HBWnovel Chapter 55 The first day I can't hold on
Chapter 55 The first day I can't hold on
Nemo originally wanted to persuade him to finish college happily, and then inherit the family property smoothly, wouldn't it be nice?This is the life that many people dream of. You are a person whose starting line is at the end of others. What can't you think about and always want to run backwards?
Later, I thought about it again, forget it, everyone has his own ambitions.Moreover, Dick wanted to delete the file and retrain, but he didn't tell Bruce or Batman, but he came to tell him.Hey, what happened to the sudden inexplicable sense of superiority?Thinking of Bruce abducting Jason quietly, it seems that it is not impossible for him to encourage Dick to chase his dreams with confidence and boldness so as to add obstacles to Bruce.
So he patted Dick on the shoulder solemnly: "I support you! Don't worry, I will keep it secret for you!"
Dick, who received the first support, finally relaxed his expression in relief, and touched his nose in embarrassment: "I can't talk to others about these things, I can only talk to you, but if I can get your affirmation, I still Very happy."
With that said, he was about to leave.
Nemo grabbed him and said, "You came early in the morning to disturb my sleep, and you're going to leave after solving your mood problems?"
Dick asked sincerely, "Then what else should I do?"
Nimoli pointed to the direction of the kitchen with his chin: "I'm hungry, go make me breakfast."
Dick pointed at himself with his finger, and said incredulously, "Me?"
Nemo looked at him inexplicably: "It's not you, am I talking to myself? Go, Jason is so much younger than you, and the breakfast is the same every time!"
A strange desire to win was aroused, and Dick immediately got into the kitchen.
Ten minutes later, Dick brought him the pale, lumpy, appetizing-looking thing of the night.
Nemo stared at the contents of the bowl and asked, "What is this?"
Dick: "Milk for cereal."
"Is there something like this in my kitchen?" Nemo wondered.
"Yeah, I checked and it's two weeks past due. That's all I'll do."
Nemo: ...
What is there on earth that he can't think about, to torture himself like this?
Dick probably also knew that he couldn't get enough of his breakfast, so he slipped away quickly after Nemo took it, lest the doctor feel bad after eating it and humiliate him face to face.
Nemo struggled to finish his breakfast, and then went to his basement to study potions for a while. When he came up again, Jason had already returned, and he had thoughtfully prepared lunch.
The two of them were very tacit and didn't mention anything about Robin.
Jason knew that Nemo never agreed with him to do this, so he never mentioned this in front of him.He couldn't tell Nemo how shocked he was when he found out Bruce was Batman, and he couldn't share his excitement and joy when he put on the Robin costume for the first time.
He felt that it was the best day of his life, but he couldn't share this beauty with one of the most important people in his life.
Both of them carefully avoided this uncompromising contradiction and maintained a balance in another sense.
……
In the days when nothing happened, time seemed to pass quickly, and in the blink of an eye, three years had passed.
Gotham still has a high crime rate, and the new Robin is also used to the city's dark nights.Nemo obviously didn't want to care about it, but in the end he subscribed to the news of GCPD. When browsing the web every day, he would also pay attention to whether there were news about Chiroptera and birds in the dark night of Gotham.
So he also knows now that this Robin is more ruthless than the previous Robin, especially when dealing with drug dealers and criminals who molest women.
Some time ago, there was a rumor that this Robin violated Batman's principle of not killing, and threw a serial rape | murderer from upstairs.
This can keep Gotham bombed for a long time.Those voices who once stood on Batman's side, supporting and advocating for the police were completely suppressed, and more people stood up to crusade against Batman, questioning whether he has the right to use his own moral standards to decide the life and death of others. The police can easily sanction a suspect without trial, so where is the law? Will lynching eventually become rape and massacre to some extent?
Although the police finally issued the suspect's death investigation report, he did fall by mistake, but this incident still brought great shocks to Batman and Robin.Conspiracy theorists even suspect that this is GCPD colluding with Batman in order to help Robin whitewash his crimes.Some extremists even started gathering crowds to demand the arrest of Batman and Robin.
