HBWnovel Chapter 9
Chapter 9
The nanny died.
She was already a nanny who was seriously ill. Despite the ganoderma lucidum and ginseng that Su Miao mixed out every day, she still could not survive this winter. Worried, in the bursts of painful coughing up blood, I regretfully closed my eyes forever, and never opened them again.
After the snowstorm, the sky and the earth are white, and the entire courtyard is filled with crystal clear snowflakes, reflecting the dazzling light; the cold wind suddenly blows, and the white butterflies flutter and fall, dancing in a cold and speechless dance. elegy.
Su Miao was wearing a plain dark dress with a skirt and a white cloak. She was too thin and her waist was too tight to hold. She stood silently in front of the window, looking at the white and clean world outside the window. Her pale skin was almost bloodless. , transparent as if it is about to disappear, the long black hair is loosely tied in a bun, and a white magnolia flower is inserted in the hair, decorated like broken stars; Reflected in a pair of phoenix eyes as clear as a mirror, the light in those eyes sank into the bottom of the eyes, like a shooting star flashing across the sky in the endless darkness of the night, bright and short-lived.
Under the old tree roots outside the window, a little ice and snow have melted, and the snowflakes falling from the branches have turned into mud and stains like falling red.
As an ordinary servant of the Su family, the nanny was lonely and helpless, and there was still no one to collect her after death. Just like other deceased servants, a shabby mat simply rolled up her dilapidated body and was thrown in the chaos of the wilderness. Burial mound; at best, it is just a simple solitary grave, and it can be regarded as buried in the ground.There are no tombs, no mausoleums, no memorial tablets, perhaps like bones that have been annihilated into ashes in time, leaving no trace of a trace of what once existed, and can only be forever forgotten with the indifference of memory.
The new maid, Xia Zhu, bowed unskillfully and left, closed the door awkwardly, and left along the corridor with small steps.
"Human feelings are so fleeting!" Su Miao turned around, her brows furrowed, her pale and thin cheeks revealed a sad sigh that didn't fit her age, as if the carefree years were gone forever.
The cold snow color shines through the window lattice in the empty room; Su Miao's bright and sad eyes clearly reflect a tall and handsome figure.
Liu was still with long hair tied up, handsome and tall, with a plain silver-gray long sword pinned to the waist of a light blue narrow-sleeved gown, but a cold light shone on the hilt; she heard Su Miao's soft sigh, her heart suddenly felt It hurts slightly.
That day, the nanny saw Liu when she was dying.
At that time, the frail old nanny pointed at Liu tremblingly, trembling her withered lips, her eyes turned pale with fright and even panicked, and she said in a trembling voice, "Monster...monster!" At that time, she was already terminally ill. The nanny opened her arms, and although she was unable to do what she wanted, she still tried to protect Su Miao under her body, her vision was blurred but she tried to say firmly, "Miss, come here quickly! Monster, monster! Go away!"
That look of an old cow protecting a calf made Su Miao both moved and sad, sobbing, she stood up from behind the nanny and stood beside the expressionless Liu, "Nurse! Xiaoxiao is not a bad person, she will not hurt Mine, don't worry!"
The nanny was even more anxious, coughing violently several times, and blood drops splashed on the white snow, like a withered plum blossom in the bone-piercing wind, "Demon, how can a monster be good! Little, miss, don't be fooled by monsters!" cheat!"
Su Miao looked at Liu with indifferent eyes, and then at the nanny with a worried face. She wanted to explain but was unable to explain, "No, it's not. Nanny, Xiaoxiao has never lied to me..."
The nanny was dying, so she only had time to put on a stern look, "Monster, monster! Leave Miss quickly, otherwise, otherwise..."
In the end, the nanny still couldn't tell what would happen otherwise, the last breath of her tiny life stopped at this moment in this icy morning, and the condensed red at the corner of her mouth became the last color she left in this world.
Su Miao wept silently on the nanny's thin body, the melancholy and grief in her heart was fixed at this moment, and there was nowhere to dispose of it, just as those hesitation and entanglement could no longer be explained.
Liu stared blankly at the scene in front of him frozen by the cold wind, and Su Miao's sad tears seemed to fall on her heart one by one, a chill.Every word the nanny said before she died was like an ice knife, cutting her heart and flesh with a knife, but she couldn't stop it, and she couldn't stop it.
Miao'er didn't explain anymore, and she couldn't explain; she was just crying, crying for the old woman who died with a stoop and shriveled.
Liu felt a burst of suffocation, suffocation to the point of panic; she stared blankly at Su Miao who was crying on the ground, and suddenly felt that the sly girl in front of her was getting farther and farther away from her, more and more strange, and her heart became more and more It was empty, as if something was out of her control and gradually left in an unknown place from her heart, but she couldn't even grasp it.
The 12 years of getting along has been reflected in Miao'er's heart since she was born, and from the moment those bright eyes reflected her figure, she unknowingly blended her own destiny with Miao'er's fate; The bright smile under the dark shadow of the grape arbor in the sun attracts her to keep her eyes on it; time and time again on a whim, time and time after time she can't help but indulge her boundless pampering; it seems that she is getting closer and closer to her, It seems that seeing her heartbeat will become faster and faster, it seems that the indifferent face is becoming more and more difficult to maintain, it seems that the heart is getting softer and lighter, it will be light and light with her happiness, and painful with her sadness.
