waste heat

Chapter 109

They finally had a kitten of their own.

Song Yu said that he wanted to give him something, Cheng Yan thought it was shoes or something, but he didn't expect to receive a super cute blue fat man, so the name, in fact, the kitten itself is not fat. Very small, Song Yu said that raising a cat should start when it is small, feed it a little fat, and witness its growth.

Cheng Yan thinks it makes sense, and he enjoys it very much. Every day when he returns to the dormitory, he just plays with his kitten. Originally, apart from studying and going out with his boyfriend every day or two, there are other things to do now. Gao Yucheng said that he was going to completely evolve into an otaku.

"Your boyfriend doesn't want you anymore, so give you a cat?" Gao Yucheng looked at Cheng Yan feeding the cat. They feed it in the dormitory. There is a cage. The cat will be released after class. It is usually closed, but at the beginning Hey, Cheng Yan is afraid that it will run around, let it slow down first, and plan to let it move freely after getting familiar with it.

The kitten is also good, it doesn't bark at night, and doesn't disturb other people's rest. Gao Yucheng also likes cats, so he was allowed to keep him in the dormitory.

"Why do you say that?" Cheng Yan raised his head, squatting beside the cage with cat food in his hand.

"Because you're already homey enough. Once you raise this thing, good guy, you don't have to go out at all." As Cheng Yan's roommate, Gao Yucheng couldn't understand why Cheng Yan spent all day lying on the table reading materials. Strength is really not covered.

Cheng Yan said with a smile: "No, I like cats and dogs. He said before that he would raise them in the future. He just fulfilled his promise, and it has nothing to do with anything else."

"Really? I saw him go out talking and laughing with other girls the day before yesterday." Gao Yucheng tidied up the closet and put the clean clothes in it.

Cheng Yan didn't take it seriously and said, "Being with a girl doesn't mean you have anything, it's just a classmate."

"Then go to such a romantic place together?"

"Romantic?" Cheng Yan raised his head: "Where?"

Gao Yucheng shook his hand, "Forget it, pretend I didn't say anything."

"Why do you say half of it?" Cheng Yan stood up and paid attention to it, "Finish."

Gao Yucheng sighed: "Well, it may not be true. I just saw them go out to eat together. I saw that very famous restaurant for couples outside the school from the window."

Cheng Yan didn't answer quickly, Gao Yucheng was afraid that he would think too much, and said: "I was joking just now, maybe it's nothing, maybe I read it wrong, or they just had a meal and nothing else."

"Then why go to the couple's restaurant?" Cheng Yan's suspicion was lifted, he didn't really want to doubt Song Yu, it was Gao Yucheng's rhetoric, he couldn't be more serious.

"If you want to know, just ask him. This is the best way." Gao Yucheng said, "What others say may not be accurate, what do you think?"

It makes sense, Cheng Yan can't doubt Song Yu arbitrarily, this is a crisis of trust, he has been in love for so long, he also needs to know something, Cheng Yan called Song Yu, intending to ask the matter clearly.

But there will be no one answering the phone for a while, Cheng Yan frowned, usually he doesn't think too much, isn't the situation in this meeting different?He waited and waited, hoping that Song Yu would give him an answer quickly to prevent him from thinking about it.

But the phone call didn't work, Cheng Yan called several times, but there was no result, so he had to give up.

The class in the afternoon was not full, Cheng Yan was flipping through the materials, preparing for the questions the teacher asked to answer, Gao Yucheng was reading with him in the dormitory, and they didn't run around, but because of Gao Yucheng's words, Cheng Yan was in a mess and couldn't rest assured.

How can dating affect learning?This is the mood he cultivated when he was in high school, and now it's starting to become unstable?Is it because you can't see people in high school, and you can only listen to Song Yu himself, but now that you are close, Song Yu's affairs will be seen by others, and he will be shaken instead?

Sighing, Cheng Yan covered the book, picked up the phone, but still didn't receive a reply, what was he busy with most of the day?

The cat was meowing, and Cheng Yan was in turmoil. At four o'clock in the afternoon, Song Yu replied.

