After the apprenticeship, I became a hater

Chapter 53

But these are just my conjectures.

I blinked my watery eyes slightly, and slowly lowered my eyelashes, no longer coveting the bright sunshine outside.

"Late night."

I turned around, and sure enough I saw Luo Wuchen.

In the past, Luo Wuchen came to look for me every day, and I hated it in my heart. I only hoped that he would come late and leave early, and hope that Luo Wuchen would not appear in front of me every day.

But this time it was different, if he had come back earlier, he would have bumped into Su Lianyi.

I can't hit Su Lianyi through the restriction, but Luo Wuchen can. If he can help me beat Su Lianyi, I will...

Luo Wuchen's voice interrupted my thoughts.

"What are you thinking?"

Some irrelevant, unfounded cranky thoughts.

The so-called one month later is a good day for Luo Wuchen to kill his "wife" to prove the Tao, but it's just a conjecture that I don't know whether it's true or not based on Su Lianyi's deliberately vague words.

The timing of Su Lianyi's appearance was too coincidental. Luo Wuchen imprisoned me in Killing Peak for such a long time. I just went out today, and Su Lianyi came. Even the timing of leaving was before Luo Wuchen came back.

Such a coincidence, even for me, couldn't help but feel a little deliberate.

As for Su Lianyi's vague words, they were even more suspicious.

I have already been imprisoned in the Zetianzong, and I can't escape, so why does Luo Wuchen need to continue to hide it from me, and don't let me know.

Even if Luo Wuchen needs to kill his "wife" to testify, why wait a month later...

I blinked my eyes and suppressed the thoughts in my heart. I didn't look directly at Luo Wuchen's face, but slid down and stopped at the hem of his clothes, "Why are you here so late?"

Luo Wuchen likes to wear white clothes, his white clothes are always spotless, but this time I found a few inconspicuous stains on his clothes that are as white as new snow.

It seems to be a bit dusty, undetectable, but it still exists.

The stain was brown, black and reddish, as if blood had been inadvertently stained, the trace left by the dried blood.

I don't know whether it is from humans or monsters.

Luo Wuchen reached out and touched the top of my hair lightly, and his expression seemed to be somewhat relaxed: "Next time, I will come back earlier."

I twitched the corner of my mouth indifferently, disapproving in my heart, thinking, I was just talking casually, and I didn't want you to come earlier.

Although I now know that it is better for me not to say some things, but I have never been soft-tempered and submissive.

So, I chose to call Luo Wuchen, a doggy man, a bloody mess in my heart.

"How did your hand hurt?" Luo Wuchen held my cold hand, frowning slightly.

I didn't struggle, instead, following the strength of Luo Wuchen's fingers, I opened my tightly clenched fingers, revealing my bloody palm.

The small wooden thorn that had been pierced into the palm of my hand earlier was broken in the flesh because of my improper handling.

Even though it was only a little bigger than the tip of a needle, it hurt so much that I couldn't help frowning tightly between my brows.

I also tried to pull out the wooden thorn by clamping the small part exposed outside, but my fingers were not very flexible and my movements were a little stiff. Not only could I not pull it out, but the thorn was still bleeding. More blood flowed from the wound.

The blood on the fingertips was cold and sticky, I wanted to wash it, but Luo Wuchen came over...

I sat on Luo Wuchen's lap without struggling, followed his instructions to expose my injured palm, and let Luo Wuchen pull out the wooden splinter for me, treat the wound, and behave like a string at the mercy of others puppet.

After lessons again and again, I have learned to be well-behaved and how to avoid myself from suffering more.

Anyway, what Luo Wuchen wants to do to me, I am powerless to resist, since resisting is meaningless, it will only make my situation more difficult, so why bother... asking for trouble.

No one in this world cares about how hard I live except myself.

So, I can only make myself as good as possible.

Even though my heart repelled Luo Wuchen's touch, I still resisted the urge to struggle.

What's more, now that Luo Wuchen is helping me heal my injuries, I don't need to struggle for my own sake.

My fingers were cold and stained with blood that hadn't been wiped clean, while Luo Wuchen's fingers were warm and dry, but when he pulled out the splinters for me, I felt my palms freeze.

It was as if something cold brushed against his palm.

I looked down subconsciously.

Luo Wuchen has already picked out the wood thorns for me and is applying medicine for me.

The wound medicine he used was not low-grade, I only felt a itch in my palm, and the broken flesh and blood grew back together, leaving only fine scars, which will completely fade away and disappear in a few days.

Luo Wuchen picked me up again and took me to the bathroom.

I counted the time, and it was indeed time to eat.

Luo Wuchen is like an experienced animal trainer, he won't feed me completely every time, but uses whip and food to tame me step by step.

I've never been against eating, but I'm tired of pointless eating.

Even if I keep all the food in my belly, the spiritual power I can get is still poor.

I don't know where the spiritual power went, obviously I had already refined it as early as possible and stored it in the dantian, but my dantian was always empty.

The spiritual power that entered my dantian was like disappearing into the sea, without any trace.

Eating has really become the eating that keeps me alive.

Fortunately, Luo Wuchen will not stay after feeding me.

This gave me a break to breathe,.

Whether physically or mentally, I don't want to be in the same space as Luo Wuchen.

only……

My tail, the scar is healed and the pain is forgotten, it will always wrap around Luo Wuchen's wrist, as if to keep it.

Luo Wuchen's eyes flickered slightly on my tail.

Again, so again.

My eyes widened slightly, and I belatedly put the tail behind me under the quilt to cover it.

"See you tomorrow."

