I once saw Chu Yixiao

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Chu Yi smiled when he saw that he was barefoot, so he also took off his house shoes, and bent down to sit down.

"put on"

Chu Yixiao put on her house shoes again.

Gu Chen hugged Chu Yixiao, and after a sound of rubbing the cloth, he pulled up his jacket to cover him, put out the cigarette, and buried his head in Chu Yixiao's shoulder.

"Yi Xiao." Gu Chen called out in a low voice.

Chu Yixiao froze in place.

Gu Chen would never call him "Yi Xiao", at most he would use his first and last name, or give him an ugly nickname, whether he wanted it or not.

"Ok?"

"Yi Xiao." Gu Chen called out again.

"Ok?"

There was no further answer, and there was silence.

Speaking of which, Chu Yixiao has never seen Gu Chen cry so far, at most he can only guess one or two from the tone of his voice, the expression Gu Chen left for him is either cold or irritable, or when he is the most gentle Hold him and say a word or two.

Gu Chen seemed to never tell him too many emotions or things, not to mention family and friends, he even kept silent about the company's private affairs.

It seems that Chu Yixiao doesn't matter, and he doesn't want him to infiltrate any aspect.

Or maybe, he planned to wait for Gu Chen to get tired of playing one day, throw it away, and make no contact with him, so as to avoid future troubles.

Thinking of these, the corners of Chu Yixiao's eyes would dry up, and he forced himself to think about what kind of breakfast he would make for Gu Chen tomorrow, or what topics to talk about to make Gu Chen feel more relaxed.

He wanted to say, Gu Chen, you can tell me if you are in a bad mood

He wanted to say, Gu Chen, do you want to listen to jokes, I can tell jokes.

He wanted to say, Gu Chen, smile, I feel better when you smile.

……

But Chu Yixiao couldn't do anything, he could only let Gu Chen lean on his shoulder, so he felt that Gu Chen was feeling uncomfortable now.

It took a long time for Gu Chen to raise his head, and turned his face away, even his expression was submerged in the darkness.

"Go back, go back to sleep first." The voice was hoarse after crying.

Chu Yixiao was stunned, and stretched out his hand to turn Gu Chen's face away, but Gu Chen gently pushed his hand away and let him go back.

Chu Yixiao was in a stalemate with him for a while, and finally got up to go back, but just as he opened the French window, Gu Chen hugged him again.

"Chu Yixiao, don't work in bars"

"Um"

“Be careful coming home at night”

"Um"

"No more pets"

"..."

Gu Chen didn't wait for him to answer, he had already blocked his mouth first, and felt a burst of warmth in his mouth,

After that, Gu Chen stayed at home for a week and didn't bring any documents back to read.

It seems that the busy period in the past has completely passed.Gu Chen smoked on the balcony every day, and he lost a lot of weight. He couldn't sleep every night, and his chin was covered with stubble.

Chu Yixiao got up half an hour earlier every day, went to bed after breakfast, and asked Gu Chen to wake up. When Gu Chen was brushing his teeth, he would also apply foam to him and shave his chin carefully.Then hurried to school.

He still didn't have breakfast with Gu Chen, but through the glass window in the warm sunshine, he always saw that Gu Chen was preoccupied.

"Are you unemployed?" After finding another part-time job, Chu Yixiao finally couldn't help asking him.

He wanted to say, it's okay, if you lose your job, you will be unemployed, and I can find a few more part-time jobs, so I don't need you to support me.

Gu Chen glanced at him resentfully, then shook his head without saying a word.

"Demotion?"

As long as I have what I can eat, don't pick and choose, we don't spend that much, don't worry.

Gu Chen still shook his head, his eyes wandering.

He actually wanted to ask, which of your lovers ran away with someone?

The words slipped on his Adam's apple, and he couldn't speak, his nose was already sore.

Chu Yi smiled and said nothing, so the room was silent.

"I don't have the right to inherit," Gu Chen didn't raise his head, and answered after a long time, "I can't compete with him."

"Who?" Chu Yi asked with a smile.

"Yi Xiao, sit here." Gu Chen patted the bedside, his whole body looked sick under the pale crystal lamp, "Sit here"

Chu Yixiao sat over, Gu Chen hugged him on his lap, hugged his waist tightly, looked at Chu Yixiao's face and said word by word: "Yixiao, why don't we separate?"

During the two years with Gu Chen, Chu Yixiao always felt that Gu Chen was about to give up on him, and was always preparing in his heart.

But it turned out that after two years of preparation, as long as Gu Chen brought it up a little more seriously, Chu Yixiao couldn't accept it at all.