Cheng Yan answered the phone and asked him what he was doing.

"Why are you calling me so many times? Miss me?" Song Yu was out of shape.

Do you still dare to talk to him now?Cheng Yan's tone became serious, "Why didn't you answer my call?"

"Busy."

"What are you busy with?"

"Well...you don't need to know about the less important things." Song Yu turned and said, "Is the cat good?"

"Good boy." Cheng Yan said something, and the topic was taken by Song Yu.

"What are you doing this afternoon?"

"Read a book."

"what book?"

"Information book." Song Yu asked what he answered, and he didn't mean to talk too much.

Song Yu was sensitive, heard something, and asked concerned: "What's the matter? You don't seem to be very interested."

Cheng Yan said, "I'm tired of waiting for your call."

Song Yu laughed and said apologetically, "I'm really busy this afternoon."

"Then what are you talking about?" Cheng Yan felt that he was quite patient, why didn't Song Yu tell him?Isn't this a sign of guilty conscience?He gave him a chance to explain, and asked several times, why is he acting so secretive?

Sure enough, once a person has suspicions, he becomes impetuous, and Cheng Yan is also a mortal, so he can't hide from it.

"Other people's affairs are not important," Song Yu said, "Come down, I'll take you to have a meal."

Or just stop talking about today?

Cheng Yan said angrily, "I've eaten."

After finishing speaking, he hung up the phone, and he was unwilling to make amends with Song Yu. If he didn't talk, he wouldn't talk. Cheng Yan threw the phone on the table, hugged his knees, and felt wronged by himself.

Gao Yucheng heard his movements, and asked cautiously: "Really?"

Cheng Yan said irritably: "Not sure, he always doesn't tell me."

Gao Yucheng tapped his head: "Blame me, I'm talking too much, I really shouldn't have told you."

He would rather demolish ten temples than destroy one marriage, Gao Yucheng regretted it now, he really can't speculate about the relationship between them, if he really broke up the two, how much crime would he have to do?And it's still uncertain.

Gao Yucheng persuaded: "Don't listen to me, I must have read it wrong, your boyfriend treats you so well, you see, he even bought you a cat, don't everyone say that he wants to raise it with someone The cat means that you want to have something to do with this person and live together, your boyfriend must like you very much."

Cheng Yan turned his head and looked at the cute cat. He felt that he had changed. He never doubted Song Yu. What happened now?He suspected that Song Yu had betrayed him because someone said a word?How could it be possible, he has been with Song Yu for so long, from high school to now, he can clearly remember what they have done for each other, the experience is incomparable to others, he should believe in Song Yu's character.

Could it be that I was really spoiled by him?Song Yu was so kind and considerate to him, and he did everything he promised, but he himself began to be suspicious.

Cheng Yan wanted to get rid of the unhealthy thoughts in his head, picked up the phone, and wanted to send a text message to Song Yu to apologize, but the moment he touched the phone, another thought entered his mind, it was because he had been with Song Yu for a long time, There will be a feeling of boredom, right?Is there a reason for this?

Cheng Yan's hands froze, and he didn't know what to do. The angel and the devil were fighting, making him a mess.

"Dong dong."

Someone knocked on the door.

Cheng Yan put on his slippers and walked over to open the door. He didn't know who was outside, he thought it was some roommate, but when he opened the door, it was Song Yu standing straight at the door.

Cheng Yan opened his mouth slightly, and was a little dumbfounded.

"You..." His words were stuck in his throat, and he didn't know what to say.

Song Yu looked down at him and said, "Change your shoes and go out to eat."

-

Cheng Yan came out with Song Yu. Those who have no backbone or shamelessness are not as important as his relationship with Song Yu. Cheng Yan and Song Yu are wandering around the campus. Many people in the school know them and look at them along the way. Not a lot, but both of them were calm.

Song Yu lit a cigarette and held it in his hand, as if he had something on his mind, Cheng Yan didn't speak, knowing that he wouldn't say anything, he was still at a loss.

