you can only love me

Chapter 66

On the fourth day of the new year, I went to Du Mei's house to pay New Year's greetings. The two elders of the Du family didn't know what to think. When it came to children, they talked about freezing eggs. .

Asked my opinion, I was peeling oranges for Du Mei at the time, and I said, "I don't plan to have one, I can't finish one, but I will serve two."

Du Mei ate the oranges I fed her and said, "I think if we stay together forever, the baby will still be born."

My eyelids suddenly twitched violently, and I frowned.

She may think that I am afraid of pain, "If you don't want to give birth, then I will give birth to you, and I want to give birth to a child with your flesh and blood."

It would be a lie not to be moved by what I said, but that kind of touch is heavy. I was in a very complicated mood. Looking at her, I didn't know what to say or how to say it.

Du's father and Du's mother also frowned in embarrassment. They probably planned to have a child with the blood of Du's family. If Du Mei took my egg to give birth to Du Mei, then Du Mei could only be a surrogate and had no blood relationship.And I want to say, let's go back and discuss this matter behind closed doors. In front of the two elders, I am embarrassed to say that I am not ready for such a thing.

In the current situation, I can only follow her and ask, "Aren't you afraid of pain?"

"I think I can live with it," she said.

Ask again, "Whose sperm is taken?"

"You can start paying attention now," she said.

I shook my head and threw the orange peels into the trash can, "You don't have to give birth to yourself, you can adopt one."

She lowered her head, wiped my hands with wet wipes, and wiped them carefully one by one. "I hope to give birth to a child with your flesh and blood. If it is not possible, I will consider adopting it."

So on the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, because of this matter, I was very awkward all day long, even pouring a cup of hot water could scald my tiger's mouth.

When we arrived at our own house at night, when there were only two of us, I mentioned this to Du Mei again, and I said, "Are you really interested?"

She nestled in my arms and worked on the computer, with her legs stretched straight, staring at the laptop screen, "Why don't you pay attention, what you should do, you just need to provide eggs, and then we will select sperm together, and you don't have to worry about other things .Don't you like children?" Speaking of this, he looked up at me as if to prove it.

I twiddled the couple ring on my middle finger repeatedly, "I like it, but you are enough for me."

She spared her keyboard hand and touched my face, "Then don't be nervous, I didn't say I will give birth now, but I just freeze the eggs first." She went back to use the computer again.

I prepared a load of words in my mouth, but they all rotted in my stomach.

Just like milk that is too sweet will make you greasy, there is a feeling that the sweeter it is, the more intimidating it is.

In the next few days, I was unconsciously a little scared when I saw Du Mei. When I saw her, I couldn’t calm down and panicked. I was afraid that she would take me to freeze some eggs. I didn't want to get serious, as far as I'm concerned, I'm not ready yet.

No one close to me understands the matter of raising a child, let alone ask my mother, God knows how she will react!I think I've messed up enough.

The first thing that comes to my mind is to ask Chen Ran, a pregnant woman, is it painful to give birth?Although I like children, will it be troublesome to raise children?

Chen Ran wondered why I suddenly became concerned about this matter, and teased me, "I'm so anxious to know who I'm pregnant with."

I was not in the mood to retort, "I just understand."

She said succinctly, "I can't empathize with this matter. If you are really curious, take my daughter away for two days, and you will feel everything."

I think it makes sense, so a few days after the annual leave, I took their children to visit the amusement park, play the Ferris wheel, the carousel, actively feed and eat, walk and give hugs, and a series of in-depth parent-child activities. It feels like being a little mother.

Since Chen Ranwei gave me a pair of sunglasses that day, I wanted to find a reciprocal gift and return it back. The "change fee" given by Du's father and mother was quite generous. I bought a double fish mouth at the GUCCI counter The stiletto heels are for Chen Ran, the heels are not three to five centimeters high, just right for beginners like her.After she got the shoes, I swung the little glutinous rice in my arms and said, "Your mother will definitely not sprain now."

She looked at it for a long time, didn't say a word, just raised her hand and hugged me.

I stayed in place as a zombie for a long time. Under normal circumstances, I should have pushed her away immediately, but I was abnormal that day, and I even lusted after her embrace. When I realized this, I was shocked.

I heard her saying to me, "Le Jin, why are you so loving?"

"The ticket for the five-day tour of Europe is not yet available, how about the three of us go together?"

I didn't answer her, I think both sides have fouled in this game between me and her.

Du Mei didn't say anything in those few days, but the sarcasm made my heart beat faster, "You seem to be very busy these days."

I hugged her from behind, "I'm fine."

She paused, "Do you have enough money?"

The movement of hugging her froze for a moment, "It's enough flowers."

In fact, I felt a little weird, as if I was covering up something.She was also a little weird, as if she knew something.

One night, while Du Mei was still typing on the computer, I forgot to turn on the airplane mode and fell asleep. In the middle of the night, Chen Ran came to WeChat, "What are you doing? I sorted out today's photos and sent them to you. "

Du Mei was probably afraid that the sound of the phone would disturb my sleep, so she picked it up and wanted to turn on the airplane mode, but the dialogue window that popped up on the screen made her stunned for a moment, and finally pulled me out of bed, and then the biggest accident happened so far. A family quarrel.

In fact, when she took my newly bought Ai Crazy Seven out of my hand and smashed it into four pieces, I really didn't realize what happened.