Even breaking up, what he said was not "breaking up", but "separation".

Chu Yixiao's expression froze, and then forced a smile: "We, Gu Chen, are you joking?"

Gu Chen didn't say yes, nor did he say no.

Chu Yixiao looked at Gu Chen's expressionless face, his eyelids trembled, and he turned his head to look away before tears flowed out.

"Aren't you kidding?" There was tremor in the voice.

"Go to sleep." Gu Chen let go of Chu Yixiao, turned off the light, turned around and slept on his side.

"I, I can take care of myself, I don't need you to take care of me," Chu Yixiao finally dared to shed tears unscrupulously in the dark, grasping the sheets on the bed loosen and tight, tight and loose, murmuring, "If you don't want to see me, you can see me once a week, even a month..."

——One year also...

Not for a year.

After a little more time, Chu Yi laughed that he couldn't guarantee that he would do something, it must not be what Gu Chen likes to see.

Chu Yixiao suddenly thought of something, crawled over and put his arms around him and said, "Is it because I'm a man? I can't give you, give you, pass on your family, so..."

Gu Chen didn't speak, only uneven breathing could be heard in the darkness, one deep and one shallow.

"You, you can marry another woman, I..." trembling but couldn't continue.

Gu Chen turned around and stroked his hair gently: "Go to sleep, we'll talk about it tomorrow"

When Gu Chen got up the next day, he kept silent about it, and Chu Yixiao didn't dare to mention it, for fear that Gu Chen would continue to say: "Chu Yixiao, let's separate."

Chu Yixiao finished shaving Gu Chen carefully, and did not see Gu Chen eating breakfast while watering the flowers on the balcony.

Gu Chen sat at the dining table as if he had lost his soul, he didn't know what he was looking at, and he didn't know what he was thinking.As calm as Gu Chen, Chu Yixiao rarely saw him lose his composure.

He had no choice but to put down the shower in his hand, went to wash his hands, pulled a chair and sat beside Gu Chen, and fed him the porridge in Gu Chen's hand.

Gu Chen looked at him fixedly first, then Chu Yixiao remembered that Gu Chen said that he didn't like to see him when eating, so he put down the bowl in his hand in panic, and lowered his head: "I'm sorry."

When he was about to get up and leave, Gu Chen grabbed him and pressed him on the chair.Then Gu Chen picked up the porridge, took a sip, took a breath, and brought it to Chu Yixiao's mouth.

Chu Yi smiled blankly at Gu Chen, opened his mouth and swallowed.

In the next second, Gu Chen put down the bowl and said coldly, "I'm going to work first."

He picked up his briefcase and was about to leave, and he changed his shoes in a hurry, as if he was in a hurry, so fast that Chu Yixiao didn't realize that the door had been slammed shut with a bang.

After that, Gu Chen went to work every day, but every day when he came back, he was full of anger. He saw that everything that could be dropped was dropped, and the house was a mess.

When Chu Yixiao was scared, he hid on the balcony. After Gu Chen dropped his things, he opened the floor-to-ceiling windows and pulled his hair into the living room: "You are also afraid of me, right? You want to run too, right? They want you If you leave, you will obediently go with others, right?"

Gu Chen never shed tears, but his eyes were flushed after the mania.

Chu Yi laughed so badly that his face was covered with tears, but he turned around and hugged Gu Chen who was already in a rage: "Gu Chen, Gu Chen, let's calm down, okay?"

Gu Chen froze in place, then sat heavily on the sofa.

Chu Yixiao lowered his head, the broken porcelain and glass in the living room fell to the floor, stained with bright red blood, Chu Yixiao was wearing fur slippers, Gu Chen's feet were already bloody.

Chu Yixiao was so frightened that he stumbled upstairs to get the medicine box. When he bandaged Gu Chen, his hands trembled uncontrollably. In the end, he could only use his left hand to hold down the trembling right hand that was applying the medicine, and managed to give Gu Chen the good medicine.

After bandaging, Chu Yixiao raised his head and looked at Gu Chen. Gu Chen was lying on the sofa expressionlessly, his Adam's apple moved, his lips were slightly parted, and he didn't say anything.

Gu Chen didn't get angry after that, he dragged his exhausted home every day, and when he saw Chu Yixiao, he just hugged him and seldom talked to him, until he was tired from standing, Gu Chen let go of his hand and let Chu Yixiao go into the living room , as if the injury on Gu Chen's foot never existed.

He was worried every day, for fear that Gu Chen would suddenly say: "Yi Xiao, let's separate".