Song Yudao: "You just freeze with me, freeze, if you have the ability to freeze all night."

He does this every time, knowing that he has something on his mind, and then speaks out directly, making Cheng Yan very upset.

Cheng Yan said: "It's because you don't want to tell me."

Song Yu looked at him sideways: "What did I tell you?"

Cheng Yan found fault and said, "Turn your face away, it smells like smoke."

Song Yu still didn't agree, he stopped, pulled Cheng Yan to stop, then raised his hand to hold his chin, let him look at him, and asked: "If you insist on being tough with me again, do you believe I will slap you?"

"You slap me," Cheng Yan raised his chin and said fearlessly, "If you don't slap me, I'll freeze."

Song Yu really couldn't do anything about him, so he made a joke with him, then let go of his hand, flicked the cigarette ash, stood on the side of the road, and got up serious, "Aren't I just a little late to answer the phone? I'm going to be angry ? Every day?"

"Who is being coquettish with you?" Cheng Yan retorted, "You don't know why I'm angry."

"I really don't know, help me," the big man Song Yu was at a loss: "My brother, don't torture me, I'm the only one, you scare me once every three days, I'm going to go crazy if I'm not sick .”

Cheng Yan couldn't help but couldn't help but couldn't hear what he said, so he didn't froze, and laughed out loud, "Then become stupid, I want to see what a guy with such a handsome skin and a bad brain is like."

Song Yu threw the cigarette butt, caught up with Cheng Yan, grabbed his hand, interlocked his fingers, put it in his pocket naturally, and said, "Speaking of which, did I really do something wrong?"

Cheng Yan just wanted to play tricks on him: "I said what I think, but I won't tell you."

Song Yu guessed: "Well...didn't answer the phone?"

Cheng Yan gave him a white look: "I said it's not like this a long time ago."

Song Yu continued to pursue: "Then... are you coming back late?"

Cheng Yan retorted forcefully: "I don't go out with you every day, how would I know you came back late?"

"What's that?" Song Yu was worried, and couldn't figure it out after thinking about it for a long time, "Do you not like the cat you gave me?"

"The kitten is very cute, it won't take your blame."

"What do you say."

"I will not say."

"My brain is going to explode."

"Break it up."

The two of them went to the cafeteria and had noodles tonight. There was a marinated egg in the noodles. Cheng Yan liked to eat eggs. The eggs in the noodles were the soul. Song Yu would order two for him every time.

One is in the dough and the other is in the shell.

Song Yu sat down and ordered only one portion of noodles. He was peeling the eggs very skillfully. He removed the shell in two or three strokes and handed it to Cheng Yan.

"You don't want to eat?" Cheng Yan didn't see him ordering food for himself.

"I've eaten," Song Yu said, "The guests invited by others are outside."

"No wonder, it's ready to eat when we go out." Cheng Yan took the smooth egg and held the cold noodles with chopsticks.

"Don't choke me," Song Yu heard his implication, "It's really weird, I haven't been by your side all day, when did you offend your old man?"

It's not that he doesn't know what's wrong, it's that he really doesn't know what's wrong. Song Yu was busy with other things outside this day, so busy that he didn't answer the phone. When he came back, his little boyfriend was still working, which made him guess where ?

But Cheng Yan wanted to embarrass him to the end, he had no choice but to be spoiled, now that Cheng Yan knew his position, he was just playing a monster, "If I tell you, I guess."

Song Yu saw that he made up his mind to embarrass him, so he could only guess for himself, he thought: "Is it because I didn't accompany you for a day?"

"When did I cling to you so much?" Cheng Yan objected, "I'm not an obsessive boyfriend."

"That's what's wrong with you," Song Yu seized the opportunity, "I've had opinions for a long time, so I never took the initiative to come to me. Why, you are so busy studying the Fa that you don't even care about your boyfriend?"

"How do you know that our law students are very busy?" Cheng Yan followed his words: "Unlike the rich sons of your finance department, they all want to be executives after graduation and inherit the family business when they go home."