During those days, Jason was in a very bad mood visible to the naked eye, and he almost quarreled with patients several times when he was helping out in the clinic.
Jason also knew that his condition was not good, so he asked Nemo for leave ashamedly, saying that he was busy with homework recently and could not come to help.
Nemo watched coldly, hardened his heart and ignored them.He hoped that Jason could understand what it really meant to be a police officer, which meant that he had to take on more responsibilities and stricter moral constraints.People will demand him with heroic standards and will magnify all his imperfections.Once he didn't meet their expectations, they would step him into the mud without hesitation.
There is a saying that Nemo still agrees with Batman, as long as Jason is really desperate, he will give up.And Gotham is such a place where it's so easy for good people to despair.
Nemo hopes that Jason, who has been severely beaten by the reality of Gotham, can give up this hopeless ideal as soon as possible.
Jason has been really suffering recently. He followed Batman as Robin for three years, and he became confused from the initial ambition.Gotham isn't any better because he's Robin, they send a criminal to Arkham, and there's another criminal who's tougher to deal with.After a drug deal is disrupted, more drugs will flow into Gotham from the port through the disguise of various cargoes.They sent the criminals with solid evidence to the trial seat, and the truly heinous ones were often safe, and only a small part of the abandoned cannon fodder would plead guilty and stand trial.
Jason was getting angrier and more irritable.He even began to understand Nemo. Maybe Nemo had seen this clearly a long time ago, so he was so opposed to him being a vigilante.
But he was not reconciled.
He clearly promised Batman that he would absolutely obey and follow orders, but he crossed the line more and more times, and he released the anger in his heart by beating those bastards more fiercely, and Batman became more and more severe to him.Inevitably, conflicts began to arise between them.
Up to now, Batman has begun to deliberately refuse to follow him when he encounters relatively high-risk actions during his night patrol.
Jason felt that he would soon have the same ending as Dick—retirement.
But Dick and Bruce have been together for more than ten years, and this kind of relationship is not comparable to that of a half-way Robin.
After Dick stops being Robin, he can freely choose his own life, go to the university he wants to go to, and live the life he wants to live. But what about him?
He was different from Dick. If he was no longer Robin, what reason would he have to stay in Wayne Manor and brazenly enjoy everything that a child in the East End should not enjoy?But he can't go back to Nemo. He broke the doctor's heart once because he chose the identity of Robin. If he returns to the doctor because he can no longer be Robin, his self-esteem will not allow him to do so.
He sighed, and walked down the street full of thoughts, and found that he had unknowingly come to the neighborhood where he and his mother lived together.
He looked at the different street scene around him with some nostalgia, and simply sat down on the side of the road.He doesn't want to go back to Wayne Manor now.Dick is on vacation again, and before the winter and summer vacations, Dick Grayson will return to Wayne Manor.As soon as he came back, the atmosphere in the manor was always a little different.He could sense that Bruce and Alfred loved him too, but it wasn't the same love he had for Dick.
After all, Dick is the first child of Wayne Manor and deserves more preference.Jason knew he shouldn't be envious, but he couldn't help it.But when Batman reprimanded him recently, he sometimes blurted out: Dick would never do this like you.
He will never be able to compare with Dick. The person who really only favors him in this world has left him long ago.
Jason thought sadly.
"Jason Todd?" A strange female voice called out his name.
He looked in the direction of the voice, and saw a fat middle-aged woman in her forties.
"Are you Jason?" Seeing Jason turn his head, the lady affirmed.
"you are?"
"You've grown up so much! If it wasn't for the color of your hair and eyes, I wouldn't be so sure. Hey, don't you remember me? I'm your mother's best friend, Eva Walker." She said The hand gestured to the height of the ribs: "You were only this tall when I saw you last time, and you have grown so big in a blink of an eye!"
Jason flicked through his memory, and managed to recall that there was such a person, but he didn't know if she was really a good friend with his mother.Out of politeness, he responded to her: "Hello, Mrs. Walker."
