Chapter 50
Chapter 50
"I can accept it," Sheng Xiuhe said.
Jin Nan's reaction was unexpectedly calm, "I don't understand a lot of things you understand, I don't understand..."
Sheng Xiu said, "I can teach you."
"Someone taught me."
"I know."
"But I'm not as happy as you say."
"Because it's not enough."
"When will it be enough?"
"Wait until you can find happiness yourself."
Jin Nan's voice was almost indifferent, "I can't live arbitrarily according to my own nature for the rest of my life."
Sheng Xiuhe was silent for a moment without speaking.
Jin Nan said again: "I will live in constraints all my life."
Sheng Xiuhe, "Everyone lives within constraints."
Jin Nan seemed to be muttering to himself, "How can you be happy talking like this."
Sheng Xiuhe, "Yes, when you see the size of the world, you will ignore the smallness of life."
Maybe it was the things that he wanted to hide all the time that were exposed in front of this person, or maybe it was the temptation just now and Sheng Xiuhe's reaction that made him relax, or maybe he wanted Sheng Xiuhe to see his true self, some things that were in his heart in the past. The emotions hidden deep in the depths were easily hooked out today.
"Enough!" A stern shout accompanied by a piercing rubbing sound resounded in his ears, Jin Nan stood up and bumped the coffee table in front of him at some point, his eyes were a little red, and his breathing was a little heavy.
Jin Nan yelled, "Don't tell me any more big reasons!"
He has heard enough of these great principles. In the past, it was said by his adoptive father, but now it is said by Sheng Xiuhe. In the past, every time his adoptive father talked about great principles, Jin Nan had to set up a framework and set restrictions on himself. It seemed that every time there was a great truth, Jin Nan is restricted and more standardized.
Sheng Xiuhe's words are really touching, but the essence is the same. Isn't it just to make the listeners follow the truth?While being moved by what Sheng Xiuhe said, Jin Nan subconsciously rejected these principles.
Anyone who listens to these things for decades will feel irritated, but Jin Nan is exceptionally patient, and he is also extremely cruel to himself, able to cut off the part of himself outside the frame for the sake of his adoptive father.
It feels like I am a wild bonsai. Two gardeners use scissors to shape the bonsai one after another. Both have their own ideas and want to make the bonsai more beautiful, but the former has finished Most of them left halfway, and the latter started with scissors without communicating with the former at all.Potted plants don’t understand the aesthetics of gardeners, but if potted plants have life, they will worry about whether they will be pruned into waste products that don’t look like anything in the end, and they will definitely resent the gardener for cutting off their natural branches.
It's all for the purpose of being good to Jin Nan, but Jin Nan is like that potted plant that can't speak, no one has asked his wishes.
What he got more was "You should do this...", "This is good for you...", just like Sheng Xiuhe said, "I hope you are happy...", "I hope you... "
Yes, it's the adoptive father who thinks it should be, Sheng Xiu and Hope, and Jin Nan is the obedient recipient from the beginning to the end.
They are more like the parents in a sex-type family, and they hardly ask Jin Nan's opinion. Although Jin Nan knows that his situation is special, sometimes he can only follow the rules of death, but Jin Nan's temperament is used to control rather than Submissive people.Almost non-judgmental about certain things, wouldn't he worry when someone else 'trimmed' him?
His patience, his irritability, his incomprehension, his fear, his apprehension, his worry, and his grievance all surged up.
Jin Nan seldom has big mood swings, and when he does, they often erupt violently and are uncontrollable.
Sheng Xiuhe frowned, and looked at Jin Nan, with worry and puzzlement in his eyes, as well as calmness and composure that had not changed for years. His eyes were as cold and transparent as ice and snow that had not melted for years. wake up.
Jin Nan looked at him for just one look, and was frozen by the cold gaze, and his rationality returned a bit. He hurriedly picked up the water on the table, and gulped it down.
Then put down the glass and hurried away.
Sheng Xiuhe watched Jin Nan leave the study, rubbed the center of his brows tiredly, and called the psychiatrist.
"...to a lesser extent, the situation is much better than imagined..."
......
Sheng Xiuhe hung up the phone and was silent for a moment, then suddenly thought of Jin Nan leaving angrily, it is said that eating sweets will make him feel better, so he asked Peter to take a box of ice cream and send it to Jin Nan.
It didn't take long for Peter to come back, still holding the box of ice cream in his hand, "The door is locked from the inside."
This meant that he didn't want to see him, Sheng Xiu understood.
Peter took the ice cream and followed Sheng Xiuhe to the door of Jin Nan's room. He motioned for Peter to put the ice cream on the ground, then knocked on Jin Nan's door a few times without making a sound, and then left.
After the footsteps disappeared, Jin Nan opened the door and took a look, only to see a box of ice cream at the door.
He looked at it for two seconds, then turned around and went back to the room with the ice cream in his arms.
