My Feelings Can Wait

Chapter 124

Ji Yuyan's thoughtfulness touched Jing Xiu's heart. She straightened her waist, looked at Ji Yuyan and said softly: "I don't want to say it, so do you want to ask?"

Ji Yuyan's eyes flashed, he rubbed his forehead against Jingxiu's, and said honestly, "I think so."

Jing Xiu kissed the tip of her nose, showing a faint smile, with a hint of understanding.

Afraid of her misunderstanding, Ji Youyan said sincerely, "Ah Xiu, it would be a lie to say that I don't care at all, but what I care about is that I have missed you as a bastard. And I want to know, just because I want to know everything about you. Know."

Jing Xiu said "Yes", bit his lips, and said concisely: "Song Wenyan and I are married by marriage, and he has a man he likes."

Ji Youyan opened his lips slightly, and forgot to even blink, showing obvious astonishment.Many chaotic thoughts flashed through her mind, first she was shocked, then happy, and finally nervous and sad.

"Why?" She found her voice.

Marriage is not a child's play. Accepting physical marriage means locking yourself in a cupboard and giving up the real happy married life you might have.This is not the life she wanted her to live after she gave up Jingxiu.

Jing Xiu drooped her eyelashes, and replied almost inaudibly: "Because it's not with you, what's the difference with anyone?"

Like a heavy hammer, it hit Ji Youyan's heart hard, and Ji Youyan's throat was instantly sore. "A Xiu..."

Jing Xiu noticed something, put her arms around her neck, stroked the back of her neck, and comforted her with her eyes, "It's not your fault, it's my own fault. The only time in my life I was not responsible for my persistence, But this time, let me regret it for the rest of my life."

"My grandfather and Song Wenyan's grandfather had a very good personal relationship. I met him a few times when we were very young. Later, he came to Europe with his parents to explore the market. I have been classmates with him for several years, and gradually became a A friend with a good relationship. He has always liked men, because his parents have a bad relationship, his father can’t control him, and his mother turned a blind eye, so this matter has never been brought up on the table. Until about September of this year In October, his grandfather had a health problem, and the family dispute was serious, so the matter was brought to his grandfather. His grandfather is a conservative person, he can accept Song Wenyan and acting on occasion, but he can't accept that he really wants to never marry. To stay with a man for the rest of his life. He gave Song Wenyan an ultimatum, either to get married and inherit the family business, or to leave the house and hand over the family business to his father's illegitimate son."

"His mother couldn't accept that her husband was robbed, and things belonging to her son were robbed. She cried and made noise. Song Wenyan had no choice but to come to the set to visit me. It was the first time to negotiate with him. Formal marriage is both helping and cooperating. Because I was one of the suitable candidates for a commercial marriage that his grandfather had delineated for him. At that time, I thought it was ridiculous to regard marriage as such a deceptive lie, so I rejected him."

At that time, she comforted Song Wenyan that you can't have it both ways.Song Wenyan asked her very desolately: "Why can everyone have both, people like us deserve not to have both."

Jing Xiu opened his mouth, remembering the anguish that they had never been able to be upright when they were in a relationship with Ji Yuyan, and couldn't answer the high-sounding words.

"For the next year or so, Song Wenyan chose love, and never made any move to get married. His grandfather's health deteriorated and he became impatient. He gave up on him and brought his father's illegitimate son into the company to start cultivating. , fought with him on the same stage. Song Wenyan's mother couldn't sit still, forced her to die, and went to the hospital. When I went to visit his mother on behalf of my family, I bumped into the breakup conversation between him and his boyfriend on the aisle. "

"They looked like they were in a mess, just like us at that time."

Ji Youyan had mixed feelings in his heart, and asked her softly: "You couldn't bear it, so you decided to help him, didn't you?"

Jing Xiu shook his head, nodded again, and said with distant eyes: "That was not the moment for me to make up my mind. After I went in to visit his mother, I sat with him in the corridor for a long time. He kept his boyfriend on his lap. He came to give to his mother but was thrown out by his mother at a glance. When I got up and was about to leave, he suddenly asked me, "Can you really help me?" Before I could answer, I saw him turn sideways. Look at me, there are drops of water dripping from the side of the thermos bucket I was holding. That was the first time I saw him cry."

"I was silent and didn't know how to answer. He turned to me and asked me, 'Will Ji come back?'."

These words not only pierced Jing Xiu's heart, but also pierced Ji Yuyan's heart at this moment.Ji Youyan lowered his head and kissed Jing Xiu's arm around his neck, feeling uncomfortable in his chest.

Jing Xiu stared at Ji Yuyan, with a soft expression tinged with sadness, "I understood what he said. I didn't say yes or no, so I got up and left. After I went back, I was in the music room. I was in a daze beside the piano, as if I had thought a lot, but I didn’t seem to think about anything. It was getting dark, and I opened the memo on my phone, it was the 1365th day.”

"I admit it, you won't come back."

