HBWnovel Chapter 29 Fang Xiaoyi
Chapter 29 Fang Xiaoyi
In June of 2011, Fang Xiaoyi had just finished the college entrance examination.
He stood downstairs in the examination room where it had just rained, and his breath was filled with the smell of the washed grass.Fang Xiaoyi pursed his lips and watched the people coming and going in front of him.
Many students in the class have already made appointments to have dinner together or prepare to go home to pack their luggage for a trip, but no one has made an appointment with Fang Xiaoyi.
The girls in his class all like the tall, handsome and strong boys in Korean dramas. For a boy like Fang Xiaoyi who is only 1.7 meters tall and thin, no one will give him a second glance.Boys even thought he was too handsome and fair-skinned, calling him a "mother".
In fact, Fang Xiaoyi is just relatively silent, and he is also good at sports, but his naturally untanned skin has become a reason for them to laugh at him.No one would care about it. When the first year of high school started, Fang Xiao also smiled and talked to everyone.However, the classmates in the class either knew each other a long time ago, or they just didn't want to talk to this little guy.Gradually, no one came to talk to Fang Xiaoyi, and he was no longer so active in making friends with others.
In Fang Xiaoyi's family, his father is a military officer who has been away all year round, and his mother is often the only one who takes care of him at home.Even though Fang Xiao is naturally optimistic, he is still a young man who is still underage, and he cannot withstand the pressure of being isolated by everyone at school.He proposed to his mother to study art, and his mother readily agreed.
In the process of studying art, Fang Xiao also realized his own happiness as he wished, and his grades were as good as ever.
Now that the college entrance examination is over, Fang Xiaoyi's mind is still in chaos.When the students were sprinting for the college entrance examination, they all had goals in mind, but he didn't.Until the end of the exam, he still didn't know where he could go. All the schools in the art exam passed, but Fang Xiaoyi's heart was really confused.
As soon as this was over, the feeling of loneliness swept over again like before, which gave Fang Xiao some headaches.
He grasped the pen in his hand tightly, and the smooth outline of the pen barrel sank deeply into the palm of his hand.
Now, it's best to go home.
When I got home, my mother was not at home, so I guess she went out to buy food.Mom said she was going to cook him a big meal today to celebrate his real graduation.
Fang Xiao also carefully arranged the pen on the desk, and then opened the laptop that hadn't been used many times.This computer was bought for him by his father on his birthday a year ago. Unfortunately, not long after buying it, Fang Xiaoyi had to go to the studio to attend classes every day, and he didn't have much time to stay at home to play with the computer.
Logged in to a Weibo with a lot of "dust" on it, and the Weibo named "Xiaoxiao Little White Rabbit" was still not followed by many people. Fang Xiaoyi didn't care, but was surprised to find that he followed several rotten girls The writers all posted Weibo with the hashtag #江暮大人生日快乐#.
The girls all sent short essays written by themselves or paintings specially drawn for that person, and Fang Xiao also became a little interested in this.
"Jiangmu... my lord?"
Fang Xiaoyi murmured, such a title was new to him.He tried typing those two words in the Weibo search box, and successfully searched Jiang Mu's Weibo.
This is the first time Fang Xiaoyi knows that there is such a thing as a CV. After looking at Jiang Mu's Weibo, he has been reposting everyone's blessing Weibo, and the content of each reply is different. , It can be seen that it was treated with care.Fang Xiaoyi tilted his head, put one hand on his chin, and opened Du Niang.
He wanted to search to see what radio dramas were like.The one he took as a search model was, of course, Jiang Mu.
Twilight radio drama.In just five words, a whole page of different radio drama names can be found. Fang Xiaoyi picked one of the names, which sounded nice and clicked in.
Without wearing headphones, the short and quiet music gradually weakened, and a man's voice sounded.Gentle and calm are Fang Xiaoyi's first impressions of Jiang Mu's voice.He held his breath, listening to the man's gentle voice filling the entire silent room, echoing, filling the listener's heart little by little.
