【Xun Si】How Could You Possibly?

Chapter 18: Locks

Chapter 19Part.19

Shinji stayed at Kaoru's house all weekend, and they had endless time to do the things they loved.The whole set was only done three times, but they didn't take a step out of the apartment for two whole days, and they were tired of being together all day long - judging by this, it is really impressive how much they have endured before.Anyway, under the circumstances, it was a miracle that the two of them arrived at school refreshed on Monday morning.Normally, Shinji, who is barely human at the start of a week, looks energetic and in a good mood today, an anomaly that is striking.

A light, contented mood is like a breeze blowing in their hearts for the rest of the week.Their happiness seemed to radiate outwards, and everyone noticed that this pair was so lively, but it was only a weekend and it was very different from before.At the same time, since their group of bad friends are all clinging to each other, this phenomenon has become a topic of conversation every day.And the two protagonists in the gossip are right in front of them, how could they resist asking about it.

Interestingly, people who would ask questions were repelled by the two people's daily behavior.They grew close, as if the air softened just by being with each other.The two of them were open and frank in everything they did, and felt that there was no need to hide anything.Or, uh- at least Shinji had changed his mind.As for Kaoru, he has always been used to this, this is his nature towards Shinji.

In the next few weeks, due to the clues left by the two from time to time, the mystery of the whole incident was gradually lifted.Everything becomes transparent, Shinji doesn't force himself to reveal their relationship, but at the same time he doesn't have to hide it - Kaoru acquiesced in doing it because his other half likes it.

The clues are some daily details, such as holding hands for a short time, sweet whispers, and a closer distance than ordinary friends.Surprisingly, it was the more shy of them, the one who had tried to avoid showing affection in public, who became more proactive in the days and weeks that followed.When happy, peck each other's cheek lightly, and even kiss on the forehead - Shinji has to stand on tiptoe to kiss this part.Now Shinji is more cheerful, and Kaoru is surprised by each other's every move.

curious.

Things that used to be avoided have now become warm daily routines.As time goes by, everyone's perception of this has changed. "Yeah, they're definitely together" and "It's like an old married couple" — that's nothing new to anyone.But it wasn't a serious topic at first, it was just gossip, and Shinji finally realized that he was the only one who was digging into a dead end.Only him.Now that the anxiety in his heart has dissipated, he is naturally willing to spend time with Xun every day, and Xun only feels that he can't ask for more.

However, there is another detail worth mentioning: Asuka lost, Kensuke won the bet.

Neither of them claimed to be the other's boyfriend yet, but that was only a matter of time—at least until Kaoru could bring up the topic, and Shinji could get used to it.Everyone is waiting, although they know the relationship between the two of them well, and they have long regarded them as a couple.

Live every day carefree.Shinji used to suffer from insomnia all night long, but now he can fall asleep almost as soon as he touches the pillow.The once sleepless nights are now full of sweet dreams.Everything is different from before, everything is so beautiful.In his eyes, his apartment was no longer filled with eerie silence like it used to be.

But life can't be everything you want.There are only a few days left in the deadline for the couple's project, and a hellish week is coming as scheduled.They've spent a month or so just lazily composing, but their work has to be turned in this Friday, and the ensemble is due at the beginning of next week—not yet finished.The consequence of procrastination is that they have a week to live with.

The real problem wasn't meeting the deadline, though—it was the duo that really worried them—and Shinji's situation was even worse.As usual, he didn't have enough confidence.But this time he could no longer escape, and had no choice but to play.Except for playing the piano for Kaoru, Akagi, Misato... and Li once, he has never really performed in front of others.Almost no one has really heard of his talent, or rather, almost no one has heard his piano sound.So Shinji's sleeping condition returned to the previous level again.Because of his inexperience in performing in front of people, he walked on eggshells—the fear of failure, the anxiety of disappointing himself, and the rest of the audience.

They figured out how to deal with it.Practice ensemble after school one day while their friends volunteer to sparring.A group of people set up a row of plastic stools in front of the two of them and sat on them to simulate the audience.After the performance started, Shinji's face gradually turned pale, and the clouds and mountains in front of his eyes were covered with fog, and finally he couldn't even see the music score clearly.Only then did everyone realize the seriousness of the problem.

