept Pei Le, which is also liking.

It wasn't until today that Cheng Yi realized that the two of them really liked each other, but Pei Le was the only one who had been giving for a long time.

It is true that Pei Le will not leave him, but Pei Le is also a human being, not the dirt dog next door. What's more, after the dirt dog died, its owner was still sad for a long time.

"Did I hurt Pei Le's heart?" Cheng Yi stared at the ceiling without blinking, and said to himself.

"Did I pay too little?"

Falling in love is originally a very troublesome thing. From knowing each other, from being unfamiliar at the beginning to getting to know each other, this is the process of falling in love. Maybe it’s because they have known each other for too long. It was ignored by Cheng Yi.

He knows that he understands Pei Le, and he also knows that Pei Le understands him better, but it is true that Pei Le understands him far more than he understands Pei Le.

Cheng Yi was thinking alone, as if the love between him and Pei Le had been talked about as Pei Le alone.

This is not right... If any of his friends said this to him, he would feel that it was wrong. Love should be paid by two people.

Did he pay?

Cheng Yi sighed and stretched out his hands to pinch the center of his brows, no, really not.

Pay what you have to pay, and Pei Le didn't let him worry about it.

He seemed to understand what Pei Le said about the sense of security, but just a slight thought flashed through his mind, and when he wanted to reach out to grab it, that thought disappeared like the speed of light.

The next day, Lao Zhao's condition suddenly became serious. Cheng Yi and Pei Le arrived at the hospital early in the morning. When they arrived, Lao Zhao was in the operating room, and Xiao Zhao sat on a chair outside the operating room with a numb face.

The hospital is full of busy white coats and family members of patients. They rush to every corner of the hospital, with the smell of disinfectant on their bodies.

"Xiao Zhao..." Cheng Yi walked over, lightly pressed Xiao Zhao's shoulder, and comforted him silently.

Xiao Zhao raised his head and glanced at Cheng Yi, then lowered his eyes again.

Old Zhao entered the operating room, and he was not all right. This time, going in will not bring good news that he is all right. Doctors say that he is not bad if he can live until now.

The hospital is such a place that brings hope and always despair.

Xiao Zhao has reached the point of numbness, already desperate.

Old Zhao is in his 70s. He had his first child, a daughter, when he was in his 30s. His wife died not long after. When he worked so hard to bring his daughter to adulthood, he was almost fifty. He can still be considered middle-aged, fate seems to like to play tricks on poor people, and when he reaches middle age, his daughter is gone.

It's all old stuff, but someone always remembers it.

"Brother Yi..." Xiao Zhao lowered his head, his voice hoarse to a certain extent, and he said slowly, "I have always only had my grandpa as a relative. Although he doesn't like me very much, I don't want him to die... You say, After the door of the operating room is opened, will they give me back a healthy little old man?"

Cheng Yi wiped his face and suddenly felt that his breathing was not smooth.

It was as if a very heavy stone had been pressed against his heart, and the muscles and bones there were so sore.

We all know that this is impossible, because this has become an established fact, so I don't know where to start with words of comfort.

"Zhao Qi, you have to learn to accept the facts." Pei Le next to him said suddenly.

Cheng Yi turned his head to the side and sucked his nose lightly.

"I see," Xiao Zhao responded softly.

"People have birth, old age, illness and death, and this is an inevitable process," Pei Le said, "Uncle Zhao's illness has already made his life worse than death. You should understand your grandfather."

Xiao Zhao didn't speak, it was at this moment that Dou Da's tears had already fallen on the back of his hand on his thigh.

Pei Le's words were cold-blooded, but very reasonable.

It's not that Xiao Zhao doesn't understand this truth, he just can't accept it, or he doesn't want to accept it.

The life of being dependent on each other since he was a child has made the word "grandpa" deeply ingrained in his life. Even if his father finds him and is willing to recognize him, and his mother comes back to love him after resurrection, they still can't shake the word "grandpa".