The two started discussing professional issues for no reason. It wasn't professional problems, but personal problems. Cheng Yan just didn't mention what mistakes he made, and Song Yu went around the corner without asking. The two of them ate in the cafeteria. After dinner, Cheng Yan said that he had to go back, and their law students were so busy that their boyfriends couldn't care about them.

Song Yudao: "Just hold it for me."

After making a fuss and finding nothing, Cheng Yan returned to the dormitory and lay down on the bed. He could really hold his teeth, not to mention it, but it didn't mean the matter was over. Cheng Yan was thinking about what to do tomorrow.

After thinking for a long time, he suddenly had an idea, turned around and asked, "Gao Yucheng, where is the couple's restaurant you mentioned?"

-

The next day after school, Cheng Yan did not contact Song Yu, and went to the restaurant that Gao Yucheng said to stay in advance. He had to try his luck today. If he was lucky, he would catch Song Yu. When the time came, the pot would be over, and the evidence was in his hands. Let's see what he does Sophistry, if you are unlucky, today will be in vain.

Cheng Yan squatted behind the restaurant in ambush. This idea was stupid. Really, he knew it, but he had to see it with his own eyes to be at ease. What if Song Yu panicked?He couldn't trust Song Yu too blindly, just let him have a crisis of trust, he swore that he would only be suspicious once, if he made a mistake, he would never doubt Song Yu again.

Cheng Yan waited for a long time, but no one showed up. Zhao Yibai called him at this time and asked him what he was doing. Cheng Yan told his psychological journey, and Zhao Yibai said: "You Something wrong?"

Cheng Yan wondered, "What's wrong?"

Zhao Yibai said, "Why did he go for the second time?"

Cheng Yan said: "In case, I'll try my luck, in case he really cheats, I'll catch him and embarrass him."

Hearing his voice, Zhao Yibai couldn't help breaking it down: "Are you suspicious of him? You're too idle, you have nothing to do."

"Why do you say that?"

"Listen to your tone," Zhao Yibai complained helplessly, "Who would be so happy to catch her boyfriend cheating? You almost turned your tail to the sky."

Cheng Yan leaned against the wall and said, "I just have nothing to do. I didn't doubt him that much at first, but he never told me. The more he didn't tell me, the more I became suspicious. Let's doubt it a little. It's not a big deal, he doesn't know."

"Be careful, don't be caught by him, then he won't be the one who is embarrassed."

"Don't be crowed, how could he find me, I'm so concealed." Cheng Yan also borrowed Gao Yucheng's hat, and pressed it at this time, his face was originally small, and was mostly covered by the hat.

In the end, Zhao Yibai's crow's mouth really came true. If you say it's good, you shouldn't, but if you say it's bad, it's accurate. Cheng Yan squatted near the restaurant for a long time, and finally saw Song Yu's figure. He came alone, why did he come to the couple's restaurant by himself?Cheng Yan poked his head, but couldn't find the second person. He didn't know where Song Yu hid her.

Song Yu entered the restaurant, Cheng Yan bent his waist, and looked for his shadow through the glass. At this moment, Song Yu disappeared, and he turned around the transparent window. This restaurant has no second floor, and the scene in the room is completely visible through the glass windows. It was clear that unless he went to the back kitchen, there would be no way for him to disappear.

Are people waiting for him inside?Where did Song Yu go?

"Damn." Cheng Yan straightened up, and the long wait was lost like this?He boldly went in and asked the staff, who just came in, the staff asked who he was, Cheng Yan said: "He is very tall, wearing a white coat, and wearing a peach beard on his wrist."

"Then how can I pay attention to your details..."

"It's very tall, I should have an impression..."

"How tall is it?"

"It looks like 1.9 meters, Jiuyi is also possible, anyway, it is very high..."

"1.9 meters two."

A voice behind Cheng Yan interrupted Cheng Yan's uncertainty. He was shocked when he heard it, then turned around and saw Song Yu with a sullen face.

Cheng Yan's feeling of embarrassment will never be forgotten in this life.