Fang Xiaoyi hadn't heard such a warm voice for a long time.He couldn't wait to put on the earphones, letting that person's voice belong to him only.
It wasn't until his mother knocked on the door that Fang Xiaoyi woke up from the Internet world.I had a great dinner with my mother, but while chewing the food in my mouth, my mind would always unconsciously think about the twilight... After dinner, Fang Xiaoyi still obediently helped her mother wash the dishes and thanked her, but she was very anxious inside .
He can't wait to dive headlong into the world full of the sounds of the twilight.Hearing this, he was out of control.
Fang Xiao also downloaded the MP3 of each of Jiang Mu's radio dramas to his MP4, and when the MP4 was not enough, he put it in his mobile phone.From the moment I woke up every morning, I got used to wearing earphones and playing Jiangxi's radio dramas and songs in a loop.
He could fall asleep listening to Jiang Mu's voice, and then wake up listening to Jiang Mu's voice... He didn't even watch the anime that he planned to finish the college entrance examination. Filled to the brim.
Fang Xiaoyi was simply obsessed.
If you fall in love with someone just because of the voice, who would believe it?There is no guarantee of love, but youth is always better than youth, and Fang Xiao doesn't care about these.
Until the day when the college entrance examination scores were announced, if his mother hadn't reminded him, he might have forgotten it.The last sentence of the broadcasting radio drama came to my ear, "You don't even believe in yourself...how can I let myself love you?" Fang Xiaoyi closed his eyes and raised his head, taking a deep breath, the corners of his lips exposed Smile with confidence.
The power of sound is really amazing sometimes.
Opening his eyes, Fang Xiao also pressed the pause button of the MP4 and placed it beside him like a treasure.Then I called my mother into the room, and the two checked the college entrance examination scores together.When she saw her expected high score, her mother was so excited that she hugged Fang Xiaoyi, but Fang Xiaoyi was buried in her mother's neck, crying.
"Mom... you go out for a while, okay?"
The son's crying voice came from very close to her ear. Mother Fang thought it was because her son was too happy and needed to give him some space to vent his long suppressed emotions, so she patted her son's head and left the room, gently taking Lock the door.
After her mother left the room, Fang Xiaoyi seemed to be lying on the bed collapsing.He looked at the white ceiling in a daze, his slender fingers gripped the quilt tightly, biting his teeth so that his lower lip was almost bleeding.
Fang Xiaoyi was very tangled in his heart, he didn't know if such a decision was right or not.
He didn't know how to face his mother later, no one taught him how to lie, so he wouldn't lie either.
After following Jiang Mu for so long, Fang Xiao also found out that Jiang Mu was in A University.Although I don't know anything, I don't know if the man is a student or a teacher, I don't know if the man is in the campus of City A, and I don't know... how to find him in such a big school with so many people.
But Fang Xiaoyi had already made a somewhat crazy move in his heart.
He was going to University A just to find Jiang Mu.Going to University A might increase the chance of encountering them?
Thinking of this, my heart seemed to calm down slowly.Fang Xiao also stood behind the door, holding the doorknob tightly with his hands, and pressing down.
The door opened, and my mother saw him finally come out of the room, with a very calm expression on his face, and a sigh of relief in her heart.But before the breath could be released from his mouth, Fang Xiaoyi was startled by Fang Xiaoyi's sudden kneeling on the ground!
"Xiaoyi? Are you...?" Fang's mother was already dumbfounded, and she bent down quickly to help her son up.
"Mom, let me go and let me speak slowly." Fang Xiaoyi straightened her back, staring directly at her mother's suspicious eyes with bright eyes.
Fang's mother took a step back, and Fang Xiaoyi looked at each other.At this moment, her heart was beating drums, uneasy.Wasn't Xiaoyi very happy when he saw the college entrance examination scores just now?Now... what are you going to say to make it so serious?
Fang Xiaoyi's neck and back almost formed a straight line, standing firmly on the ground, only his head was slightly raised.He finally said, "Mom, I'm not going to C University anymore. I want to change to A University."