"Shinji—please, it's just us."

"I've heard you play the piano before..." Li said softly, blushing a little, "I think you play the piano very well."

"But—but I—"

"It's just - let go of your mind." Kensuke pressed Shinji's shoulders, staring at him with almost fanatical eyes to hypnotize, "You can do it. You can do it. You can do it."

"It... doesn't work at all." Shinji resisted, annoyed by Kensuke's close distance and his mantra-like words.

"You can do it. You can—"

"Stop, to be honest, Kensuke, it's useless."

"you--"

"Jianjie, let him go." Dongzhi grabbed Jianjie by the back collar, picked him up directly, and then turned around to put him down.This scene is quite funny. "You have to believe in yourself, Ikari. I really want to hear your performance, and I have been looking forward to it for a long time-"

"It's the same here, please hurry up and finish everything," Asuka interrupted them, "I have an appointment with Mary at four o'clock, I don't have time to waste..."

"Asuka..." Kaoru whispered, a little annoyed by her indifference.But his mood didn't last as Shinji responded.

"I—I don't know what's going on, I'm just nervous. I...I want to try again." Shinji blushed again, looking down at the ground.Thinking that he would delay his friends' spare time for such absurd reason, the apology and guilt in his heart could not be suppressed at all.He's too shy to play properly when there's more than one listener - asshole, even if there's only one listener, he'll sometimes act out of nervousness, depending on who it is and the circumstances —He's the worst at this kind of thing.

"no problem."

"It sounds pretty good just now."

"... His complexion is not very good, why don't you stop practicing today..."

Shinji didn't know what to do.Leaning on his friends did help him to some extent, but he didn't feel like fighting alongside them.He felt more guilty than encouraged.Even if he knew that they cared about him and were willing to help him, he still couldn't help thinking that... If they knew what he was thinking, they would definitely be very angry.

It was late when they were done.Asuka had already gone to meet her girlfriend - they'd heard of her before (and met in a rather embarrassing situation), and Rei had gone to pick up her sister from kindergarten.After a while, Kensuke and Toji also went to participate in physical training.The worst thing is that even Kaoru left because

Shinji suddenly felt a hand on his shoulder, and vaguely heard someone talking.He took off his earplugs and looked up at the man with blank eyes.Lack of emotion, but in short, it also eliminated the melancholy.

"Ok?"

"Shinji..." Kensuke noticed his expression, smiled cautiously, and looked down at him happily.care. "How are you?"

The boy who was questioned bit his mouth in bewilderment and took a deep breath.His fingers fumbled for the headphone cables, and he pulled them unconsciously, averting his gaze.Awkward.

"Well, well, I'm fine."

"We will always be with you, brother..." Kensuke felt a little embarrassed, he shrugged at the schoolbag strap on his shoulder, and sighed, "Even Asuka will, okay? Seriously."

Shinji's eyes glowed brightly, and he showed a moving smile, but still a little sad.He doubts himself more than anyone but—he still feels warm when he hears others say that he believes in him and that everything will be fine.

"Thanks," he whispered, "I'm sorry I've been, um, so—"

"You're not a burden. Don't say that. We all believe in you, okay? Don't underestimate yourself..."

Shinji's Adam's apple rolled, as if something was stuck there.Unprepared to hear these words suddenly, he was caught off guard.

"Okay," eventually even his voice became a little choked, he didn't dare to look up at his friend, "thank you..."

"I'm serious." Kensuke snorted, pushed aside the disgusting words that made him a little embarrassed just now, reached out and rubbed Shinji's head, and pulled him into his arms. "I know we don't usually say these things, but you remember what I said today, okay? Even Asuka. Even her, huh?"

"Yeah." Shinji's face was still buried in Kensuke's chest.He smiled, his voice sounding indistinct.

"Okay. Keep practicing then, I can't wait to hear you play, okay?"

"OK……"

"ensure?"

"ensure."

Translation: This part is mainly about friendship, Ki Kaoru’s lines actually only have one line, and he just called Asuka’s name hhhhhh

But it was really touching.This "not really alone" setting is what I like.

And Jiansuke, don't you think your posture is a little too ambiguous? Uwawawa a little anxious>