Song Yu grabbed him by the neck, carried him out of the restaurant like a chicken, locked him on the wall between the two buildings, and pulled off the peaked cap on his head, revealing a shameful face underneath.

"Is it fun?" Song Yu leaned against the wall behind him, fiddling with the lighter in his hand, took out the cigarette, twirled it in his hand after lighting it, and said in a serious tone: "Catch me?"

Cheng Yan flicked his messy hair, and argued, "I didn't come to catch you."

"Oh——" Song Yu elongated his voice meaningfully, "Wearing a hat, fully armed, sneaking around the door of the restaurant, looking for a person who is 1.9 meters tall, not me, who is it? Who are you cheating on?"

"It was you who cheated, not me." Cheng Yan picked up the hat on the ground, patted the dust, and said reproachfully.

Song Yudao: "Is the trust between the two of us so bad? You will become suspicious after just a few words from your roommate?"

"How do you know..." How did he know it was because of Gao Yucheng?Cheng Yan couldn't figure it out.

"I don't have a long mouth, so I don't know how to ask?" Song Yudao: "Your roommate is not bad. I asked him a few words and he explained it. If you know your mistakes, you can correct them. There is nothing good about it."

Cheng Yan said in surprise: "Then you also know that today I..."

"Otherwise, what am I here for?" Song Yu said, "I made you squat for so long and you got nothing?"

Cheng Yan was furious: "You know you still play me, you are not a good person."

"I'm definitely not a good person. I've cheated. I'm a big scumbag who betrayed his lover. What kind of a good person can I be? A pig or a dog." Song Yu was smoking a cigarette with a gloomy face and no desire to survive in his tone. All thanks to his lover.

Cheng Yan couldn't be arrogant, he was at fault for this matter, once he heard Song Yu's voice, how could he show off his power?Stepped up and said, "I'm sorry, I didn't really doubt you."

Song Yu turned to the beginning, Cheng Yante is good at coaxing people, he has been trained by Song Yu long ago, the method of coaxing people is a set method, he hugged Song Yu's waist, raised his head, and said pitifully: "You Don't bother with me, I just have nothing to do, I heard you and the girl came to the couple's restaurant to be jealous, I'm sorry...Master Song."

Song Yu pinched his chin and said: "Now you can act like a baby better than girls, really."

Cheng Yan, who has never allowed Song Yu to say that, let go of his man's self-esteem and face today, and said: "I just act like a baby, and I like to act like a baby to you. , I promise this is the first and last time, once again, you just throw me into the lake, okay?"

Song Yu put more force on his hand, pinching Cheng Yan's small face, the smoothness of his skin should not be too good, Song Yu just likes to pinch his face, when he acts like a spoiled child, he looks cute and shapeless, his teeth are sharp, and his smile is also attractive Rarely, he couldn't get angry with this face, and finally said with airs: "Who played with me last night? Who is yin and yang to me? Huh?"

"I, Cheng Yan, Cheng Yan is in Yinyang Song Yu," Cheng Yan raised his hand, quickly admitting his mistake, "I should hit you, hit me, brother."

Song Yu pinched him hard and said bitterly, "Fuck you tonight."

Cheng Yan threw himself into his arms and smirked, he knew it was over.

Putting the hat in his hand, Cheng Yan followed Song Yu back.

"What's going on, why don't you just explain it to me?" Cheng Yan put his hat back on, and he suddenly found that the peaked cap looked handsome, and it also shaded the sun, but it was a bit boring.

Song Yu stood at the intersection and said, "I made an appointment for my roommates, and I also booked the restaurant for them."

"that's it?"

"How else?"

Cheng Yan said: "Then why didn't you tell me?"

Song Yu explained: "I'm afraid that if you think too much, it's not a glorious thing in the first place. I'm afraid that if I tell you, you will be suspicious, just like now."

"I'll be suspicious if you don't tell me, and I'm not that stingy," Cheng Yan said, "I can understand this kind of thing."

Song Yu admitted his mistake and said: "Well, I didn't think carefully about this matter. I always feel that I made random decisions for your own good. I will tell you next time if there is anything."