The graphic design major of University C is the best in the country, and the professional score requirements are also the highest.Fang Xiaoyi had taken the exam before, and he had already passed the art exam, and his culture score had now met the requirements.However, the most powerful major of University A is journalism, and graphic design can only be regarded as above-average.Mother Fang, who is a high school teacher, knows which university is better.
She is not only a teacher, but more importantly, she is a mother.If it was just because she wanted to change her job, there was no need for Fang Xiao to kneel down and make a low profile. She was not such an unreasonable mother.Therefore, it was easy for Fang's mother to see that her son definitely had other things to say.
Fang's mother lowered her head slightly, and smiled helplessly: "Xiaoyi, do you still have something to tell me? The reason why you want to go to University A...what is it?"
Fang Xiaoyi's pupils shrank, and he quickly closed his eyes as if to avoid his mother's questioning gaze. The fingers on his side scratched his thigh through a pair of pants, which hurt.However, he quickly opened his eyes and his back was still straight.
Her lips opened and closed slightly, and the trembling voice that she tried her best to conceal still filled the room with only two people, "Mom, I... fell in love with a man, he is there, he is in A University."
"You want to find him?" Mother Fang's voice was neither salty nor weak.
"...Yes. I want to find him."
Mother Fang said: "Do you know his name, occupation and age?" She sighed, "You have been inseparable from headphones since the end of the college entrance examination. I know what you are listening to... But, you have only heard His voice, can you say that you are in love with him?"
Fang Xiao also raised his head, pursed his lips, and said, "I want to give it a try. Even if I can't find him, my major in University A will not be bad."
Mother Fang didn't answer any more, followed by a long silence, so blank that one could almost hear the heartbeat of the other party.
"Okay." She said, "This is your own decision, and I won't stop you."
"Mother……"
"Okay." Fang's mother bent down, smiled gently and helped Fang Xiaoyi up, "Stop kneeling. I don't blame you, I can't control who you like."
She put her arms around her son's shoulders, and the two of them sat on the sofa together, so soft that they sank in two places.Mother Fang gently stroked her son's face with her rough hands, and looked at Fang Xiaoyi who was startled. She smiled, and there were fine wrinkles at the corners of her mouth.
Mother Fang said: "As long as you can be happy, I will not stop you."
Fang Xiaoyi's back, which had been stiff and straight all this time, finally showed a slight curvature. He threw himself into his mother's arms and cried wantonly, "Mom...thank you..."
"How old are you, and you still cry." Although she said so disgustingly, she smiled helplessly and wiped away her son's tears.
"If I go to University A, I can still stay with you every day." Fang Xiaoyi put his arms around his mother's neck, as if he had returned to his childhood smile.
Mother Fang said: "Come on, I'm much more relaxed without you."
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After successfully filling in the graphic design major of University A, Fang Xiaoyi is still inseparable from MP4.He turns on the computer every day, looks here and there, and has an idea in his heart that has been hesitating.
He wants to do a CV.In this way, being in the same circle as Jiang Mu, we can have common topics in the future... Maybe we can get closer to him?
Most of Jiang Mu's dramas are heartwarming, and there are many lines that are very encouraging. Fang Xiao also has to admit that Jiang Mu indirectly gave him courage.
First of all, Fang Xiao also needs to have a decent name.
Jiang Mu once said on Weibo that his CV name means Jiang Mu's relationship... the meaning is Jiang Mu's relationship, but Fang Xiao didn't care about it, so he chose a name - Invasion Xiao.
Before you reach dawn, I decided to invade your world first.
Fang Xiao also went to find several recruitment posts on the forum, and posted auditions one by one as required.But he really thinks the online distribution circle is too simple.
Although Fang Xiaoyi's Mandarin is good, but the original work is too poor, and the equipment is not good.His name is not even considered a newcomer in the circle, and Fang Xiaoyi didn't even get a trick as the school day approached.
As optimistic as he is, he doesn't give up so easily.