Mrs. Walker grabbed his arm enthusiastically: "I don't know where you went after your mother passed away. Those gangs in Willis took your house and sold all valuable things. I threw away the worthless things, but I stopped them. I always wanted to have a good time with your mother and friends, and I had to help her leave some commemorative things. I thought that there would always be a chance to meet you in the future, and I would give it to you later. You. Later I heard that you were adopted by Wayne's family, people like us have no chance to contact Wayne, so I gave up."
Jason was dragged away by her, and wanted to shake off her hand very uncomfortable at first, but when she heard that she had his mother's relic, he stopped resisting.
When she arrived at Mrs. Walker's house, she rummaged for a long time, and brought out a cardboard box the size of a shoebox and handed it to Jason: "Hey, that's all."
Jason saw a familiar photo album at a glance, which was one of the few precious happy memories of his childhood.
At that time, he wanted to go to the house to organize things, but those people drove him out very unreasonably, saying that everything in the room was used to pay off debts, and he could not take it away.
At that time, he was too young to resist, so he could only leave with hatred.
He didn't expect that after nearly four years, he could still get these things.
Jason looked at Mrs. Walker gratefully, and thanked him sincerely: "Mrs. Walker, thank you very much!"
"Hey, it's okay!" Mrs. Walker waved her hands boldly.
Jason left the east side with the box in his arms with excitement.Now he can't wait to go back and take a good look at these objects that carry the memories of his mother and himself.
After sending Jason out, Mrs. Walker gently closed the door, and then walked to the inner room of the room, where stood a tall and slender figure.
Henry Duka stood by the window, watching Jason Todd leave with the carton carefully.
"Master." Mrs. Walker's expression was respectful, and she completely lost the street spirit she had when she faced Jason Todd just now.
"Thank you for your hard work." Henry Duka turned his head, looked into Mrs. Walker's eyes and praised earnestly.
Mrs. Walker immediately lowered her eyes, and her tone was a little excited: "It is my honor to be able to work for Master!"
Henry Duka nodded, "You can think about leaving Gotham. Batman is my favorite disciple. If Jason Todd reveals any clues, he will soon find you, which will make you There have been many twists and turns in my plan."
Mrs. Walker immediately said: "I understand, I have already bought a ticket to leave Gotham tonight, and no one here will know my whereabouts."
"very good."
Before entering Wayne Manor, Jason Todd stuffed all the contents of the carton into his schoolbag, and only after carefully checking that there were no omissions did he throw away the carton.
"Master Jason?" Alfred was a little surprised why he came back so early today.
"Well, I feel a little uncomfortable today, so I came back from Dr. Nemo early." Jason excused.
The housekeeper looked at him worriedly: "Did you see Dr. Nemo?"
Jason hurried back to the room, so he nodded and said, "I've seen it, there's nothing wrong with it, maybe it's because of lack of sleep and being too tired."
Ah Fu said with concern: "Then you don't want to go on night patrol with Bruce tonight. Your health is much more important than fighting criminals."
In normal times, Jason would definitely argue with reason, but now he is not in the mood at all, so he accepted the suggestion calmly.
"Well, okay. Then you can speak to Bruce for me."
After speaking, he hurried back to the room.
Alfred looked at Jason's back thoughtfully.
In the evening, when Bruce changed into his uniform and was about to go to the Batcave, Alfred stopped him.
"Master, Young Master Jason is not feeling well today, so I can't go on night patrol with you."
Bruce stopped and turned his head.
"What's up with him?"
Ah Fu shook his head, "It is said that he is too tired, but I feel like he has something on his mind."
Bruce pushed open the door and walked towards Jason's room: "I'll go see him."
His relationship with Jason has been tense lately.Like Dick when he was going through puberty, he didn't know how to get along with boys in this grade.
But at that time, Dick's world was too rich, and sometimes there were conflicts between them. Dick went out to play, and maybe he would not care so much about the previous conflicts when he came back. He would act like a baby to him, and would deliberately change the subject.Therefore, after a dispute, they often reconcile inexplicably.
But Jason's character is completely different from Dick's, his world is too simple.He is also stubborn.He never admits mistakes and never admits defeat.This made Bruce feel very tricky.