"Be sure to tell me," Cheng Yan said, "There's no need to hide it, I won't be angry."

Song Yu covered Cheng Yan's head with his palm, and said, "Understood, I won't do it next time."

Lovers need to make progress together, and love needs two people to manage together. It is not clear whose fault it is, and everyone is right. It is the best way to clarify the facts, and formulate new rules together to avoid this happening again. Kind of misunderstanding is enough, there is no need to quarrel, no need to make a fuss.

Cheng Yan also deeply felt that there was something wrong. He should have said the matter yesterday, and there would be no oolong today. Both of them recognized the problem and corrected it in time. This is a valuable place.

"You chased someone for your roommate, did you catch him?" Cheng Yan was concerned about this gossip.

"No," Song Yu said regretfully, "That girl thought I was going to chase her."

Then found out that it was someone else?This way of chasing people is really a bad idea, Cheng Yan thought to himself.

Take a taxi back, today's meal is more delicious than yesterday's, Cheng Yan treats guests, peels eggs for Song Yu, and lets Song Yu enjoy the treatment he enjoys every day.

Back in the dormitory, my mother called and asked him about his recent life. Cheng Yan said everything was fine, and my mother said that she would come to see him, and asked Song Yu to call him too. After so long, my mother and the others have accepted two The fact that the individual is in a relationship.

Cheng Yan worked very hard every day. Cheng's mother knew that she didn't want to put extra pressure on him. No matter how unacceptable she was, she eventually lost to tolerance and love for the child. It has a great guiding role in it, and even a part of Cheng Yan's motivation. It is a good thing that he brought Cheng Yan to grow up and make progress together. As for the outside world, they don't care about it. As parents, they interfere. What good is too much?

If you make too much noise, you will end up breaking down the family relationship, which is not the result anyone wants.

So we can only accept this fact.

On the day Cheng Ma came, Song Yu dressed very formally, and promised Cheng Ma a lot of things. Song Yu and Cheng Ma had met each other a long time ago, and they were very friendly. Without the constraints of Cheng Yan and his parents, the two chatted freely. Song Yu told Cheng Ma many things in his heart, but Cheng Ma finally could only nod in response.

"You two are like this, I really can't say anything," Cheng Ma said: "It's just that you know in your heart that this is a lifetime thing, and you may suffer a lot of unkind eyes from the outside world. If someone's psychological quality is not strong enough , you can’t make it to the end.”

Cheng Yan just smiled: "Mom, from high school to university, everyone around us who should know knows it."

Cheng's mother was shocked, she thought she was the only one who knew besides the two people, but she didn't know that these two people could make such a big fight, Cheng's mother couldn't say anything at that moment, she thought it was the novelty of two young people Feeling, but I don't know how serious it is.

Cheng Ma has nothing to say, just to remind her, Song Yu doesn't like to make too many promises, but for the sake of Cheng Ma's heart, he must say something like an oath, so that Cheng Ma can see his heart for Cheng Yan And the seriousness and determination to this relationship.

Cheng Ma only stayed here for one day, and left the next day. After sending her away, Cheng Yan asked Song Yu to repeat those promises, and Song Yu repeated the promises word for word face to face.

Cheng Yan doubted: "I remember so clearly, so it's not because I memorized it in advance?"

Song Yu said: "Back your sister, I have this heart for you. If I break my promise in the future, you just push me into the lake."

The two competed with the lake, and whoever got angry would throw the other into the lake.

In the first semester, Cheng Yan and Song Yu got bored every day. Although they didn’t meet frequently, they would get bored as soon as they met. Sometimes Song Yu would stand downstairs and call for someone. Cheng Yan’s floor was not high, so he opened the window to Take a look next, then come down and walk the cat with him.

Sometimes, Song Yu played ball in the gymnasium, and Cheng Yan would watch it, and sometimes he went to learn swimming with him.

Cheng Yan added Song's mother's WeChat account, and Song's mother would call him home for dinner every once in a while. Cheng Yan almost thought that the villa in the Sandalwood Palace was his own home, and went there too frequently.