If, if you stay away from her like this moment...
Liu frowned slightly.The feeling of being so far away is like the frozen wind and snow that seals the atrium, which is icy cold...
The snow is heavy and deep, and the ice is long.
That day, such a bone-piercing cold, such a panic that penetrated to the bottom of my heart, every time Liu thought about it, he would feel depressed, and he didn't know how to dispel it.
Su Miao, who was standing coldly in front of the window, had become as thin as a weak willow in just a few days; what made her feel even more distressed was the decadent aura that Su Miao radiated from the inside out, so alienated and decadent that it frightened her.
She didn't want to see such a little boy at all.This is not the lively and agile Miaoer she used to be.
Liu quietly accompanied Su Miao, thinking silently in her heart.
The Su family is one of the most wealthy families in the small town of Qingcheng. They can be regarded as a local wealthy family. Su Shen was once selected as a scholar when he was young, but he never left the court after getting married. Apart from being young and flirtatious, he also has a good reputation.Later, the Yao family was also considered to be a relatively well-known scholarly family in the local area. The Xuxian Yao family is said to be elegant and gentle, dignified and generous, with a compassionate heart. Zeng Yun, a well-known monk, said that she had a relationship with the Buddha and voluntarily brought her to the family after her death. Fa practiced for three years before he was undecided.
Although the emperor at that time advocated the way of Buddhism and Taoism, and Yao's move was talked about by people, it was a good deed, but after all, Yao was already called an old lady, and many young talents were vying to marry her. In good times, it is difficult to match the right marriage.The Yao family selected Su Shen as a talented member. Firstly, Su Shen's family status is comparable to Yao's family, and Su Shen is also an upright man; secondly, Su Shen lost his wife when he was young, and his wife left only one daughter. Not much difference.
After marrying into the Su family for more than a year, Mrs. Yao lived up to expectations and was expecting to be pregnant. At the beginning of the new year, she gave birth to a big fat boy after a flurry of fuss. For Su Tan.
The main courtyard was bustling and noisy, with lights and festoons, but Su Miao watched it indifferently for a while, wrapped her white cloak indifferently, and passed a deserted New Year.
Su Tan's full moon wine was being held during the Lantern Festival, so Su Shen entertained the guests lavishly and spent money to celebrate it, making the Lantern Festival extraordinarily grand.
Su Miao remained indifferent as usual, as if she wasn't very interested in these things.
When Liu walked through the open window, she saw Su Miao leaning on the bed, holding a thin book with a pale face, her slender hands brushed between the pages, like the gentleness of spring breeze blowing willows.
Su Miao didn't seem to notice Liu's arrival, until Liu came in front of her, she still focused on the book in her hand.
There was a hint of anger on Liu's face, and he pressed his hands on the page of the book, suppressing the anger in his voice, and said, "Su Miao! How long are you going to torture yourself like this?"
Su Miao looked up in surprise, but saw that Liu Pingsu's neatly combed hair was a little messy, and her voice was hoarse and exhausted, and the words she wanted to argue suddenly disappeared, she lowered her head silently, and spoke softly. Said, "Xiao Xiao, I know. It won't be like this anymore."
She can only be silent.No matter how much she fights for the nanny, no matter how much she hates her own powerlessness, no matter how much she wants to give up on herself and freeze herself, no matter how much she wants to punish herself and torture herself, Xiao Xiao shouldn't be affected.After all, Xiao Xiao was the one who hurt the most by what the nanny said before she died!
She willful and selfish wants to be self-enclosed, decadent and depraved, but she ignores the feelings in her heart, which should be even more painful!
Thinking about it, Su Miao put down the book, looked deeply into Liu's eyes, and said solemnly, "Xiao Xiao, I'm sorry! I've been ignoring your feelings, and I won't be like this in the future!"
Liu was stunned for a moment, then shook his head, "I'm fine. I just hope you can be well."
Su Miao bent her lips and smiled, a trace of warmth rose from the bottom of her heart, she gently held Liu's hand, "Xiao Xiao, thank you!"
Liu nodded shyly, her face flushed slightly, she looked at the book Su Miao had read before, "Do you want to learn Danqing?"
Su Miao let go of Liu's hand, turned around and sat down, "Yes. I want to draw the nanny in my heart, so that I can always remember her in the future and won't forget her easily. But, I never had a husband, Even this primer still misses the point."
After leaving the warmth in his hand, a trace of loss slipped through Liu's heart, but it was only for a moment.She thought about it, but said to Su Miao, "I can teach you."
"Really?" Su Miao raised her lips and smiled, and the long haze seemed to be dispelled by the sun, and there was a gleam in her eyes.
"En." Liu nodded, "I'm pretty good at Danqing. But..."
She suddenly stopped, and Su Miao looked at her expectantly, "But what?"
Liu took Su Miao's hand and looked out the window at the still bright sky, "Today is the Lantern Festival, you should go shopping!"
Su Miao was stunned for a moment, her heart was filled with emotion, but she pretended to be angry and rushed forward, "Xiao Xiao, you are so cunning!"
Liu Mingming could easily dodge it, but it seemed that he couldn't dodge it. The two of them bumped into each other inadvertently, and were stunned at the same time.
Amidst the faint embarrassment, traces of different feelings gradually grew.
The author has something to say: The next chapter is the Lantern Festival, and the story begins with the exception of the two!
☆, Lantern Festival