Bruce knew that Jason was a very loveless child. He desperately wanted love and valued the people around him who had established close relationships.He could feel Jason's dependence on himself and Nemo.But he didn't want Jason to rely too much on him.This will make him very scared, he is afraid that he will not be able to bear the importance, and he is afraid that he will let down Jason's love.So, as Batman, he was tough on Jason, and as Bruce, he was tough on Jason.He hoped that Jason would retreat in the face of difficulties and put less emotional expectations on him.
His whole heart has been given to Gotham, and he is unable and afraid to respond to any kind of emotion from others.
Dick and Alfred may have seen through his selfishness and asshole long ago, they tolerated him, loved him, but never showed any expectation of whether they would respond.He knew this clearly, but enjoyed it confidently.
But Jason was different.He knew what Jason expected of him, but this made him afraid to get too close to Jason, let alone show concern for him easily.
But that doesn't include now.
Jason hadn't been at the manor for several days, which was not without the impact of the recent accident.But perhaps most important was his attitude.
Bruce thought as he walked to his room, just take this opportunity to ease the tense atmosphere at home.Although I don't know if I'm going to screw it up.
"Jason?" He knocked on the door: "Can I come in?"
There was no response from the door for a long time, and just as he was about to push the door straight in, the door opened.
Jason's eyes were red, and he looked like he had been crying.
"Are you okay?" Bruce asked quietly.
Jason was a little surprised when he looked at Bruce, who was already in uniform but without a helmet.But he replied, "It's fine."
He thinks maybe Bruce needs his help tonight, and he says in a thick nasal voice, "I'm going to change my uniform right now."
Bruce looked at Jason who was in a hurry to change his clothes and said nothing. When he was about to put on the domino mask, he suddenly grabbed his hand.
"Forget it, we won't be on the night watch tonight," Bruce said.
"Huh?" Jason looked at Bruce suspiciously.
Bruce showed him a gentle smile: "I was caught by Lucius and had a whole day meeting during the day, and I'm also quite tired. It's okay to take a day off once in a while."
As he spoke, he grabbed Jason's shoulders and led him down.
"Then, in this extra night, we can watch TV together for a while. By the way, I don't seem to have watched a movie with you. Let's watch it together tonight."
The housekeeper had already come to the audio-visual room ahead of time and turned on the projector.
"What movie do the two masters want to watch?"
"You choose." Bruce gave Jason the choice.
"Uh, is everything okay?"
Bruce nodded, "Of course."
Jason thought for a while and said, "Then I want to watch "WALL-E"
He deliberately chose an animated movie, hoping to see Bruce's reaction.
"it is good."
Bruce took the remote control, pulled Jason to sit on the sofa together, and quickly found the movie to play.
Ah Fu served a large bowl of popcorn in good time.
"Thank you, Fu." Bruce took the popcorn, stuffed one into Jason's mouth, and then threw another one into his own.
Alfred always smiled: "This is what I should do, I hope you enjoy tonight, two young masters."
Jason was overwhelmed, he never expected that the original night patrol preparations would go on like this.
Like an ordinary father and son, they were eating popcorn and watching a well-reputed commercial movie on an ordinary night.
Jason seemed to withdraw for a moment from the unspeakable emotion of the news he had just received in his mother's diary.
But such a scene still made his nasal cavity panting.
He tried to control his emotions not to be too obvious, then closed his eyes, and slowly leaned on the shoulder of Bruce who had already put on his uniform.
Batman's shoulder armor was covered with rough scratches, it was hard and cold, but this couldn't stop Jason from feeling short-lived joy and happiness.This emotional satisfaction made him almost unable to hold back his tears.
He quietly treasured this night and this moment in his heart.He whispered in his heart: Dad
This night is really worth remembering for a lifetime.He originally thought that he would no longer be able to get the favor of anyone in this world, but he suddenly discovered from his mother's diary that his biological mother was someone else.Before he recovered from this huge shock, Bruce responded to him coldly.
Let Jason, who has always doubted whether he is worthy of being loved, finally truly feel Bruce's love at this moment.
He was so happy, he only wished the night would be longer.