I'm not very surprised by Jin Nan's sudden temper. Even if Jin Nan is not in a special situation, but just an ordinary boy of seventeen or eighteen years old, it is not surprising that he suddenly has such a temper. It's no surprise either.
But Sheng Xiuhe was more concerned about the reasons for Jin Nan's temper. Jin Nan is a person with little mood swings, and things that can make him lose his temper are worthy of attention.
Jin Nan didn't like his reasoning, whether he found him annoying or for other reasons.
Recently he has indeed said a lot to Jin Nan. Although he is a little special, he is a child of seventeen or eighteen years old. It is not controversial for children at this stage to resist the authority of their parents and dislike their nagging. It is true that his mind is not easy to grasp. It can be said that he can accurately grasp the thoughts of any powerful person in the mall, but he is not sure of guessing Jin Nan's mind.
But whether there are other reasons or not, language is indeed not so easy to be convincing.
Sheng Xiuhe intends to have another talk with Jin Nan, but it's not easy to make him anxious. Recently, Shengshi's affairs are quite busy, and Jin Nan has also entered the review stage before the final exam. Obviously, this conversation will have to wait until After Jin Nan's final exam, it took place.
After the showdown between Sheng Xiuhe and Jin Nan that day, after Jin Nan lost his temper, the two returned to the normal way of getting along. reason.
Jin Nan observed nervously for two days at first, and confirmed that Sheng Xiuhe breathed a sigh of relief when he realized what he was doing and didn't show anything wrong after he got angry. The line of defense has been relaxed.Sheng Xiu and the pearl diver were about to completely open Jin Nan's tightly closed shell.
As the final exam approached, Simpson did not fall into the quiet and intense review as in previous years. On the contrary, the atmosphere in the school was a little impetuous.
This kind of situation is very mild in the west school, but more serious in the main east school.
The reason is still related to prosperity.
Several bidding meetings in Shengshi were held this month, and most of the second and third generations of the East School were paying close attention to the bidding.Because there are quite a lot of bidding projects this time, many large and small enterprises in the school participated. In order to win one or two projects in this bidding meeting, some companies did not hesitate to join forces with several companies to form a temporary camp. It directly led to the trend of expansion, split, and reconstruction of the original small circle in the school.
Changes in interpersonal relationships in the circle, a series of complicated interests and emotional entanglements, small secrets and conspiracies that were originally concealed by the small circle, etc. Gossip news gushed out like a spring, and the amount of new gossip in the entire East School every day was one in the past. monthly amount.
Zhang Yi'an, the gossip little prince, is happy to miss Shu, but he has a problem, that is, the collected gossip must be shown off in front of his friends. His closest friend is Yang Quan, and Yang Quan is not only Jin Nan's deskmate, but also a member of the study group. At the same table, and even a good friend.So, together with Jin Nan, they continued to be abused by Zhang Yi'an.
It’s similar to the xxx family bidding for the xxx project, the xx family and the xxx family bid for the xxx project together, and the xxx family successfully won the xx project, this kind of information is still useful, just listen to it, but it seems that because of changes in the circle, family interests Dispute, xxx broke up with xxx, directly hooked up with ex-girlfriend's best friend, ex-girlfriend and best friend turned against each other, and the news of tearing up the ugly is really a waste of time and subverts the three views-this is Yang Quan's original words.
The East School is preparing for the final exam under such circumstances, so it is inevitable to be impetuous.
Let's talk about West School.
The academic bullies of the Western School attach great importance to their grades, because their grades are directly linked to the scholarship and it is also related to their quality of life in the next semester. If they fail in the exam, they may want to become a part-time job like Lin, so the academic bullies of the Western School They are more concerned with grades.Perhaps it was because studying was so boring and stressful that someone boredly launched a vote to predict who would be the first grader.
East and West schools are usually not ranked together in different papers, but the final exams are different, and East and West schools are ranked together in the final exam.
The most popular candidates also received the most votes. These three were Zeng Yuan and Jiao Guang from the West School, and Zhou Kao from the East School.
Except for senior one, senior two and senior three are divided into arts and sciences, but the students default to science first.Because Simpson's liberal arts was not outstanding, four of the top five liberal arts masters were taken by the same public high school, Springfield No. [-] Middle School.But Simpson's science is very good, and there are usually six or seven of the top ten in the city in Simpson.
So in fact, this time I guessed that Simpson was the first in grade. In fact, I guessed that Springfield City was the first in science, so there was no liberal arts master by default.
Zeng Yuan and Jiao Guang are almost evenly divided in the number of times they occupy the first place in the western school's exams, and the eastern school's weekly exams are firmly ranked first in the eastern school's grades; few.
In addition, some people think that there will be a dark horse this year, and the name Jin Nan is constantly mentioned in forum posts.
It's just that these replies are mostly ridicules.
The author has something to say: I'm late, because I'm approaching the big climax of One Night Q recently, and I'm a bit Calvin...
The typo will be corrected tomorrow
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