Only when Gu Chen hugs him can he feel at ease, like holding happiness in the palm of his hand and feel that it belongs to him.

Gu Chen no longer mentioned breaking up, but within a few days went to Chu Yixiao's campus, arrested him and brought him back home, locked him for half a month, and disappeared.

For half a month after Chu Yixiao went out, no matter where he went, his intuition told him that someone was following him every day.After being followed for a day or two, maybe you still can't find it. If it's more than half a month, how can you not notice it.

His eyelids kept twitching, his heart was in a panic, he took Chi Jian and Xiao Mingxin with him wherever he went, but Chi Jian and Xiao Mingxin were always sticking together, sometimes it was not easy for them to follow them all the time.

Thinking of being attacked by someone on the way half a year ago, Gu Chen lost his temper, and he didn't dare to take it lightly. He even turned down two part-time jobs that were done too late and went home early.

He struggled in his heart for a long time, and finally couldn't help asking Gu Chen: "Are you looking for someone to follow me?"

Gu Chen stopped the document in his hand, turned his head and asked in a low voice: "Is someone following you?"

Chu Yixiao was even more confused.

Gu Chen continued to look at the document: "Maybe you think too much, how can anyone follow you so idle, and you have no money or power"

When Chu Yixiao fell into a drowsy sleep, he seemed to hear Gu Chen say in his dream: "Why don't you stay at home?"

He woke up suddenly, sweating profusely, but Gu Chen beside him had already fallen into a deep sleep, and Chu Yixiao came back to his senses.

During that time, Gu Chen was in trouble, and since his career fell into a trough, his temper began to become irritable again.

Chu Yixiao's whole body was already blue and red, new wounds piled on top of old ones.He was either beaten or bitten by Gu Chen.

Gu Chen's kiss was hot and crazy, like magma passing by, a desert, and there was no gentleness in his strikes, and it was like a typhoon passing through, devastated.

One day, Chu Yixiao came home from the morning shift after finishing his part-time job, lying on the sofa reading a book, and fell asleep in a daze.

When there was a trace of clarity left in his consciousness, he smelled a smell of gas. Chu Yixiao recalled that he had done everything carefully every day, so that the gas would not have been turned off.

But the smell of gas is really there.

He wanted to open his eyes, tried hard to open them, but couldn't open them, his head was dizzy, he exhausted all his strength and rolled off the sofa, unable to move another half step, all he could think of was: I'm going to turn off the gas Gu Chen is going to scold me when he comes back, Gu Chen is going to scold me.

——I have to get up, Gu Chen will be sad if I die.

—Maybe it's not that sad, after all, he has so many lovers.

——It’s great not to be sad. If you are really sad for so long, even if you die, you will feel extremely uncomfortable, and even if you die, you will not feel at ease.

——No, I have to turn off the gas, Gu Chen is about to get angry, I can't die.

When he woke up, Chu Yixiao was lying on the hospital bed, and Gu Chen buried his head on the sheet, as if he had fallen asleep.

It's nice to see Gu Chen's face when I wake up.

Chu Yixiao opened his mouth and looked at Gu Chen with a smirk.

Gu Chen was awakened by his movement, and was taken aback when he saw Chu Yi smiling, then he stood up angrily and raised his hands and shouted, "Who the hell allowed you to die? You're fucking crazy, aren't you?"

The little nurse next to him was startled by his roar, and hurried out after changing the infusion bottle for Chu Yixiao.

Chu Yixiao lowered his eyelids halfway, and was scolded just after waking up, but couldn't be happier.But he continued to raise the corner of his mouth and said, "I never thought about dying. I'm not such a fragile person. If I want to live, I can't dare to die."

Yang's hand in the air didn't come down for a long time, Gu Chen took it back, pulled out the chair and sat down and said, "You just need to know the fuck."

Gu Chen had heavy dark circles under his eyes, his hair was messy, his tie was loosened and slumped to one side, his neat shirt was also wrinkled, and he changed from his usual handsome appearance after wearing a suit.

Chu Yixiao stretched out his hand, stroked Gu Chen's newly grown beard and the corners of his tired eyes, and called out in a low voice: "Gu Chen"

He didn't know what to call him for, he just wanted to call out.

"If you dare to die, I can't spare you," Gu Chen said in a low voice, with powerlessness.

Chu Yixiao sounded like Gu Chen's love words, he put Gu Chen's hand on his face, his face was pale but he smiled and said: "Well, good."

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Now that I think about it, when Gu Chen opened the door and saw him lying on the sofa, unconscious, how would he feel?