Fang Xiao also checked a lot of knowledge about network distribution on the Internet.While preparing the things to be used in the military training at the beginning of school, he is still practicing the most basic Mandarin.Even in days like military training when everyone is almost exhausted, Fang Xiaoyi still flipped through the original novels with recruitment posters day and night, rereading them over and over again until he fully understood the emotions of the characters.He would also hide in a place where no one was around on campus, practice his poor sense of drama, perform it by himself, record it on MP3, listen to it again, and record it again...
On the first weekend after the military training, Fang Xiaoyi finally got a supporting role.
Since then, he has never dared to neglect recording any time, and his serious attitude has gradually been accepted by everyone, and he has directed one radio drama after another, many of which have him as the main character.
However, Fang Xiao also felt more and more powerless.He thought of everything too simply. In a university campus with tens of thousands of people, it is really difficult to find a person who does not know his name or appearance.Not to mention how small the chance of encountering is.
In the online distribution circle, Jiang Mu is a master.What is invasion?It can only be regarded as Little Pink, unless he takes the initiative to hug his thigh, otherwise he wants to get close to Jiang Mu, I don't know how long it will take.
All in vain, he is like a clown.
Until the episode of falling asleep in the morning and accidentally entering the wrong class in the wrong grade, Fang Xiao also got to know Jiang Yuze, a senior.
I didn't expect that both of them were in the online matching circle, let alone that Jiang Yuze was still a great master in the online matching circle.Fang Xiaoyi gradually calmed down, and humbly learned from Jiang Yuze.
——In this way, the time to get close to that person may be shortened.
Jiang Yuze's good temper made Fang Xiaoyi trust him very much, and regarded him as a good listener.Fang Xiao also likes Jiang Mu, and only Jiang Yuze knows it clearly from beginning to end.
The time has indeed been shortened a lot, and the time for finding people has been directly omitted.Last summer, Fang Xiao also made an appointment with Jiang Yuze as usual, but the address changed.When he rang the doorbell, he saw Jiang Yuze standing at the door with another man.
The man was much taller than himself, with a pair of thin-rimmed glasses on his tall nose, he looked bookish.Dressed very homely, his expression is very gentle at first glance, but the sensitive Fang Xiaoyi can see the slight indifference in the man's eyes behind the lenses at a glance.
I have heard that Jiang Yuze has a boyfriend before, and I have been to their residence.So Fang Xiao also admitted the wrong person as a matter of course: "Senior Jiang, is this your legendary boyfriend?"
Unexpectedly, the expressions of the two people in front of them were all stiff, Jiang Yuze denied it first.Then, Fang Xiao also heard a man's voice, hitting his fragile and sensitive eardrum directly: "Hello, I am Yuze's senior..."
——After listening to the voice for countless days and nights, how could he not hear it?
What the man said behind him was already a little vague, but the familiar voice that he had been thinking about day and night now really came to his ears, hitting the bottom of his heart.At that moment, Fang Xiaoyi almost wanted to cry, but he had to hide his emotions and talk to the two of them.
That person, his name is Li Shu.Li Shu, Li Shu, a nice name.Fang Xiao also thought in his mind, he liked this very much, calling his name in his heart over and over again.
Later, when Jiang Yuze wanted to confirm whether the man was thinking, Fang Xiaoyi asked, but immediately denied it himself.
He was sure that he would never admit the wrong person, but he also understood that even if he met that person now, would things be any different?
So Fang Xiaoyi quickly denied it, his throat was dry, and he even wanted to deny himself together.
Jiang Yuze didn't know what he was thinking, so he told the truth very simply.In just ten seconds, Fang Xiao also denied it countless times in his heart, but was still happy when he heard the expected result.
——No matter how much he wants to deny it, he can't deny the... ridiculous love that has been deeply rooted in his heart.
Since then, Jiang Yuze began to create various opportunities for Fang Xiaoyi.The distance between Fang Xiaoyi and Jiang Mu seems to have shortened a lot.
Although, in fact, they are only in a state of knowing each other.Three-dimensional, Two-dimensional are the same.