Because this is Xiao Zhao's only family member who has lived for more than 20 years, they are each other's concern and only one.

The operation is difficult and the time is long. What makes people sad is not the time itself, but what happened during this time or what will happen after this time.

Cheng Yi was almost uneasy, even terrified.

Other than the death of his parents, this is the first time in more than 20 years that he has faced death so close again.

When looking at the three words on the door of the operating room, the air here is almost heavy.

Death... A person dies like a lamp goes out, as long as his heart stops beating and his brain stops thinking, then everything this person has done in this world has become history.

And history, often cannot be copied, which means that this person has truly disappeared from this world.

Disappearing, how terrible, Cheng Yi was not there when Sanbangzi died, he just attended the funeral, he looked at the three people lying in the mourning hall with a pale face and always felt so unreal.

They were still drinking together a few days ago, and Sanbangzi still said that he must be sure to find a son-in-law in the future. He absolutely must find a reliable man for his chubby girl, so that he can rest assured that he cannot marry far away. He is afraid His daughter was wronged, so he couldn't find someone who was unmotivated. He was afraid that his daughter would be troubled, so he couldn't find someone who liked to smoke, drink, and gamble. He was afraid that his daughter would be abused at home. He said a lot about what he couldn't find, and finally came to a conclusion, If you are looking for a son-in-law, you have to look for someone like him, who loves his wife, takes care of his family, drinks but never drinks too much, for his daughter he has smoked for so many years and can quit as soon as he says it, this is a man.

How old was his daughter at that time, and Cheng Yiji hadn't started elementary school yet, but she seemed to have reached the age, but Sanbangzi couldn't bear to let his little chubby girl go to school at such a young age to deal with a group of small children, he was worried .

His eyes were a little sour, and memories like a scourge kept flashing back and forth in Cheng Yi's mind, blurry and clear. Only then did he realize that he still remembered the faces of Sanbangzi's family of three so clearly.

Sometimes people will deliberately forget some things. There are both physiological and psychological factors. In medicine, this symptom is called selective forgetting. The most interesting thing in this world should be the human brain. It seems that the instinct of seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages Played to the extreme.

The operation lasted eight hours. They waited from morning to afternoon. Pei Le went to buy something, but Xiao Zhao couldn't eat, so Cheng Yi ate two bites. When Old Zhao was pushed out, Cheng Yi was the first to run over.

Xiao Zhao didn't move, he just stared straight at the mobile bed, the little old man covered with a quilt was motionless, and the nurse next to him was still holding the infusion stand.

Then, he saw that the doctor's mouth kept moving, and he didn't know what he said. Cheng Yi nodded and took the things from the nurse's hand. Xiao Zhao deliberately avoided the doctor's face, he swallowed silently, and moved Standing up extremely slowly, he followed his grandfather back to the ward.

The wind blew again, Xiao Zhao quickly closed the window, turned around and went back to the hospital bed to tuck Old Zhao in the quilt. He didn't say a word, didn't ask about Lao Zhao's condition, and didn't ask Will the little old man who passed him be okay.

Cheng Yi felt uncomfortable seeing these, so he ran downstairs to the flower bed to smoke.

Death is so easy, a knife, a lake, a disease, everything is gone.

The wind messed up Cheng Yi's hair, and when Pei Le appeared behind Cheng Yi, the cigarette in his hand had only butts left, he smoked half, the wind smoked half, and the rest was about to return to dust half of that.

Just like human beings, when they are extinct, they should be buried in the ground.

"Brother..." Pei Le called softly, "Go through the discharge procedures for Uncle Zhao."

"Okay..." Cheng Yi closed his eyes, finally couldn't help it, turned around and plunged into Pei Le's arms, sobbing and crying.

The morning dew greets the morning sun, and the wind and frost do not touch the wings of birds. Anyone can soar in the blue sky, and the scorching warm sun shines on the world. Perhaps, all living beings are suffering, and the Buddhas cannot cross. Disappeared after you died.

In the end, one sentence of mourning is enough to sum up everything.