Sometimes, Song's father would come directly to the school to look for him. He was a director. Cheng Yan really thought it was exaggerated for him to come to the school to look for him, but Song's father had really been here. If there is any young activity, he should be taken to see it. For fun, of course, there is also Song Yu.

The relationship between the two has been going smoothly, but there was no quarrel during the period, because Song Yu didn't allow quarrels, what to say, once there was a problem, they had to communicate clearly and not let the problem stay overnight, so Cheng Yan really found a way to talk to him quarreled.

This smooth day lasted until the end of the semester. On the day after the exam, a major event happened. Cheng Yan's cat was lost.

There was no shadow for several days in a row, Cheng Yan and Song Yu searched every day for three days, but there was no news at all, and they even posted notices to find cats in school, Cheng Yan was so anxious that he couldn't sleep well in those few days.

This cat is the first one that he and Song Yu have raised. After a semester, they have become familiar with it and got used to it. Sometimes it lives in Song Yu's dormitory, and sometimes it rests at Cheng Yan's. Walking the cat has almost become their daily necessity. Suddenly it disappeared. Cheng Yan Yan's mood fell too far, and he cried several times in fruitless nights.

That was the first time Song Yu realized that Cheng Yan liked cats so much.

Cheng Yan covered his face with his hands, and said in a trembling voice: "It's all my fault, I shouldn't have let it out, I thought it would be fine once it got used to this area."

"Maybe it was picked up by others, and you are doing well?" Song Yu tried to comfort him, but it didn't work. Cheng Yan's mood fluctuated a lot, and he knew why many people didn't want to keep cats and dogs anymore. Feelings come, and watching them get lost or die is like a family member passing away suddenly.

Cheng Yan has been sad these few days, and he is unwilling to leave the dormitory. Song Yu has nothing to do. He really understands Cheng Yan's feelings. It may be because the cat spends more time with Cheng Yan. Although he is sad, he will not come. At Cheng Yan's situation, Song Yu just accompanied him, and it was useless to comfort him. Cheng Yan said that he would never raise cats or dogs again.

Fortunately, the cat came back on the fourth day, which was unbelievable. Song Yu felt that it was a drama, but the cat came back, and it was clear that it was Cheng Yan's blue fat man.

Song Yu was holding the cat downstairs, and when he called Cheng Yan, he still didn't believe it and told him not to joke.

Song Yudao: "Why don't you stand on the balcony and take a look?"

Cheng Yan went out, stood on the balcony, saw Song Yu, he was holding a cat, the light was not good at night, Cheng Yan didn't know if it was his, he ran down in a panic, and then he saw it clearly, In Song Yu's hands is his blue fat man.

"My God, where did you find it?!" Cheng Yan took it, the cat seemed to have suffered, stuck to Cheng Yan's arms, motionless, there was no injury on the body, no trace of being abused, it should just get lost, or be hugged by some classmate gone.

"I don't know. I heard the cry after I took a shower today. It was by my window. I saw it was really it."

"This is simply a miracle," Cheng Yan rubbed the cat's body and said, "It's good to be back, it's good to be back, thank God."

Song Yu saw that his mood, which had been depressed for many days, turned into excitement, and he was relieved a lot, "Happy?"

Cheng Yan smiled at him, the loss of the two of them these days was swept away, Cheng Yan finally laughed from the bottom of his heart.

They still went to sneak the cat, carried the cat out, bought some fresh cat food, and a collar. Cheng Yan didn't want to put a collar on it to restrain it, but he was really afraid of losing it once. Those who are caring understand that this cat has a family, so don't take it away.

The two walked the cat for a long time, Song Yu sat on a park bench, and Cheng Yan sat on his lap facing him, lying on his chest.

"Don't be so low in the future, it's very worrying." Song Yu played with Cheng Yan's hair. Cheng Yan's hair was very smooth, and it was very comfortable to touch. He just had a very good hairstyle. It's been done, it's always been this way.