I said hastily.

In fact, what I think in my heart is not to see each other tomorrow, not only not tomorrow, but also the day after tomorrow.

Anyway, one meal can keep me going for half a month. It is best for him to appear during the half-month deadline, and not to appear at other times.

Luo Wuchen didn't leave like before, but stayed instead.

"I'll accompany you."

But I don't need you to accompany me.

I don't like you anymore.

The person I don't want to see in this world is you...

Luo Wuchen hugged me, and his movements lightly and softly ran down my hair. If you ignore my indifferent eyes, this situation even has a bit of warm meaning.

I am the worst at acting.

Like is like, hate is hate.

I can't lie to myself.

With the utmost patience, my fingers gripped the fabric underneath, scratching the poor piece of fabric until it crumpled.

"Need not."

I slowly pushed Luo Wuchen away.

"I don't need you to accompany me."

Luo Wuchen seems to be in a very good mood today, but how he feels has nothing to do with me.

I was sick of seeing him.

Even being perfunctory fills me with impatience.

No matter whether the information Su Lianyi sent me is true or not, how true and how false, the only constant fact is that I was imprisoned here by Luo Wuchen and became his prisoner.

As for the sentence, there is no end in sight.

Even prisoners in prisons have a time limit.

Those with few charges may be three to five years, or ten or eight years.

Most of the charges are either lifelong or death penalty.

There is always an exact punishment.

But I didn't.

I don't know the charges, nor do I know what punishment I will bear.

Know nothing.

What I hate most is not knowing.

The taste of being kept in the dark is enough to taste once.

Even if it is death, let me be a ghost.

My face was reflected in the mirror, my face was slightly rosy, but my expression was almost numb and calm.

"Luo Wuchen."

I looked at Luo Wuchen and said softly, "When will you let me go?"

"Are you going to lock me up like this for the rest of your life?"

No one wants to be imprisoned for life.

I am no exception.

Luo Wuchen didn't answer.

His not answering is also an answer.

So, I understand.

It turns out that my sentence has no end.

I will be locked here by Luo Wuchen, until my life comes to an end.

This cold fact is like a heavy stone, pressing firmly on my heart, making my breathing difficult and my eye sockets hot.

What am I doing wrong?

No matter how vicious the demon is, he will be released one day after serving his sentence. What evil did I do to torture me like this?

Why won't you let me go?

What did i do wrong?

Was it because I shouldn't have chosen to run away when I found out that I was just Luo Wuchen's lover?

Was it because I shouldn't have picked up Luo Wuchen who had lost his memory and tricked him into double cultivating with me?

But I have been punished.

Isn't that enough?

Could it be... there is a crime I don't know about?

There was a buzzing in my ears, my breathing was slightly suffocated for a moment, and a strong sense of despair hit me instantly.

...might as well kill me.

"If you really hate me that much, kill me..."

I murmured in a low voice.

"Xie Wan," Luo Wuchen frowned, with a slightly anxious tone: "Don't talk nonsense."

Nonsense, you're driving me crazy and berating me for talking nonsense.

I smiled bleakly, my whole body felt cold, the blood all over my body seemed to be frozen for an instant, unable to flow, my whole body seemed to have been cast some kind of petrification technique, turning into a stiff stone.

The whole room fell into a brief silence.

Although there was a dead silence around me, I seemed to hear noisy and chaotic noises surrounding my ears.

【Xie Wan, why are you always self righteous? 】

【You offended Sword Master's majesty, this is your punishment. 】

【Luo Wuchen's attitude is so obvious, why don't you believe what Su Lianyi said? 】

【You are his love interest, you still think he can let you go...you are so stupid. 】

【The reason why he spared your life and fed you is to kill you with his own hands a month later. 】

【Before that, he will naturally not let you die...】

"……what is this?"

"What's the point of keeping me here like this?"

I am isolated from this world, and I will eventually be abandoned by the world.

Homeless, nowhere to go, no branches to cling to.

After a while, Luo Wuchen's voice sounded.

"I will marry you."

So?

I suddenly wanted to laugh.

Marry me...give me the rightful status as a Taoist companion.

But so what?

I never need to.

What I want is to be able to stand upright in the sunshine, no longer receive strange eyes, no longer be bullied by others, and spend the rest of my life freely.

Thinking about it, I laughed.Laugh at yourself for being overwhelmed, laugh at yourself for being whimsical, and laugh at yourself for being obsessed with obsession.

"Xie Wan," Luo Wuchen held my hand tightly, my arm was strangled by Luo Wuchen, "Don't think so much."

Am I thinking too much?

maybe.

But I can't help it.

I'm always in the dark.

Always be the last to know the truth.

What can't you tell me?

Even if my love as Luo Wuchen is destined to die in his hands, I will admit it.

Kill me.

it's OK.

I have had enough.

I'm so tired of living, I'm so tired...

"Luo Wuchen..." I still laughed, but my voice was choked with sobs, "Can you let me go?"

"I will give you everything, as long as you are obedient, I will treat you well..." Luo Wuchen looked at me with anger from being refuted, "Xie Wan! Stay by my side, Is it not good?"

My eyes were red, and obviously I didn't blink my eyelashes, but a tear suddenly ran out of my eye socket.

"not good."

You are not nice to me at all.

Anyway, you just want to keep me for a month and kill me later.

Anyway, you are just for your Tao...

Why do you have to trap me here.

It's not like you can't find me.

Then kill me.

"If you want to kill me, can you do it faster..."

"...don't torture me any more."

I can't take it anymore.

I really……

Unbearable.