In the third dimension, Fang Xiao is also the junior of Li Shu's good friend. Two-dimensional, Invasion Xiao and Jiang Mu are in the same crew.That's all.
In this situation, Fang Xiao is already very satisfied, at least he and Jiang Mu have added friends and followed each other on Weibo.But after all, if you like someone, how can you be satisfied?
Fang Xiao also took the initiative to chat with Jiang Mu, and insisted on going offline every day to say good night, and only went to bed when Jiang Mu was offline.
Efforts must pay off?Fang Xiao also looked at this sentence, bowed his head and smiled.
Even a fool can see that when Jiang Mu chats with him, Bailu Hengjiang will definitely be mentioned after three sentences.That person's heart was full of pretending to be Jiang Yuze.
—— When meeting Ji for the first time, Li Shu saw him sitting there, obviously already knew his real identity, but didn't ask a word.
——The first time I met Ji, Li Shu was almost beaten. Fang Xiaoyi was the first to rush up to check on Li Shu's situation worriedly, but Li Shu's eyes were still fixed on Jiang Yuze.Who is there?Fang Xiao also felt that Li Shu didn't care at all.
Hope ignited, but gradually disappointed.Jiang Yuze still persevered in creating opportunities for the two of them, and Fang Xiao was grateful from the bottom of his heart.But gradually he couldn't restrain the sourness in his heart, and he felt more and more that he was just a supporting role.
Fang Xiao also used to envy, envy, and hate Jiang Yuze, but it turns out that Jiang Yuze is much better than Li Shu.It is also because Jiang Yuze has been secretly helping him and encouraging him that he can persist until now...
Fang Xiaoyi's 20th birthday.
Holding the faded MP4 tightly in his hand, he woke up from the sun.Fang Xiaoyi had already made a decision in his heart.
On my birthday last year, I spent it listening to Jiang Mu's radio drama.This year, I have already become friends with Shokuno...Maybe, maybe he won't have to spend this year's birthday alone again?
Thinking of it this way, it seemed that the courage that was lost before had also returned to the body in one go.Fang Xiao also opened the curtains, letting the sunlight fill the bedroom, a confident smile that he had never seen before, and the radio drama that he and Jiang Mu played the leading role together came out from the earphones...
Sometimes sound really is a magical thing.It can make you love someone because of it, and it can also make you hate someone because of it.That person's joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys are revealed from the voice, and it seems that all of them happened to you.
However, at the YY scene with thousands of people, he finally mustered up all his courage to confess his love to Jiang Mu, but what he got was an answer that he expected and wanted to hear: "Xiaoxiao, I'm sorry. Maybe there is no way now. "
"nothing……"
Staring silently at the name on the microphone, he decisively turned off the microphone.Fang Xiaoyi finally didn't want to suppress the soreness that had been in his heart for a long time. His whole body seemed to have undergone countless labors, and he sat on the bed weakly and exhausted.Fang Xiaoyi's already thin body slowly curled up into a ball, causing the whole body to sink into a piece on the soft big bed.
The crying of the breakdown was all the more clear in the silent room... and all the more ironic.
Three years of unrequited love, no matter how long it lasted, there was nothing in the end.
At that time, he really thought that he would never have another chance.
The author has something to say:
1. Regarding coming out, Fang Xiaoyi was too young at the time, and he would never hesitate to do anything. He believed that if he fell in love, he would pursue it.He didn't ignore his mother's mood, this kid actually struggled with not only the time in the text.
2. Here I give the name of the stupidest little fool in the whole text to classmate Xiaoxiao. This kind of stupidity can't be resisted by ordinary people [.
3. Maybe a lot of people think that Xiaoxiao's cuteness is disgusting?Haha, this is a feeling from the inside out. He is really not a very soft person, but he is also very courageous, and he is not deliberately trying to be cute to please. It is more of an unconscious Xiaoxiao who has his own ideas XD
This chapter is some supplementary explanations to the main text, probably similar to answering questions and solving doubts. If there is anything unclear, please ask me 2333
The Xiaoxiao part is over = 3 = Thank you everyone