Thinking about it afterwards, I would be personally angry if I did this, so it's no wonder that her slap was so loud, it wasn't a question of whether it hurt or not, but the buzzing of the whole ear.

She was not much better, her entire palm was as bright red as if it had been scalded by boiling water.

She lowered her hands, wiped away her tears and said, "Le Jin, you are shameless, didn't we agree to be together? You said you loved me, and that's how you love me? Do you know who she is? She's not clean, do you understand? Do you think I don't know what you're doing these days? Let me tell you, I can pretend I don't know, but it doesn't mean I can bear her provocation by posting such photos in the middle of the night!"

Although I fully understood what she did afterwards, I was so emotionally swayed at the moment, and I was very angry. It’s okay to pinch and beat me at ordinary times, but this is the first time someone rounded my arm and hit me in the face, and my face was burning with pain!The mobile phone I just bought with pocket money during the Chinese New Year fell into that ghost again. I wanted to comfort her, but I couldn’t be more angry. I did a series of actions that I regretted and felt very relieved when I thought about it later——throwing the quilt, changing pajamas, pulling Get out of the suitcase, pack your clothes and stuff them in, then close the door and leave.

When I pulled out the suitcase, I knew she was looking at me, but I turned my face away and didn't look at her. The fact that I was slapped in the quarrel is too embarrassing and degrading. I have always believed in 'slapping people is not slapping the face' This is the principle, so when she slapped her down, I fell silent. I could feel the rapid swelling of the left cheek. If the phone hadn't been broken at the time, if I turned on the selfie function, I would probably be able to see a clear five-fingerprint.

When I walked into the living room, she had already gone to get the ice pack, but I chose to turn a blind eye and leave without turning back when I opened the door.

When the elevator was going down, I just thought about it back and forth. It was too much, I mean me.

You hold someone else's child and let your mother hug you, passer-by A took pictures of your smiles so bright, what language can you use to explain it?Do you think any amount of it is worth that photo that seems to be an irrefutable proof?You said you don't like Chen Ran, and you keep in touch with her again and again, do you really dislike her?If you don't like her, let someone hug you?In fact, it's not that you don't know that the other party likes you at all, but you just see through and pretend to be friends, right?In the past, it was possible to say frankly that he had no feelings for Song Xiaole, but now he can frankly say that he has no feelings for Chen Ran?It's fine to lie to others, so why lie to yourself.Since you can't convince yourself, don't try to convince others naively.

After I figured it out, I was very depressed at that time, and I wasn't so angry with her, but I was very disappointed with myself. I thought I was really unreliable. She was right in questioning, and she was right in her investigation.

Maybe I was stunned by that slap. It's not that I have nowhere to go. I can go back to the company dormitory, but I just dragged my suitcase and walked aimlessly on the street. I found a bench and sat down. Looking at the dazzling neon lights, I feel that my body has no energy, because the tears have been held in my eyes for a long time, so I want to cry quietly for a while, I can’t rely on this thing, I’m like that person from the beginning, obviously I can’t control myself behavior, so why expect to be influenced?

Smoking made me dizzy and nauseous, a bad feeling.

Life seems to be forced to continue no matter how sad it is. After the Chinese New Year, I have to go to work. I bought a new mobile phone and made up a new card. Du's parents and Du's mother's "change fee" is very reasonable. After the end of the year, the wallet is still abundant.Colleagues have been wondering why I have a swollen face after the Chinese New Year. I am embarrassed, and I say that the gums are inflamed because of too much food for the New Year.They also laughed at me, no wonder I don't have long breasts, so I was eating snacks.According to the past, I must have retorted back, but I was not in the mood at that time.

In the next few days, I lived in the dormitory. Chen Ran called me, but I didn't answer. She sent a text message, just three words "I'm sorry" and a stop. Something must have happened to me, otherwise Mo Mingqi would say sorry , but I'm really not in the mood for research.In fact, I know that if I want to continue the relationship between me and Du Mei, I should take the initiative to contact her as usual, apologize first as before, or use humble words to persuade her to stay, what to say It's okay, it's better than putting on a cold posture.

I understand the truth, but the hateful thing is that it is difficult to implement.

I was so irritable, a lot of things were stuck in my head like weeds, and pressed on my heart like a heavy stone, making people repeat inexplicably irritable, irritable, irritable, almost everything was not pleasing to the eye.

The manager asked me to talk, and I entered her office with a sad face.

It is said that the quarterly marketing plan last time was done well, and after submitting it, I received verbal praise from the headquarters. It happened that the headquarters wanted to organize special training, so the company assigned me a place. This training will be held in Shanghai for two years Zhou, the manager informed me three days in advance to prepare me.

Receiving such a task at this time made me feel very complicated for a while. In fact, this is an opportunity to express myself. I should accept it gladly. I really can’t be happy at the moment. The big knot has not been untied. At this time, a business trip is arranged. I don't know whether to cry or smile.

Simply tell me three days in advance, I want to take advantage of these three days to explain clearly, but what did you say when you met?

Did you say that my feelings for her were lost to ambiguity?

Or push it to the corner to start the forced kiss mode without saying a word?

After overcoming all kinds of anxiety, I put a big character on the bed and covered my face with a pillow, alas, I am so distressed!

The author has something to say:

It’s been sweet for so long, what’s the matter with the children’s shoes that the abuse doesn’t let me write two more chapters? (to finger...)

Oh, so distressed!