With such a feeling of relief, he actually fell asleep leaning on Bruce's shoulder.
When he woke up again, it was already daylight.He woke up on the bed in his room.If he hadn't discovered that he was still wearing Robin's uniform, Jason would have even suspected that what happened last night was a dream he imagined.
He jumped up from the bed and hurriedly opened the bedroom door, trying to find Bruce, but bumped into Dick head-on.
"Yo, Little Wing?" Dick looked Jason's attire up and down, seeing that he was still wearing Robin's uniform, he was a little annoyed.
"It's dawn, Little Wing, Cinderella's carriage has turned into a pumpkin, and you are not a little princess wearing a glass slipper!"
Jason glared at him and asked, "Where's Bruce?"
Dick shook his head: "I don't know."
Jason slammed the door shut.
"Who provoked him again in the morning?" Dick looked at the closed door and said to himself.
Jason was thinking quickly in his mind as he took off his uniform.Originally, he couldn't wait to tell Bruce that he found out that Catherine was just his adoptive mother, and his biological mother was someone else. Now the biggest possibility is Sheila, who used to be a nurse in Gotham and is now a member of the African medical team in Ethiopia. Ms Heywood.
But when he saw Dick, the urge to share the secret with Bruce faded suddenly.
It took him only 5 minutes to decide that he would go on the road alone.He wants to find his biological mother by himself, maybe when he finds the person in this world who is truly connected with his blood and finds his mother, his feelings for Bruce will not be so aggressive, and he will be more calm and rational Go see any member of the Wayne family.After all, at that time, he should also have his own "preferred".
He put away the uniform and wanted to put him in the closet, but after thinking for a while, he decided to take it with him. After all, it was a war-torn area, and there were still many small props in Robin's uniform and belt. If he was really in danger, Robin in uniform is much better than Jason in plain clothes.
He stuffed his uniform into his schoolbag, packed some daily necessities, checked the nearest flight ticket to Addis Ababa on his mobile phone, and turned off his mobile phone when he wanted to book a ticket.His cell phone has a monitoring system, he doesn't want Bruce to find him so soon, he wants to find his mother first.If he can't find it, Bruce will definitely reprimand him for his unauthorized actions.
Seeing that he didn't even eat breakfast, Dick ran out in a hurry, with bread in his mouth and asked, "Where are you going?"
"I'm going to help Dr. Nemo," he replied quickly.
"Baby." Dick sneered.
Jason did go to Nemo first, and he lied that he had lost his phone and asked Nemo to borrow it.
Nemo took out his spare phone to him, and said incredulously: "Is Bruce Wayne so stingy? You can't even afford a mobile phone yourself."
Jason smiled in a good mood, took the phone and thanked the doctor.
Before leaving, he suddenly turned around and hugged the doctor.
"Thank you, Dr. Nemo."
Nemo was inexplicable: "What's wrong with you, it's weird."
Jason said, "I'm going to do something, and I'll tell you when I'm done."
Thinking of Jason's ability to make trouble, he was a little worried: "What are you going to do? I warn you, if you don't die, you won't die. Be good to me."
Jason smiled and replied: "No, it's something to be happy about. I'll keep it a secret first, and I'll tell you when it's done, and then I'll tell Bruce."
When Nemo heard it, he was even more worried: "Are you still hiding it from Bruce?"
"Oh, oh! Don't worry! It's definitely a good thing, I'm sure I didn't cause trouble!" He hugged Nemo's head and kissed him hard on the face.
Nemo wiped his face in disgust: "Hey... drool!"
Jason opened the door and waved to him happily: "Goodbye, doctor."
The author says:
Jason and Bruce watch TV together, and Jason falls asleep leaning on Bruce's shoulder. This cartoon is from the fourth chapter of "Red Hood and the Outlaw" by n52.
Memories from Red Hood.I was very defenseless watching it... so I used this scene here.
《家庭之死》的情节在本文中会作为背景出现，但不会正面写，毕竟我也不是什么魔鬼……【心虚.jpg感谢在2022-04-2818:21:05~2022-04-2916:21:13期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~
Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: I don’t know the name of 1;
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