"Go and tell the cat that it won't get lost again." Cheng Yan raised his head, and he looked like a cat, with Song Yu pinching his face and squinting his eyes in cooperation.

"Thank you." Cheng Yan's brows and eyes were curved, but he didn't smile. He was in a calm mood. He said this suddenly, and there was no time for anyone to react.

Song Yu pressed his forehead, stroked his eyebrows, and asked, "Thank you for what?"

Cheng Yan thought of a lot of things, and he didn't know why. Tonight's feelings overflowed too much, and he couldn't control it. It was caused by the cat, or it had been suppressed all the time. He said emotionally: "Always, all these years, and recently I'm in a bad mood, thank you for being by my side."

He is very happy this year, every day, he is grateful for everything, especially the people in front of him.

"If you talk about us like this, we can't finish talking," Song Yu said rationally: "You said thank me, then should I thank you even more for choosing me when I was most emotionally unstable, knowing that I have The problem is, you are still willing to accompany me for treatment, sometimes you can't help hurting you, but you still choose to forgive me, no one else has done this for me."

Cheng Yan took Song Yu's hand, rubbed it in his hand, bowed his head and said, "I don't think you have any serious problems, and I also believe that you will be fine. If you don't get better, just leave it like this. I will still be with you. It's not a big thing to commit once in a while, and it's not difficult for me to satisfy you once in a while, although it's a bit scary when you bite me madly, but I will continue to love you the next day."

Song Yu's eyebrows and eyes are gentle, and the small faces under the street lamp are full of sincere emotions. If they hadn't met each other in this life, they don't know how bad each other's life would be.

"It's you who made me better, Song Yu." Cheng Yan must admit that it was Song Yu who saved him in a critical moment. He who was in a daze gave him a goal, a vision for the future, and something he wanted to do thing, and know how to do it.

Song Yu raised his hand and touched the corner of Cheng Yan's eyes, as carefully as if touching a precious object, "We all make each other better, so there is no need to thank each other."

This is indeed the case, they don't need to thank each other, they are by each other's side, who pays more, who owes who more, has long been unclear.

"Do you remember the first time I went to your house?" Cheng Yan held his wrist, recalled the first time he went to Song Yu's house, and wanted to say something in his heart. After Song Yu nodded, Cheng Yan continued: "Your mother recorded her education for you and the story of your growth in a book. She wanted me to know about your past, your tragic childhood experiences, and wanted me to be more tolerant and more tolerant to you. Love you with patience and compassion."

Song Yu listened carefully: "And then?"

Cheng Yan raised his eyes, bumped into Song Yu's gentle eyes, and said sincerely: "I didn't take that book with me, and I didn't go to see your childhood experience. I don't think I need to know how miserable you are. , What terrible things you have experienced, to love you with this kind of compassion, I don’t think I need any external push to love you, I just like you uncontrollably and instinctively.”

Song Yu chuckled, his eyes filled with satisfaction.

"Also," Cheng Yan expressed his worries, "I'm afraid to see your childhood experience. I'm a coward. I dare not go to see it. I'm afraid I won't be able to accept it. I'm afraid I'll have nightmares. Love has turned into pity, I am afraid of many, many..."

Cheng Yan's voice was trembling with fear overflowing his mouth. Song Yu hugged him tightly and let him lean on his shoulders. Under the gentle moonlight, the shadows of the two overlapped.

"I know you must have experienced inhuman torture, otherwise you would not have such a great psychological trauma, but forgive me for not wanting to understand your past, I just want to love you now." Cheng Yan hugged Song Yu neck, the voice was suppressed intermittently.

Song Yu leaned his head against his ear, he really liked this cute boy, and responded sincerely: "Idiot, of course I won't blame you, to be honest, I really don't want you to see my past, There is no need to paint a relationship with pathos, we are in love, other superfluous things are not pushing, but hindering, it is enough for you to know me now, there is no need to know what I went through when I was a child, and, I like When you look at me now with a smile in your eyes, if there is more sentimentality and pity in it, I swear I will hate it, understand Cheng Yan?"

"Then you will