Ji Yuyan's tears suddenly fell on Jing Xiu's arm with the kiss.As soon as she imagined how desolate Jing Xiu was alone in the dark, she felt pain. "I kept you waiting."

Jing Xiu reached out and gently stroked Ji Youyan's hair, denying, "You didn't make me wait, I couldn't go out by myself."

"I sent a text message asking Song Wenyan, 'Will he come back?', Song Wenyan was stunned for two seconds, and replied, 'He will wait for me to go back.'." 'He' refers to Song Wenyan's boyfriend. "I think, you won't come back. Sooner or later you will enter the palace of marriage with another person, so what is the difference between who I marry, and what's the point of clinging to this false name? It's better to make a poor couple people."

"Yanyan, am I stupid?" Jing Xiu laughed at himself, with a hint of water in his eyes.She thought that Yan Yan didn't care about her anymore, but she didn't expect that this decision would become a reminder to take Ji Youyan's life.Too painful to live, too late to regret.

Everyone advised her that it was an accident, and let her let herself go when they thought she was going crazy.But she still blamed herself, unable to forgive herself who indirectly killed Ji Yuyan, and even angered Song Wenyan.

Since her rebirth, she can no longer make friends with Song Wenyan like before.As soon as she saw him, she would think of her heartache in her previous life.She is more afraid than anyone else of repeating the same mistakes.

Ji Youyan sniffed, eyes were still red, and eased the atmosphere: "You are stupid."

Jing Xiu frowned dissatisfied.

Ji Yuyan reached out to wipe the moisture under her eyelashes, scraped the bridge of her nose, and said with pity: "There are obviously thousands of people better than me in this world, but you are so stupid to hang yourself on my crooked tree. neck tree."

When Jing Xiu heard her use the description "crooked neck tree" to herself, it was a little novel and a little funny.She laughed aloud, pretending to be helpless, and said: "It may be that your tree is too lush, blocking all my sight."

Ji Youyan followed her and bent her lips slightly, "Then I will keep it." She touched the corner of Jing Xiu's eyes with her fingertips, watching Jing Xiu's affectionate eyes with an unconscious charm.Jing Xiu's throat moved unconsciously, and his eyelashes quivered slightly.

"Here..." Ji Yuyan's fingertips were like feathers, running down Jing Xiu's cheeks, tickling, sweeping across Jing Xiu's slender neck, and lightly touching Jing Xiu's heart, "Here... let me keep it in the way , never see anyone else again."

Jing Xiu restrained the throbbing in his heart, and said with Qiao: "That depends on your performance."

Ji Youyan smiled in his eyes, and dropped a kiss on Jing Xiu's heart, and then, as if he couldn't help it, and like worshiping, he kissed Jing Xiu's whole body tenderly and tenderly, all the way to Jing Xiu's ankle.

All the senses in Jing Xiu's whole body seemed to be aroused by her, and she gasped with tension.Seeing that Ji Yuyan was still going down, she shrank her calf to avoid it, and said in a low voice: "Enough."

Ji Yuyan nimbly grabbed her slender ankle, and gently stroked her fingertips, which made Jing Xiu shudder: "Not enough."

She lowered her head and wanted to kiss Jing Xiu's white instep in a devout gesture, but Jing Xiu reached out and clasped her jaw, softly but firmly reiterating: "Enough."

Ji Youyan understood her insistence, her eyes were misty, and she took advantage of the opportunity to kiss her from the palm.

She held the back of Jing Xiu's head, kissed and pressed Jing Xiu to lie down, Jing Xiu thought she was going to do something, but Ji Yuyan just put his arms around her waist, causing her to turn over and lay on her own body.

Jing Xiu was afraid of hurting her, so he straightened up and looked at her puzzled, and Ji Yuyan was also looking at her, his eyes were as tender as water and as bright as stars.

"Ah Xiu, in this world, without Jing Xiu, there would be no Ji Yuyan."

Jing Xiu's heart trembled, and he wanted to ask her what she meant, but Ji Youyan said softly, as if coaxing her or begging her, "So, Jing Xiu wants to live a long life."

Jing Xiu was startled, her heart softened again and again, she let go of the strength in her hands, and buried her face in Ji Yuyan's neck. "Yes." She promised her.

Ji Youyan felt much more at ease, holding her whole world contentedly.

"Ah Xiu, I will make you worth it." She promised from the bottom of her heart.

I was too tired last night, and when I woke up, my mood fluctuated too much. Jing Xiu was physically exhausted, lying on his side on Ji Yuyan's body, chatting with her without a word, and fell asleep unconsciously.

The house was quiet, the rain outside the window gradually and completely stopped, the sun peeked out from behind the cloud, and the warm light shone through the glass on the two people who were embracing each other.

Jing Xiu frowned slightly in his sleep.

Afraid of waking Jing Xiu up, Ji Youyan couldn't get up and draw the curtains, so he grabbed the pillow beside him with his free hand, and stretched out his arms to block the light that shone on Jing Xiu's cheeks.

With a heavy heart, she closed her eyes and slowly sketched the face of Master Daokong in her mind.